Title: Nightmares and Truths

Genre: romance, fluff

Rating: M for language, mpreg, and mentions of lemon

Pairing: JohanXJudai

Summary: As Judai nears the due date to have his and Johan's baby, Johan starts having nightmares of Judai dying in childbirth. But are these dreams, or a vision of the future?

Me: Here's an original story by me!

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Chapter One: Nightmares and Promises

Judai and Johan sat in the room at a doctor's office, awaiting for the doctor to show up and tell them what was wrong with the brunette. Judai and Johan had been dating for a while now, at least 4 years. They really loved each other, and Johan had asked Judai to marry him, and Judai had agreed.

But at least 6 months ago, Judai had started to feel really, really ill in the mornings. Johan was concerned, but Judai told him not to worry. But after that, Judai started to gain some more weight suddenly, and this morning, he fainted.

Johan, being as concerned for his lover as he was, immediatly brought Judai to the hospital, wanting to know if the brunette that he was engaged to was going to be all right. The doctor had taken some tests, and then left to get the results.

Leaving the two lovers to wonder what was going to happen.

"Johan? Do you think there's something wrong with me?" the brunette asked suddenly, causing Johan to glance over at him. Johan placed his hand firmly on Judai's shoulders, holding him close.

"I dunno, Ju-chan. But no matter what it is, I'll always stay with you, okay?" the bluenette whispered as the doctor came walking into the room with a clipboard in his hand and a smile on his face. He walked up and sat by the two lovers.

"Okay, Judai. I don't know how to say it, so I just will, okay?" the doctor smiled warmly. Judai shuddered and held Johan's hand tightly, and Johan gave it a gentle squeeze to show that he was right by the brunette's side. The doctor smiled and placed a hand on Judai's stomach.

"Judai, in three months, you and Johan are going to be parents," the doctor smiled. Judai gasped and Johan's eyes widened. Judai stammered for a quick second before pointing at himself.

"Y-you mean I'm pregnant? But how is that possible? I'm a boy, aren't I?" the brunette asked in confusion. The doctor nodded and then pointed to Judai's swollen stomach, a smile on his face.

"Yes, you are. But for some reason, you are able to bear children. Probably a special power of yours. Anyway, in three months, you and Johan are going to be parents. Congrats," the doctor smiled before standing up and leaving the room.

Leaving the two lovers all alone...

"J-Johan... Do you hate me? Do you think that I'm a freak for being able to get pregnant? Am I a freak for this, Johan?" Judai suddenly whispered, tears streaming from his eyes. He didn't want Johan to leave him.

Judai gasped as he felt Johan's arms lacing around his shoulders, and then Johan kissed the brunette on the forehead. He smiled and then looked at his lover with a gentle smile on his face.

"I'm so glad, Judai. I can't believe we're gonna be parents. I'm so happy, Ju-chan... I will never leave your side during this, so please don't worry about it, okay?" the bluenette smiled. Judai gasped in happiness and then hugged Johan tightly, kissing him gently on the lips.

Johan was going to stay with him through this...

SPIRITSHIPPING 4 EVER

Later that Night...

The two soon-to-be-parents laid in the same bed in Johan's room at the Obelisk dorm. Judai was clothed in a pair of black boxers and an oversized white T-shirt that bulged out a bit because of his pregnancy. Johan wore on his pants and no shirt, since it was hot out.

Judai was laying with his arms wrapped around Johan's bare, strong waist, holding his lover as close as possible. Judai had one hand resting ontop of his swollen stomach, to assure him that the baby was gonna be all right.

Judai was sleeping with a smile on his face, his mind set deep in a calm sleep that signaled nothing but absolute peace in his mind. But poor Johan was a different story entirely. His dreams were not filled with peace.

Johan's face was twisted up in a look of fear and torture, sweat pouring down his forehead, his teeth grit. He rolled over a bit, as if trying to stop the nightmares that plagued him, and it wasn't working. Johan rolled over and panted in his sleep.

