Note: I do not own Tokio Hotel. I wish. I wrote this just for fun. I take no credit. Please enjoy and review. Here's a tribute to Tokio Hotel's song Don't Jump. I hope one day Bill and his band will read this. Thank you. Enjoy!
A crowd gathered at the bottom an abandon building. Police were on the scene. Their lights flashing on their cars as they stared up at the roof, trying to focus spotlights on the figure standing on the ledge. It was dark with thick black cloud coverage. The people watched and whispered, waiting for the figure to decide what it was going to do. While the police tried frantically to get to the figure before it was too late.
Up on the roof, the wind was cold and surprisingly calm with the threat of a storm. The figure on the edge of the roof looked up at the stormy sky to see blue lightening rake across the black clouds, followed by a big roll of thunder that shook and rattled the broken glass in the abandon building.
The weather's as messed up as I am. She thought to herself. That's when a song started to play in her head. Along with images of the ones she longed to be with. But they don't even know she existed. And with that thought, tears began to fall down her face.
The light won't guide you through.
They're deceiving you.
Don't make it true.
Don't jump!
Please don't jump!
The girl sniffled as she pulled out her vibrating cell phone. She was planning on smashing it but couldn't bring herself to do it. She looked at the caller ID. It was her best friend. She hesitated, not sure if she wanted to answer it or not. With a sigh she picked up her phone and answered it.
"Hello?" She said stuffy.
"Mel?! What are you thinking?! Please don't do this. I am your best friend. I need you. Whatever it is that's making you want to jump, I'll help you with it. Please just don't jump." A voice begged.
"I am sorry, Malissa. I know you were counting on me, but I failed. I can't live like this any more. All I feel is pain. Please just let me go." Mel replied as she fresh tears ran down her face.
You just can't feel it no more.
Somewhere out there.
You lost yourself in your pain.
You dream of the end.
To start all over again.
"No, Mel! I can help the pain your in. Your pain is my pain, remember? We're twins. No one messes with the twins. When one suffers the other suffers too. I am here for you twin. Please let me help you." Malissa begged as she too started crying.
Don't let memories go.
Of me and you.
The world is down there out of view.
Please don't jump.
Don't jump.
"There's probably only one way to save me now. But he won't come. He doesn't even know I exist." Mel replied with her eyes clouded in pain.
"Who Mel? Who can save you if I can't?" Malissa asked pleadingly.
"You should know." Mel replied as she wiped away her tears just for new ones to run down her cheeks.
"It's him isn't it? Again Mel?" Malissa replied thinking back to the last time her friend tried to jump.
"Yes." Mel's strained reply confirmed.
"What if he did come? Would you promise not to jump any more?" Malissa asked as she began thinking.
"He won't come. He doesn't know who I am or even care about me. I am nothing to him." Mel replied as she began sobbing.
"That's not true. You're a fan. You know how much he cares about his fans. They're so important to him. Without his fans, he would be nothing. And you know that." Malissa yelled angry that she felt so helpless. They were silent for a moment, listening to each other crying.
"What if there was a slight chance he came?" Malissa finally asked once she calmed herself down.
"I don't know. I guess I wouldn't jump. But you don't understand how much I need him. If he did come, he'd only stay around until I was safe. Then he'd disappear and I'll be back to this. I don't want that. I'd rather die with him not knowing about me. After all that's how my whole life has been except with you." Mel replied as she fought another round of sobs.
"You don't know that. Once he sees how much you need him and he talks with you he'll stick around for you. You know him better than I do." Malissa replied fearing she might not be able to stop her friend this time. Mel just sighed.
"Promise me you won't jump, and I'll prove it to you." Malissa said serious.
"You have until midnight. At 12:01 a.m. I will jump." Mel replied after a long moment of silence.
"Fine. I'll be checking in. and you're all over the news, so I'll know your every move." Malissa replied as she felt heartbroken but hope was beginning to grow along with desperation.
"Remember until midnight." Mel replied before she hung up.
On top of the roof.
The air is so cold and so calm.
I say your name in silence.
You don't want to hear it right now.
