Arizona Robbins stood alone in the exam room 6, waiting for her next patient, that she had to take care of because doctor Fidd got sick two days ago and he was too contagious to come to work. So his work were pushed to Arizona. She took a look at this patient's file and saw that he was a cop, who had a gunshot wound on his right side.
As she read it, the patient stepped into the room and a spark in his eyes lightened up, when he looked at the beautiful blonde with gorgeous blue eyes smiling at him and ready to check up was he okay. Tony measured her from head to toe. His eyes were full of need to be something more than a patient and it was more than obvious what he was thinking at the moment, he was looking at her.
"Why are you looking at me like that?" Arizona asked from him, even though she already knew, what he was thinking - it practically shined on of his face.
"You look good." He flashed a smile.
"And this coming from a cop?" Arizona chuckled and listened his heartbeat through the stethoscope.
"Oh I'm so much more than just a cop." He said with a slightly surprised voice. He wouldn't except her to refer him a cop after few words, but he let it go and watched her hair in a short ponytail and her neck. He would love to kiss that right now, but maybe it would be the best to let her be the doctor now and kiss it later.
"Do you hear a heartbeat?" He asked.
"Yes, I do. And how are you feeling otherwise, Mr…" Arizona forgot his name and had to check it up from the file.
He flashed a smile. "Dinozzo. Anthony. You can call me Tony, though." He answered before she could say anything.
Arizona smiled. "I'm doctor Robbins by the way." She said and picked up a pencil. She took another file to her hand and wrote something down. "I'm covering up for doctor Fidd, who was supposed to check you up, but unfortunately he got sick." She explained as she wrote.
"It's okay. I'm more satisfied with you working on me than doctor Fidd." Tony smiled and sat quickly up.
"No! Don't get up like that! Lay down!" Arizona raised her voice and pushed him back to the surface of the hospital bed. "You have a gunshot wound, which isn't fully healed! It can open up, if you move like that." She said and lifted his shirt to see how the wound was doing.
"I'm sure it won't. doctor Fidd stitched it up pretty well." Tony said and breathed in her scent, while her fingers were running on his skin, checking up his wound.
"But it can still open up." Arizona lifted her fingers up from his skin and smiled quickly. "It's closed, for now, but please be careful."
"And if I'm not?" Tony asked.
"You'll be back in this hospital bed before you know it." Arizona guessed.
"Well, in that case, I will try my hardest to not be careful. Because that means I might end up seeing you again." Tony said and smirked. He made Arizona blush a little and giggle.
"You are impossible." She said.
"I know, it's part of my charm." Tony said and sat up again.
"Hey!" Arizona raised her voice again and was ready to push him back to the bed, but he stopped her.
"I'm doing okay! See?" He lifted his shirt. "No bleeding, no pain."
"…For now." Arizona added and rolled her eyes.
"Can I go now or do you want me to stay?" Tony asked and put on his jacket.
"Sure, you can go." Arizona nodded smiling.
Before he left from the exam room, he turned around. "Hey…"
"Yes?" Arizona looked at him and the serious expression on his face.
"You got a tender touch." Tony smiled quickly and left.
Arizona stood in the exam room and smiled to herself. She wished he could know who she really was, but he didn't. Somewhere deep inside of herself, she was flattered for the attention she got from him.
Few weeks later Arizona woke up to her pager – it said "emergency". A shooting accident near the hospital, multiple victims and every doctor must report to duty as soon as possible.
Arizona rushed to the hospital and got dressed there. She put her blonde hair to a ponytail and rushed to the ER.
She stopped and looked around herself.
She had practiced this job for a while, but seeing so many people on distress and bleeding, without mentioning the screaming and the crying – it still got to her.
Arizona opened the first curtain and checked the patient's status. The pulse was too weak, lungs were barely breathing and she knew, that at any second this man in front of her, this innocent victim of a somebody else's actions, was going to pass away, and there was nothing she could do. Arizona closed her eyes for few seconds and before she knew, she was calling the time of death.
Her next patient was a young, approximately fifteen year old girl, who has shot to the head. She looked at Arizona with a begging look in her eyes that were wide open because of the pain and the horror she was in. Arizona froze for a second and promised smiling that everything was going to be okay – and then she told the nurse to take her to the OR and page any neurosurgeon near.