"Judai-chan..." he whispered in a cornered voice while in his sleep. The bluenette gasped quietly in his sleep as the nightmare became even worse with each passing moment.

---Johan's Nightmare---

Judai was laying on a bed, moaning and sobbing quietly. His head rolled limply to the side, and Johan felt like he could only watch as this bad thing happened to his lover. Johan couldn't move. It was as if...

This was a vision.

Judai moaned loudly, tears streaming down his cheeks, which were pale by this point. The brunette rubbed his swollen stomach before looking over at Johan with weakness in his eyes. He smiled sadly before he started to go limp.

"J-Johan... I won't... make it. I don't have any more strength. I'm so sorry..." the brunette whispered, clutching Johan's hand tightly. Johan tried to shake his head, to tell his lover not to give up, but he couldn't get his voice out.

Judai whimpered as more pain came and he threw his head back against the pillow he was laying on. The brunette moaned loudly, releasing ragged pants before he glanced over at Johan and several tears flowed down his cheeks.

"I can't go on, Johan... Forgive me... I failed you, my dearest. I'm a failure as your lover," Judai whispered as he laid his head back, running his hand over his stomach. Johan wanted to tell Judai to hang in there, to be strong and not give up, but his voice still wouldn't work.

Judai smiled sadly before looking over at Johan and reaching up, stroking his cheek and smiling sadly, pain and sorrow in his brown eyes. He hadn't given birth to the baby. It had been to hard for him. Everything made sense now.

Judai was near death...

'NO! No, Judai!! Judai, this isn't happening! Hang in there, Ju-chan! Please don't die and leave me all alone! Please Judai!' Johan thought, unable to put his thoughts into words. Judai sighed sadly as the pain came harder, and then he smiled weakly at Johan.

"I love you... my dearest. Farewell... Johan..." the brunette whispered before moaning weakly and then falling limp against the bed he was laying on, his chest ceasing to rise any more, maybe an inch for a second, and then it ceased entirely.

Johan's eyes widened as he saw his lover go limp. It all came crashing down to him. Even if Johan wanted to deny it with all his heart and soul, which he did, nothing could change the truth that had occured.

Judai had died in childbirth.

"JUDAI!!!!!!!!" Johan hollered as he finally found his voice, terror and fear filling his tone. Judai was gone. Judai was no longer by his side any more. Judai had given up having the baby.

And he had died doing it...

---End of Nightmare---

Johan gasped, allowing his green eyes to snap open, and he rocketed upward into a sitting position, gasping and panting for breath, his body covered in a cold sweat. The blue-haired boy shook his head quickly before looking down at Judai

Judai was still sleeping peacefully, his chest rising and falling gently as he slept peacefully. Johan panted and wiped sweat away from his face, still gasping for breath. That nightmare... It was so real...

Johan shuddered and then set his feet safely on the ground before he rose from the bed, careful not to awaken his precious lover. Judai had to save all the energy he could. Johan shook his head, holding it in his hand, and then he went towards the balcony door.

The bluenette slowly pulled open the door before stepping out onto the balcony, slowly closing the clear door, but not all the way. He then leaned over on the balcony, his bare chest covered in sweat. Johan took in deep breaths as he tried to calm himself down.

"C-calm down, Johan. It was just a horrible nightmare. J-Judai's still alive and okay. Calm down, Johan..." the bluenette whispered to himself to calm himself down a bit. The nightmare was just a horrible dream after all. There was no need for Johan to get so worked up over it.

But it had seemed to real...

SPIRITSHIPPING 4 EVER

Judai sighed and rolled over in his sleep, his dreams slowly coming to an end. The brunette rolled around the bed, his hands snaking around and searching for something. When he didn't feel Johan on the bed with him, Judai slowly allowed his eyes to open.

The brunette rubbed his eyes cutely and then sat up on the bed, placing a hand on his stomach and then looking around for Johan. He spooted the bluenette on the balcony, leaning on the railing, his back to Judai.