The eyes of the city
Are counting the tears falling down.
Each one a promise.
Of everything you never found.
Malissa sat for a moment to calm herself, before she picked up her cell phone again. She quickly dialed a number and hit the call button and waited frantically for her cousin to pick up. This wasn't the first time she called him in this situation. He answered on the last ring.
"Ello?" came a heavenly accent german voice.
"Gustav, I need your help." Malissa replied as she completely broke down.
"Malizza?! Vhat'z vrong?" Gustav replied worried as he listened to his cousin sob.
"Everything. I can't save her. I can't stop her. I need to stop her." Malissa sobbed.
"Vho? Tell me vhat'z going on." Gustav replied really worried. At this point, Tom, Georg and Bill had stopped what they were doing and were watching their band mate curious.
"My best friend is going to jump off a building and I can't stop her. She's too lost in her pain to reason with me." Malissa sobbed.
"Zhit. Vhy are you talking to me? You zhould be talking to her." He replied feeling helpless and hating it.
"I called you because you're the only one who can help me stop her." She hiccupped as she wiped her face on her wrist.
"How?" He asked desperately wanting to help his cousin. They've been close since they were four. Even though he was in a band, he would do his best to help her. And she would return the favor when things got too much for him. She'd even surprise him at one of their concerts.
"Bill." She said softly. Gustav froze and looked at his band mate. He wasn't expecting that.
"Gustav, why are you staring at me like that?" The lion haired singer asked in german, with a concerned look.
"It's nothing." Gustav replied in german, before he walked into another room. Bill looked to his twin and Georg, who just shrugged and watched Gustav leave.
"Are you on the bus?" Malissa asked with a sniffle.
"No, ve're in a hotel. Not far from your house. Ve're going to play at the House of Blues tomorrow in Cleveland." He replied as he sat on the bed in the bedroom.
"Mel would love that." Malissa said as fresh tears ran down her cheeks.
"Tell me now, how iz Bill zuppoze to help?" Gustav asked getting back to the subject.
"He's Mel's whole life. Without him she would have been dead a long time ago." She replied softly.
"Vhat'z that zuppoze to mean? I am zorry Malizza. I am running on little zleep." He replied as he yawned.
"When she first found out about Tokio Hotel, Bill became her idol. He's helped her through so many things in her life, which hasn't been easy. Mel was abused, abandoned and lots of other things. She started cutting a few years ago. I made her promise not to do it any more and she looked up to Bill for strength. I know he can save because he's the one that saved her so many times before. Just this time he'll know about it." Malissa replied as she fought back tears.
"I zee. I'll figure a way to get him there. You keep her from jumping. Ve're on our way.
"Thank you Gusti. I owe you." Malissa replied grateful.
"Don't thank me until your friend's safe." Gustav replied as he started to think of a plan.
"Ok, call me when you're almost here." She replied as she fought back more tears.
"I vill. Bye." Gustav hung up took a deep breath. He took another deep breath and let it out. He knew he had to talk to Bill and sooner than later.
"Bill? Come here please." He called to the singer in german. He heard Bill get up from his seat and walk into the bedroom.
"What is it, Gustav?" He replied worried at the sight of his drummer. Gustav never called him in a room alone to talk. Something bad must of happened.
"I need to ask you to do me a big favor." Gustav began looking at Bill with such seriousness the singer has never seen in him before.
"What happened?" Bill asked in german, worried at how not himself Gustav was acting.
"I need you to trust me, Bill. You must do everything I ask of you ok?" Gustav continued in german, ignoring his question.
"Can you tell me what's going on? I'd be more than grateful to help if I knew what's happening." He asked not liking this one bit.
"No I need you to promise, you'll do whatever I ask you to do." Gustav replied serious.
"Fine, I promise. Now tell me what this is about." The singer demanded.
"I'll tell you on the way. Let's get Tom and Georg to the car." He replied as he stood to leave the room. Bill followed him to the living room of the hotel, were Tom and Georg were watching TV. They looked up as they came in.
"What's up Bill?" Tom asked his twin curiously in german.