Behind the next curtains was someone Arizona recognized. It was the man, who served her coffee from the nearest cafeteria. This man was a father of twins and a loving husband. He listened Arizona's talk about her patients and served her a latte time after time. Now this same man was lying on the hospital bed, barely living and breathing and she was responsible to keep him alive.
She screamed to the nurses and they brought her everything she needed. The bleeding, the swallowing, everything was under a control now. Everything was going to work out just fine.
"Robbins!" Someone yelled at her.
Arizona turned around and saw her boss waving for her to come to see him..
"You got to go to the OR, they need your help!" Boss yelled through the pain in the ER.
"Yes, sir!" Arizona said and ran to the OR's direction. She stopped at the door and took a deep breath. She had to calm down. She lifted her hands up and watched them shaking.
Arizona took another deep breath and controlled the shaking in her hand and stepped inside the scrub room.
While washing her hand, she tried to see who was in the table, under the scalpel and the power of a neurosurgeon. The patient looked like the girl, Arizona sent to the OR a little bit earlier.
Arizona stepped into the OR and walked near to doctor Thompson, who was cutting this girl's brains. Arizona didn't have the permission to cut yet, nothing major anyways.
"Doctor Thompson, how can I help?" Arizona asked from a tall, experienced and very focused surgeon.
"Look at the pressure, while I clamp the bleeding. Watch them closely, look for a change." Thompson ordered and Arizona turned her gaze to the monitor.
"Now, Robbins." Thompson said and clamped a vein.
A rapid peeping filled the air and everyone's pace became twice as fast.
"She's crashing!" One of the nurses screamed.
Arizona looked at the monitor and then the surgeon, who obviously had some kind of a plan and she could only hope, that there was enough time to make the plan work.
Thompson did everything he possibly could, until he gave up and lowered his hand where he was holding the scalpel.
"Robbins. Time of death?" He said quietly.
Arizona held her breath and looked at the clock on the wall. "2. 15 am" She said with a shivering voice. And as she slowly turned her gaze back to the lifeless body on the middle of the OR, her eyes recognized someone from the gallery, looking down first on the dead body and then to Arizona.
It's him, the cop, Arizona thought in her mind. She stared at each other, until she had to turn her gaze away and leave the OR from the orders of doctor Thompson.
At the end of the day, Arizona sat on a empty hospital bed down the hall and sighed deeply. Everything in her head felt like a mess and her hands wouldn't stop shaking.
"Hey…" Tony walked to her. He'd been here all day, partly because he had to and partly, because he wanted to see her.
"Hi…" Arizona looked at the man, who sat next to her.
"Are you okay?" He asked.
Arizona was surprised by the genuine tone in his voice. "I'm fine." She answered and sighed again.
"You don't look like you're fine." Tony noticed and removed a tress from her face. He looked into her blue eyes and saw clearly, just how upset she was because of something.
"It's just that this day has been quite a circus." Arizona said and closed her eyes as she took a deep breathe, trying to control the urge to cry to relieve the stress, tiredness and mess in her head.
"Tell me about it." Tony agreed.
"What were you doing in the gallery today?" Arizona asked and remembered the look that they exchanged earlier.
Tony lowered his gaze to the floor and crossed his arms to his chest.
"That girl on the OR. I was supposed to protect her." He said and sighed. "I was supposed to protect her and now she's dead. I promised her, that everything was going to be fine, but I couldn't keep the promise." He said and remembered how he felt in the second that the girl's time of death was announced. Tony remembered how the mortal feeling hit him hard – no one lives forever.
Arizona looked at Tony and the image that she'd form of him, changed completely.
"I couldn't keep it either." She said quietly and looked away.
Tony turned his gaze to Arizona and smiled quickly, hoping that it would make them both feel better – but it didn't.
"I've been a cop in Baltimore for a long time and I keep acting like I can get over every death that I've witnessed and every bullet that I've shot, but the truth is… I haven't gotten over any of them." Tony said and took his badge to his hand. "And I don't think I've ever will."
