A/N: This is my first Spring Awakening fic! I'm very excited (and a little nervous) to put this up! I hope you enjoy it! Reviews?
Tell Me You Love Me
Hanschen
When we look back on this, thirty years from now, tonight will seem unbelievably beautiful.
I kissed him. I remember feeling this electricity, I never felt this way about anyone before. There was something about him, that made me love him. I hated myself for loving him. I felt vulnerable, I never let anyone see this side of me. This was all just a game, a test to see how easy I could seduce this poor boy. I never thought of loving him in the first place. He was just there for my pleasure until...
"On my way here this afternoon, I thought perhaps, we'd only... talk." There was doubt in his voice. I felt suddenly felt guilty for taking advantage of him.
"So... Are you sorry we-" I needed to make sure he was okay.
"Oh no, I love you Hanschen. As I have never loved anyone." Reassurance.
"And so you should." I regret saying those words to this day. I never told him I loved him.
I sit here wondering what would have happened if I would have given up my pride and told him I loved him. What would've happened if I promised I would never leave him? I had my chance and I wasted it. It's too late now. Now I sit here reminiscing about those times when I was his world, when there was no one else he cared about except for me. For I truly love Ernst Robel, as I have never loved anyone.