"I'll tell you in the car. Let's go." Gustav replied, not giving them a choice but to follow him.
Once in the car, he started telling them what happened and why they were leaving the hotel.
"I have to do what?" Bill asked in german, shocked that a fan was planning to jump because of him.
"You just have to convince her not to jump." Gustav replied as he focused on driving.
"What I don't get is why this girl wants to jump because of Bill. He doesn't even know her." Tom said in german, concerned for his brother.
"That's just it. He doesn't know she exists." Gustav replied as he remembered talking to Malissa a while ago. She had been upset then too. For the same reason, except this time it was worst.
"So she's doing this to get Bill's attention? Didn't I tell you that our music video was going to make girls go jumping off buildings to get our attention?!" Georg spoke up in german, not amused.
No, I think she's doing it because she feels she's not good enough for Bill. And that he'll never want her as a fan, a friend or more. She'd just be invisible to him and she can't live with that. She's had a hard life. Nothing's easy for her. And when she found out about our band, Bill became her life support. Things got better for her. But sometimes her past comes back to bite her and it ends like this." Gustav replied looking up in the rear view mirror every now and then to look at Tom and Georg.
"Wait a minute, how do you know all this?" Bill asked in german before anyone else could ask another question.
"My cousin Malissa. She's best friends with our little jumper." He replied calmly.
"So you're saying she's tried this before?" Tom asked calmly.
"Yes, lots of times. But she's always walked away. But this time, I am afraid she won't." Gustav replied grimly.
"Why do you say that?" Bill asked half lost in his own thoughts.
"Malissa told me she started an old habit. She hasn't done it in five years. Malissa believes she won't walk away from this one." Gustav replied even more grim.
"What kind of habit?" Bill asked fearing the answer.
"She started cutting again. But this time her wrists. Malissa said that out of all the years her friend has cut she never cut her wrists." Gustav replied sadly. Bill remained silent as he let his mind wander. The rest of the ride was going to be long and silent.
I scream into the night for you.
Don't make it true.
Don't jump.
The light won't guide you through.
They're deceiving you.
Don't jump.
Malissa was talking to Mel. She was trying to cheer her up, even if it was a little. She was surprised when she heard the beep, telling her she had another call. She told Mel to hang on and switched lines.
"Hello?" She said.
"Malissa, Ve're turning down your ztreet." Gustav's voice answered.
"Ok, I'll be outside. Bye." Malissa hung up with him and resumed to the other line, where Mel waited.
"Mel, I am on my way. Please stay put until I get there." Malissa said pleadingly.
"Fine, I won't move. A promise is a promise." Mel replied emotionlessly.
"Good. I'll be there in about thirty minutes." Malissa replied before she hung up. She put her cell in her pocket and started to run towards the front door, grabbing her keys as she went. She was just locking the front door when a black SUV pulled into her driveway. She hurried to the backseat door and climbed in next to Tom.
"Vhere am I going?" Gustav asked as he backed out of the driveway.
"Just drive. I'll tell you when you get close." Malissa replied strongly after she put her seatbelt on. Gustav nodded and tore down the street he had just come down.
"Pull into here. We won't be able to any closer with the people and police." Malissa said once they were nearing a parking lot. Gustav nodded and pulled into the parking lot.
"How are ve going to get to thiz girl if ve can't get any clozer?" Tom asked looking at Malissa as she trembled next to him.
"I know a secret way to the back. Stick close to me." Malissa replied as she jumped out of the car. The others got out and stood around her. She nodded and started running towards the nearby ally.
"Alliez not good. Ve're going to get mugged." Georg muttered. Tom couldn't help but chuckle at his band mate as he struggled to keep up. His baggy pants were slowing him down.
"You won't get mugged. Half these hoboes are watching Mel preparing to jump." Malissa said overhearing Georg's comment.
"If you say so." Georg replied not convinced. Malissa led them through one alley after another. Now they were crouched at the opening of an alley, looking out onto the street. Cops were directing traffic around the crowd that had formed by the tower, Mel was standing on top of. Bill was watching the figure on top of the building. His skin pricked as his own words sang in his head.
