Authors Note: Hi Guys, this is my very first Vampire Diaries story. I was a member of fanfiction over 10 yrs ago and used to write Roswell stories, but now, I thought id get back into writing.
The story is set after episode 10 of season 2. At the break over xmas and we assume Rose is fine from her bit. That night however, Damon confesses to Rose just how he feels about Elena and the story starts after this event. I really hope you enjoy it and I would really love to hear your comments and suggestions. I currently have 3 chapters wrote, the ending hasnt been decided yet, so its all open ended at the moment. Thank you!
Elena lifted her face. Realisation spreading into her eyes. Rose was right, and she knew it with all her heart.
"He loves you" she repeated. "He always has" Rose finished. The look in her eyes said everything, how she wished right now that Damon didn't feel the way he felt about Elena, that he didn't love her intensely and how she wished she could have said something to comfort him while he broke down and confessed that he was breaking inside every time Elena looked at Stefan. Rose wished she was the one for Damon, she needed someone right now. But it wasn't meant to be.
Elena sighed. This time the confession felt more real, her mother had said the same thing, but this time, coming from Rose, it felt like she had already accepted it.
"So what should I do?" Elena knew she needed to do something, leaving it just didn't feel right.
"You do nothing Elena" Stefan said stepping out from the doorway. Elena pressed her lips together, she was angry that Stefan would eavesdrop on their conversation, she wondered just how much he had heard. Had he heard Rose describe Damon's crying breakdown the night Stefan had been freed from the tomb. About how he had stopped a night of passion with Rose because his heart belonged to Elena... and it always had.
"Forget about it, he isn't your problem!" Stefan said with a little scowl. Elena felt a pang of sourness in the back of her throat, never before had Stefan bit at her so angrily and never before had she wanted nothing more than to ignore him.
"I can't just leave it Stefan, he's hurting and I can't ignore that, it isn't right!" Elena protested, but before she could rise from her seat Stefan was by her side, gripping her arm. Elena threw her eyes on his hands, shallow pain rising up her.
"Stefan, let go, you're hurting me" Elena moaned.
"I said, leave Damon alone" Stefan bared his teeth, Elena had never seen him like this. Just when she thought things couldn't get any worse, in he walked.
"Let go of her Stefan" Damon growled low, head bowed, eyes burning a hole into him. "You're hurting her" Stefan gritted his teeth but let his grip slip from Elena's arm, he didn't need a fight.
"Go on Damon," Stefan gave a sarcastic smile "Tell her how much she means to you" he continued with a condescending tone. Elena looked angry, pouting her mouth, swallowing hard. "Go on" Stefan persisted.
"I already did" Damon let slip from his bitter little smile. "I told her the night I gave back her necklace" Elena touched the vervain filled pendant and her eyes gave Damon a thank you of recognition. "and then she kissed me..." and with those words Stefan swallowed back the composure and took a step away from Elena. Rose narrowed her eyes, this was not good, her presence was awkward and she knew she'd rather be anywhere else but here, but she needed to be here, for Elena.
"You kissed him?" Stefan asked.
"She doesn't remember, I compelled her to forget" Damon added, a tone of regret in his words. He looked worn and tired, like this had been weighing down his mind for a very long time. Stefan looked revengeful, his eyes filled with anger but his mouth shaping into a sarcastic and wicked smile. He didn't look... Normal.
"I don't remember Stefan, I promise." Elena spoke softly. "and if I did, we wernt together" nail in the coffin. She hadn't denied wanting it, nor did she have any recollection of this so called kiss, but she didn't mind that it happened.
"You kissed him and you meant it! Don't lie" Stefan bit back at Elena. "That's why you wanted to talk to him! You love him don't you?" He shouted, swiping a hand towards Elena. Before he could make contact Damon had grabbed him and pinned him face down on the floor, Stefan struggled, shouting and growling as the two sprang from the floor. Teeth bared and eyes glowing red Damon flared his nose and withdrew his fangs.
"This makes it better for me" Stefan spat out, chest heaving. "I fucked Katherine in the tomb, and I don't regret it!" Elena's expression turned from shock to disgust, she was seething.
"I think I should leave" She spoke, rising from her chair she felt Rose grip her hand, pulling her back slightly but also comforting her.
"No, I think you should leave Stefan" Rose growled low.
Stefan gave one small look towards Damon before disappearing as fast as he appeared. Rose nodded her head towards Damon, gave Elena a small reassuring hug and too left the room, leaving Elena looking at her hands, tears welling in her angry eyes and Damon, staring at her intensely.