"I thought I would've gotten use to these kinds of disasters, but every time I face them… I froze for a while. I can't move, I can't breathe and I just can't understand anything. " Arizona said and looked at her hands. "I'm supposed to become a surgeon, but my hands won't stop shaking…"
Tony looked at her for a little while and took her hands to his. He smiled carefully and looked deep to her beautiful blue eyes.
"doctor Robbins, I think you'll going to be a one hell of a surgeon. You just gotta trust yourself." He said and tried to make her feel better.
Arizona smiled. "Thank you… Tony." She squeezed his hands.
He smiled, when he heard his name coming out of her mouth. "Welcome, doctor Robbins."
"It's Arizona, by the way. My first name, I mean." She said as he took his hands back to himself.
"Arizona? After the state?" Tony asked and thought why someone would name their kid after a state.
"No, after a battleship, U.S.S Arizona." Arizona corrected. "It's sort of a tribute to my grandfather. He was serving in the Arizona and died as a hero on there. My father told me a story about how he's father saved lives before he drowned and something inside of me just wanted to save lives too." Arizona said and smiled to the memory of her sitting in his father's lap as he told the story about her grandfather over and over again. She never got tired of hearing it.
"Is your father a marine too?" Tony asked.
"Yes, he is. " Arizona said with pride in her voice.
"I figured, since he sounds like a man, who would get listed to serve his country." Tony said and made Arizona smile quickly – the pride towards her family grew more.
"Yes, he is a man of honor." She said.
"It's a good thing. Not always, but sometimes it gives you those kind of forever lasting priorities, that you will use the rest of your life and pass them on to someone else then – like your grandfather did to your father and he did to you." Tony said.
Arizona sighed. "Yea, you're probably right."
Tony stood up and looked at his watch. "I'm officially off duty now. Wanna grab a drink with me?" He asked and stretched his back.
Arizona looked at him and thought that now it would be a good chance to tell the truth about her. "Tony, I should tell you something… I'm not looking for anyone, especially a -"
"Me neither. I support casual sex and drinking." Tony interrupted her and smiled. "Come one, doctor Robbins. Take a chance and leap." He smiled. "Or drink in this case." He added and smirked.
Arizona looked at him for a while, then she finally nodded smiling. "Just one drink."
Tony took her hand to his and they walked out of the hospital.
"I can't remember the last time I was sitting in the bar with such a pretty girl like you." Tony said and smiled to Arizona. She blushed and smiled back.
"Did you get so drunk the last time, that you had amnesia?" Arizona asked.
"No, actually. I just can't remember." Tony shook his head. "I've been so busy."
"With what?" Arizona ask and took a sip of her drink.
"Fighting crimes." Tony answered. "It takes a lot of my time."
Arizona shrugged. "I know how it is. I have the same thing with my job. Saving lives is time consuming. I can't remember the last time I was out having fun."
Tony took a sip out of his glass and sighed. He looked at Arizona's eyes - there was something in them, that he couldn't stop staring – something so deep and so… tempting. He looked at them and felt like he could drown inside of the blue color and the deepness of it.
"doctor Robbins…" He started and moved closer to her.
Arizona looked at Tony as he came closer to her. She looked at his eyes, where determination shined like a star. He smiled as he pressed his lips against hers. He moved kissed her for a while, until she pushed him away.
"What are you doing?" She asked and felt sick to her stomach.
Confusion took over Tony. "What?"
"What – What are you doing?" Arizona asked. She was flushed because of the feeling she had inside of herself. She wasn't sure or was she either disgusted or drunk or what.
"Kissing you?" Tony said.
"No… This is not supposed to be happening." Arizona shook her head. She felt tears in the corner of her eyes and she couldn't stop shaking.
"What's wrong?" Tony asked and looked at the shivering woman. What the hell did I do wrong? He asked from himself as he desperately tried to do something to calm her down.
"I can't – I can't do this! I'm sorry." She said and ran out of the bar, leaving her purse and her jacket on the back of her chair.
Tony didn't try to stop her - it would've created more damage than good. He just watched her ran away and shook his head.
"Way to go, DiNozzo." He said to himself and waved for the bartender to pour some more alcohol.
Arizona ran a few street blocks and then stopped to catch a breath. She leaned against a cold brick wall and breathed in and out. She felt like her chest was about to explode.