I scream into the night for you.
Don't make it true.
Don't jump.
Please don't jump.
"Ok, on the count of three we're going to run for those trees. Ready?" Malissa said, causing them to look at her. They nodded and looked across the street to the trees. Malissa help up her hand with one finger in the air. They watched, waiting for the next finger. Two. They all bunched up their muscles ready to run. Tom smiled as another one of their songs started to play in his head. He looked to Georg, who obviously was thinking the same thing for he had a smile on his face too. Three. They bolted across the street.
Once they reached the other side of the street and were in the safety of the trees, they all looked to Malissa.
"We're not far now. It'd be easier if only two of us went on from here. It's going to be harder to get around the cops the closer we get." Malissa panted.
"Ve'll vait here. You and Bill go on." Gustav said serious and trying to catch his breath.
"Ok, ve'll bring her back." Bill vowed for some reason he felt responsible and wanted to fix it.
"I know you vill." Tom replied with a confident smile at his twin.
"If anyone can it's you, Bill." Georg agreed. Bill nodded and looked to Malissa to tell her he was ready when she was.
"Right let's go. Stay close to me." She replied serious as she led the way through the trees and bushes. The others watched as they disappeared.
"Ok, this is as close as I can get you. Just go through that back door and take the stairs to the roof. Approach her slowly and cautiously. She's usually guarded. Especially right now." Malissa informed him as they hid behind some bushes. They watched as some cops patrolled around the back to the front of the building.
"Vhy can't you come vith me?" Bill asked with his voice low and after the cops had left.
"Mel only wants you. If I am there, it might make things worst." Malissa replied softly as a knife pierced her heart.
"You might be right." Bill replied after he thought about it for a moment.
"I should warn you though, she has a temper. If she feels threatened or trapped, she'll lash out in anger." Malissa said softly. Bill nodded and watched as another cop came around the corner and continued walking back to the front.
"Get ready." Malissa said as she watched the cop walk towards the front of the building.
"Now." She hissed once the cop disappeared around the corner. Bill jumped up and darted towards the door. He reached the door and flung it open. He closed it quietly just as another cop came by. He sighed and looked around for the stairs. They were rusted and he feared they wouldn't hold him, as he began to run up them. To his surprise and gratefulness they held.
He continued to run up the stairs. His legs felt heavy and his lungs burned from lack of air. His nose stung with the smell of iron and rust. He paused on the landing half way to the roof to catch his breath. Then he pushed himself on. He picked up speed once he hit the last two flights of stairs to the roof.
Cold air greeted him, when he opened the door that led to the roof. He looked at the sky and winced as his words repeated themselves in his head.
On top of the roof.
The air is so cold and so calm.
I say your name in silence.
You don't want to hear it right now.
They were the lyrics to his song "Don't Jump." He looked at the figure standing on the ledge in front of him. In his music video, it was his inner being standing on the ledge and he had to save himself. But this time in his inner being's place was a real girl. The girl turned to face him, when she noticed she wasn't alone. She didn't leave the ledge as she made eye contact with him. She looked at him for a moment before she closed her eyes tightly.
Bill studied the girl, as she just stood there. She had long brownish hair with some blond highlights. She was tall but still shorter than him. Her eyes were the purest blue he's ever seen. In truth he'd say she was beautiful. What he couldn't get was why something so beautiful wanted to jump. More of his lyrics played in his head, when she opened her eyes and looked at him again. But in her eyes was pain and confusion.
You open your eyes.
But you can't remember what for.
The snow falls quietly.
"She was right." The girl said softly.
"Pardon?" Bill asked confused.
"Malissa said you would come. I didn't believe her. She was right." The girl replied softly.
"Your friend vorked hard to get me here. Pleaze tell me your name?" Bill asked racking his brain for a plan.
"Melissa but I go by Mel." She replied calmly, though her heart skipped a beat when he talked.
"It'z a pleazure to meet you, Mel. I azume you're a fan of Tokio Hotel, yez?" Bill replied pleased that she was willing to talk with him.