"Jo-kun..." Judai whispered as he rose to his feet, with some trouble, and he slowly made his way across the blue carpets to the balcony door that led outside. Judai slowly grabbed the door and opened it, making sure not to cause any noise that would startle Johan.

Johan shuddered as he tried to stay calm, and it seemed to be working. Why had he dreamed something that horrible! What was the cause of it happening? What had made the bluenette dream of his lover's death? And at the hands of their unborn child!

"Jo-kun..." Judai suddenly whispered, trying not to scare Johan too badly. The bluenette gasped and looked over at Judai, his eyes widening as he saw his lover standing before him. Johan sighed and then looked away.

"I'm sorry, Ju-chan. I got up and came out here. Did I wake you?" he asked. Judai shook his head, taking several steps towards his lover.

"No, Johan. I woke up on my own. What are you doing out here so late? It's only 2:56. It's not even light out. Why are you up so early?" Judai asked in concern for his lover. Johan shook his head, rubbing sweat from his eyes.

"It's nothing, Ju-chan. Just a nightmare is all..." the bluenette whispered. Judai cocked his head at the mention of a nightmare, and he walked up, placing his hand on Johan's bare shoulder, staring up at him in concern.

"A nightmare? Did something happen in it, Jo-kun? It must have bothered you a lot to have to wake up and come out here," the brunette asked his lover. Johan shook his head slowly. He didn't want to let Judai know what he had dreamed.

"It's nothing, Ju-chan. It was only a nightmare. Nothing to worry about, okay? I'm sorry if I made you worry," Johan said in a soft voice. Judai sighed and hugged Johan around the waist, snuggling into his chest.

"Johan, if anything is bothering you, please let me know, okay? Please. You're always doing so for me. I wanna be there when you need me the most. So please... let me know what's wrong," the brunette whispered, looking up at his lover.

Johan sighed at his lover's words before he reached his hand down and placed it on Judai's swollen stomach, feeling the baby shift inside it a little bit. The bluenette sighed, placing his other hand on the back of Judai's head, holding his close to his chest.

"You died in childbirth," Johan said in a simple voice. Judai pulled back slightly from his lover, his brown eyes wide with confusion and slight shock at what his lover had just said to him.

"What?" he asked the bluenette. Johan sighed and tilted Judai's head up to look into his eyes deeply with his own emerald ones. Judai felt weak under Johan's gaze, and he stared lovingly up at the bluenette.

"I had a nightmare that... you were having the baby. You were sobbing and moaning in pain, and then you..." Johan glanced away, closing his eyes slowly, as if it pained him to continue.

"Giving birth to the baby killed you, Judai..." he whispered in a pained voice. Judai's eyes widened and he glanced down at his stomach before looking back at his blue-haired lover.

"The baby? I died giving birth to our baby?" he asked in a confused voice. Johan nodded with pain in his eyes as he embraced Judai tightly in his bare arms, his shoulders shaking with silent sobs. No tears fell, but they were threatening to.

"I'll never let that happen, Judai! Never ever!" the bluenette hollered in a determined voice. Judai blushed and fell into his lover's strong hold, his brown eyes half open, his cheeks tinted with a pink blush.

"Johan... I will never allow myself to die giving birth to our baby. I promise you that, okay? I promise that I will survive childbirth because you'll be by my side. Okay, love?" the brunette whispered. Johan nodded and then picked Judai up bridal-style.

"Okay. Let's go to sleep now, okay, Ju-chan? I'm sorry that I woke you with this," the bluenette said before bringing Judai inside, walking across the carpet and then laying Judai on the bed. He then went and closed the door to the balcony before going back to the bed.

Johan climbed under the blue covers and laid next to Judai, pulling his lover into a strong, yet gentle embrace. Judai moaned in pleasure and snuggled up into his lover's bare chest, sighing happily and in content.

"Good night, Jo-kun. I love you," the brunette whispered gently. Johan smiled and kissed Judai on the forehead, and then he placed his lips over Judai's soft ones, earning an excited and surprised moan from the brunette. Johan pulled back slowly.

