As I write this, I prepare myself for a fate that I should have accepted many years ago.

I am sure that you know by now what has happened.

Please do not be angry with me, for this was not my choice. If it was, you wouldn't be reading this, and I wouldn't be gone. Long before I had met you, I tried to thwart fate, and now I must suffer the consequences.

Do you remember when we first met? I was running. Running so very fast, and I ran straight into you. You asked me why I was running, in that strange voice of your's, and when my poor lungs couldn't gather enough air to reply… You laughed in my face... I haven't quite forgiven you for that! Upon further consideration, you're laughter is what brought me towards you in the first place… I have no clue what you found so amusing, but from an entire street away I heard your deranged cackling... the fact of the matter is that you did laugh, and you saved me.

And when they saw me, you whisked me away and suddenly my life was brighter, for a time. You took me in, fed me, and lifted my spirits.

Most importantly, you taught me how to laugh.

However, despite whatever we may want… or need, all good things must come to an end. They will take me away, and there is nothing you, or I, can do about it. I have resigned myself. I am so very sorry, for so many things. I know that you thought it was over, as did I… until I few weeks ago… I'm sure you noticed. I didn't realize, until I saw him. He smiled his false smile and waved, and right then I knew that my time had come.

But I think we both knew that it would end with this, eventually. We can't always run away from our problems, and we all have to face them at some point. Especially problems like mine.

Finally, I want to thank you. You made my life a better place, if only for a moment.

Please, please, do not remember me for my poor choices, my fear, or my pathetic end. Remember me for the time we had together, the adventures we shared, and most of all, for my love.

Then I want you to forget me, and go on with your life. You will find others who will make you happy and brighten your lonely days.

I have only one request;

Never forget the joy that you showed me and never lose the laughter that saved me.

All my love,

Helen