"I'm sorry" Damon whispered, his voice broke with sincerity, Elena looked up and met his eyes. She shook her head and gave a little smile as one of her tears escaped and rolled down her face.
"Don't be, you didn't make me kiss you" She bit her lip. "You didn't make Stefan sleep with Katherine" the last word stinging on the way out. Damon looked disturbed, he shifted his weight and looked down at his shoes, he tipped his head slightly, his eyes heavy and filled with regret.
"You didn't kiss me" he swallowed. Elena opened her eyes wide, and her mouth fell open a little, taking in Damon's lie. "I just had to tell you once. I needed you to hear it." he took a breath and recited word for word what he had said to her that night. "I love you, Elena. And it's because I love you, that I can't be selfish with you.. I don't deserve you. But my brother does...did" he gulped and continued. "then I said, God, I wish you didn't have to forget this. But you do. And then I made you forget. You didn't kiss me." Damon looked away from Elena's intense stare.
"Why?" Elena tilted her head, her red eyes now matched her blood filled lips, she stood and walked until she was just a step away from Damon.
"In my head, you kissed me, told me you loved me, said it was always me, and we lived happily ever after" Damon spat out bitter, hurt and choking inside "the end" he added staring into Elena's eyes.
Elena looked at Damon, thinking of what to say next, she didn't know how to react or what to think of Stefan's confession either. Damon could see she was struggling. He pulled her shoulder to him, and wrapped his arms around her frame, and then the tears came.
"I'm sorry" he said simply as her body shook from the shock. "Stefan is a dick for doing that to you!" he breathed into her hair, her face pressed tightly into his chest. "I can't believe he would do that." he finished as Elena's hand met her teary eye to wipe away the sadness.
"Don't do anything Damon, I don't want him" Elena said stepping back. "Elijah is letting her go soon, I don't care if he wants to be with her, it solves all my problems." Damon narrowed his eyes and tilted his head. Elena met his eyes. "I never thought he would confess" she whispered to herself. Damon's eyes narrowed.
"It solves all your problems?" Damon repeated, eyebrows raised.
"Katherine has what she wants, Elijah has what he wants, my family keeps safe, so I have everything I want." Elena whispered. She moved a step closer to Damon, raising her hand to his face. "Thank you" she gave a little smile and took in a deep breath.
Damon nodded and bent to kiss her forehead, his lips met her skin with softness and delicate passion, inhaling her scent. Elena's hand still laid on Damon's chin she pulled him down onto her lips. Taking in his kiss she moved with softness, letting her fingers roam slowly through his hair while her other hand found his as their fingers entwined. Their lips collided and came together with urgency. Elena let her tongue dash his lips, playing with his own tongue. Damon wanted to kiss her forever, but this time he pulled away, eyes burning and lips stinging he rested his head on hers and she sighed a little moan.
"And there's your kiss." Elena smiled, the need in her grip on Damon's jacket screamed don't leave, kiss me forever, but he stepped away.
"You'll regret that as soon as you stop being angry with Stefan." Damon added, his voice sounded sad and his expression matched.
"I already knew." Elena swallowed hard. "I went to the tomb to see him, I saw everything" Elena met Damon's eyes. "I heard everything." Elena raised her eyebrows at that last comment, Damon dipped his in intrigue. He didnt speak, she continued. "I told Bonny I needed to see you, it's like she knew you were ok" she recollected the conversation and continued while Damon stared into her eyes. "She gave me 1 hour" she took a small breath. "He told her he loved her, he always did, he confessed he hated that she had to compel him and not you, she said you were easy" Damon let his eyes fall to the floor, Elena grabbed his face with her free hand, the other still entwined with his. "She used you to get to him and he used both of us to get to her."
Damon met her eyes and swallowed back the bitter taste rising in his throat. His eyes became blurry, filling with single tears. He blinked and one escaped cascading onto Elana's fingers. She gave him a small consoling smile and moved closer to him, their noses touching.
"Thank you," Damon choked " but this doesn't feel right." Damon pulled away. "They both knew you were listening." he frowned.
"I know" Elena sniffed, wiping a little tear away from her own eye. Damon looked like he was breaking inside, and as much as he would regret this, he stepped back and walked towards the door, without looking back he stopped.
"Think about this, if you still feel the same after, let me know." he finished and completely left the room. Elena bit her lip, remembering the kiss. The fire in her belly still burning with desire.