"I love you, too, Ju-chan. Please get some rest now, okay?" the bluenette asked. Judai nodded and then laid against Johan's chest, his hand resting on his swollen stomach. Johan smiled and placed his hand over Judai's, falling back to sleep.

Happy that his lover had comforted him...

SPIRITSHIPPING 4 EVER

Later that Night Again...

Johan grit his teeth in his sleep, his green eyes squeezed shut in a nightmare. He was panting raggedly, trying to stop the nightmare. But for some reason, it just kept on going on. And Johan couldn't control it.

---Johan's Second Nightmare---

Judai was laying under the covers again, moaning weakly and panting heavily in horrid pain. Tears were streaming down his pale cheeks, and he was sobbing hard, moaning and crying out in pain. Judai placed a hand on his swollen stomach.

"Oh god... Oh god..." he whispered in pain before looking over at Johan, a moan of terrible pain escaping his throat. He then reached up and took Johan's hand, gasping in pain. He then moaned loudly and laid his head back.

"I can't continue, Johan. I'm too weak. Please... I'm so sorry. I failed you. I am so sorry, Johan. I'm... I'm a disgrace to you," the brunette whispered before looking back at Johan, sighing sadly.

"Please... find a new lover and forget about me. Raise a family, and forget about me. I failed you, Johan. Please forgive me..." Judai moaned before falling limp to the bed. He then opened his lips weakly.

"I love you, Johan... Please forgive me..." the brunette whispered before he breathed his last, his chest stopping its rapid rising and falling action. Johan's eyes widened as his lover died right before him.

"NO!!! ANGEL, WAKE UP!!!! JUDAI!!!!!!!!!" Johan screamed loudly for his lover, praying that Judai would wake up. But he never opened his eyes, or breathed in a single breath.

Judai was gone...

---End of the Nightmare---

Johan shot up from his bed again, gasping and panting heavily in terror. Sweat covered him again, and he rubbed it off his forehead, gasping and panting in fear. Johan heard Judai moan and then sit up, placing a hand on his stomach.

"Jo-kun...? W-what's wrong? Was it another nightmare?" the brunette asked as he woke up, rubbing the sleep from his brown eyes. Johan shook his head to wake himself up fully, and then he grabbed the pregnant brunette into an embrace.

Judai gasped as Johan hugged him tighter and more protectively than he had before. "I'm so glad, Ju-chan. It was all a nightmare. I was so worried that I was gonna lose you. Please don't leave me..." Johan whispered. Judai hugged Johan back, closing his eyes.

"Johan, I already told you. I will not die in childbirth. I promise you that. Okay? Please believe in me. I will not die giving birth to this infant," the brunette whispered softly into his lover's ear. Johan nodded and kissed Judai on the forehead.

"Thank you, dearest. Now please, my love, let's go back to sleep, okay? I'll try not to have anymore nightmares. Tomorrow, I'll go talk to Saiou and see if he can tell me about these nightmares," the bluenette said. Judai nodded and laid down, taking Johan with him.

"Good night, my love," Judai whispered before falling asleep. Johan smiled and kissed Judai on the forehead before placing his hand on his lover's swollen stomach and then he smiled as well.

"Good night, angel. See you in the morning," the bluenette whispered, so he wouldn't wake his precious angel, and then he fell asleep, holding Judai tightly in his arms, so that the brunette was protected.

And no nightmares followed that night...

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Me: There! The end of the first chapter!

Lucy: Poor Johan's having nightmares of Judai's death! That has to be terrible!

Me: Indeed it has to be!

Lucy: Here's a preview for the next chapter!

Johan: It's not true! These nightmares... They're just nightmares! Judai won't die giving birth to our child. It won't happen! W-will it?

Judai: Johan, I promise that I won't die giving birth! I promise you that!

Next Time: Truths and Visions

Johan: I believe in you Judai. I know that you won't di- W-wait! What do you mean, Saiou? What do mean that these nightmares are visions?! NO! I won't belive it!

Me: Oh no! The next chapter's gonna get good!

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