"You have assumed correct." Mel replied cautiously. Zhit, I think zhe'z on to me, Bill thought to himself as he watched her eyes harden and narrow.
"Tell me vhy you are up here then. I am zure it'z not to jump." Bill said calmly. Wrong move. She was closing up. He tensed as she moved her foot backwards towards the edge.
"Why else would I be up here, if I wasn't to jump? I'd be doing this world a favor." She replied with narrowed, sad eyes.
"No, don't jump. Pleaze juzt talk vith me." Bill replied daring to take a step towards her. He watched her eyes track his movements.
"Why? You don't care about me. I am noting to you. You just found out I exist." She replied as tears streamed down her face.
"Yez, ve juzt met. But that doezn't mean I don't care about you. You're a fan. Vithout people like you I'd be nothing. I believe if you come down from there, ve can get to know each other more. Vould you like that?" Bill replied, his heart aching as he watched her suffering in so much pain.
"I can't." She gasped as it got harder for her to breathe.
"Vhy?" Bill asked, wishing he could hold her. She just looked at him through her tears.
"I can't." She repeated as she began to sob.
"Tell me vhy you can't. Let me help you, Mel." He replied gently and soothingly.
"Because I am scared." She whispered.
"Zcared of vhat?" He asked taking another step towards her.
"Of you. Of getting hurt. Of being abandoned again. I can't bare it if you just pretend." She sobbed as she completely broke down. Bill froze. He couldn't believe what he had just heard. He looked at the girl in front of him. She was so fragile and vulnerable. He couldn't understand what he was feeling at the moment. He surprised himself as he walked over to the ledge she was on and climbed on next to her. She looked at him confused and debating whether or not to jump. When his voice trapped her in her spot. He was singing. She listened and realized he was singing "Don't jump" for her.
On top of the roof
The air is so cold and so calm
I say your name in silence
You don't want to hear it right now
The eyes of the city
Are counting the tears falling down
Each one a promise
Of everything you never found
I scream into the night for you
Don't make it true
Don't jump
The lights will not guide you through
They're deceiving you
Don't jump
Don't let memories go
Of me and you
The world is down there out of view
Please don't jump
You open your eyes
But you can't remember what for
The snow falls quietly
You just can't feel it no more
Somewhere out there
You lost yourself in you pain
You dream of the end
To start all over again
I scream into the night for you
Don't make it true
Don't jump
The lights will not guide you through
They're deceiving you
Don't jump
Don't let memories go
Of me and you
The world is down there out of view
Please don't jump
Don't jump
I don't know how long
I can hold you so strong
I don't know how long
Just take my hand
Give it a chance
Don't jump
I scream into the night for you
Don't make it true
Don't jump
The lights will not guide you through
They're deceiving you
Don't jump
Don't let memories go
Of me and you
The world is down there out of view
Please don't jump
Don't jump
And if all that can't hold you back
I'll jump for you.
He held out his hand to her when he finished the song. Mel stared at his hand and then up to his face. She wasn't sure what he wanted her to do or what he was going to do next.
"Take my hand and I'll zhow you that you have nothing to fear. I vouldn't be here if I only vanted to hurt you or abandon you. I came becauze a fan, a friend, my love vaz in need. I am here for you, Mel. Juzt take my hand. Vhat do you have to loze?" He said softly and soothingly. Every word he said was the truth. Mel looked him in his mesmerizing brown eyes and knew he was serious. But fear made her look back down at his hand. His beautiful skin. It looked so soft. She was temped to take it just to feel his skin. Slowly and hesitantly she took his hand. She was surprised at how soft, warm and strong it felt as he held her hand in his. She looked up at his face surprised. And the last of his lyrics played in their heads.
I don't know how long
I can hold you so strong
I don't know how long
Just take my hand
Give it a chance
Don't jump
I scream into the night for you
Don't make it true
Don't jump
The lights will not guide you through
They're deceiving you
Don't jump
Don't let memories go
Of me and you
The world is down there out of view
Please don't jump
Don't jump
And if all that can't hold you back
I'll jump for you.
To be continued..