She wished, she would have told Tony the truth about her before this all could have happened, because how could she face him after this all? How could she talk to him normally after having a tearful panic attack in front of him after an innocent kiss?
Why was this happening? She should have warned him instead of let him play with fire.
Arizona sat down on the concrete ground and hid her face to her hands and sobbed quietly. She felt ridiculous for crying over a one kiss, but she also felt so disgusted and dirty.
Why couldn't she just wipe this all off from her memory? Why couldn't she just erase this day from her mind? Instead of that, she walked to her apartment and crawled straight to her bed.
She cursed silently, when she remembered leaving her jacket and purse at the bar.
Before falling asleep, she tried to figure out a way to tell Tony the truth about herself and how would he take it?
Tony walked thought the hospital doors. With Arizona's jacket and purse in his hand he asked from the staff where could he find doctor Robbins. They told him to go to the second floor, someone saw her there a little while ago.
He thanked and climbed all the steps of the stairs. He thought that the slower he would walk, the sooner she could leave the second floor and maybe even from the hospital, because then he wouldn't have to face the awkward moment between them.
Arizona saw Tony walking towards her and she felt anxiety rushing all over her body – and the burning urge to ran away as fast as she could.
Tony stopped walking towards her, after realizing how her blue eyes where pierced through him. Obviously she wasn't happy to see him and Tony could feel how she wanted to escape from far away.
He smiled nervously, but instead of smiling back, she turned around and started to walk away from him and the whole situation.
Tony caught up on her in the middle of a big hallway. "Arizona, stop!" He raised his voice.
She stopped and took a deep breathe – she couldn't hide or run anywhere now. She had the face this situation.
"What did I do wrong?" Tony asked and looked at her eyes – he saw embarrassment in them and a touch of shame.
"I should have told you to the truth." Arizona said and lowered her voice. She took a grip out of his arm and dragged him to a silent waiting room.
They sat there alone and she desperately tried to find the right words to say, why she got so upset and why she didn't want him to come too close.
"Tony, I'm sorry for last night." She said quietly.
"Apparently I should be apologizing here, or I feel like it. Tell me what I did wrong?" He asked her.
Arizona shook her head. "It's my fault. I should have told you the truth." She said and made Tony look at her suspiciously.
"Tell me." Tony insisted.
Arizona closed her eyes and took a deep breath. "I don't want you to kiss me or anything like that, because… Because I'm a…" She stuttered and tried to spit the words out.
"What? Are you a lesbian or something?" Tony snorted. But the smile on his face changed to more serious expression, once he realized, that he'd guessed right.
Now he realized what he had done wrong. Now he realized that he shouldn't have kissed her at all.
"I'm sorry. I should have told you this." Arizona said and tried not to cry.
"It's okay. At least I know now, before anything more would have happened." Tony smiled quickly. Arizona didn't smile back, she bit her lip and tried not to shed the tears that were burning in the corner of her eyes.
Tony saw, how she felt and wrapped his arms around her. "Hey, really, it's okay… I'm glad you told me."
Arizona clanged on to him as a thank you for not hating her or anything like that.
"And here's your jacket and purse. You left them behind." Tony pulled away from her and handed the jacket and purse to Arizona, who thanked and smiled.
"And just so you know…" Tony smirked. "You're still very hot."
Arizona let out a little laugh that made her feel better. "Thank you." She said with a spark of relief in her blue eyes, in which Tony still wanted to drown, whether she was lesbian or not.
"You're welcome, doctor Robbins." He smirked and made them both laugh.
okay, i was asked to do a gif from arizona and tony. at some point while making the gif, i started to like how they looked together, as weird as it sound.
and then someone said that where arizona was in med school was in the either in baltimore or near it. so i though, i try to write a fic about how would these two characters meet and how could i combine my two otp's, calzona and tiva, together.
so i now ship dirobbins (dinozzo and robbins, just to clear it up). they are my impossible otp. it's ridiculous in a way, but they are pretty together. and i love both arizona and tony way too much. and even that i wrote fic of these two together, doesn't mean i stopped loving calzona and tiva.
this is the first chapter. and sorry about the grammar things in there and the possible medical errors.
and just to be sure, i don't own ncis or grey's anatomy or the characters.
hope you even tried to enjoy.
- L
