MY CRAPPY ENDING

SUMMARY: Set after Fang, Fang reflects on his actions. First chapter is a song fic. Fang's POV! Better than the summary.

DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN MAXIMUM RIDE OR THE SONG 'MY HAPPY ENDING'. THESE BELONG TO JAMES PATTERSON AND AVRIL LAVIGNE.

I was sitting in an internet café in New York City. I had "acquired" a new laptop from a branch of Itex, where I had picked up a few helpers along the way. Of the experiments I had freed, three could fly. Two were Avian-American's, like me, a boy and a girl, and the third was a talking, flying dog. A lab, actually. Much smarter than Total, but don't tell him I said that (not that it matters, anymore).

"Raven! Where's the next hit?" Gwen yelled over the obnoxious noises that is New York City.

Oh, right. My 'new name'. Raven Phoenix Carn. I wanted to erase all traces of "Fang". I didn't want anything to remind me of what I had left behind. Gwen was the only one that knew. She also knew better than to mention it.

"It's in the city. "High School of Fashion Industries" 225 West 24th Street New York, New York, 10011-1794. We could even call them." I said.

"Ah! I love this song!" Sky (the flying, talking lab) said.

I cocked my head to listen.

Oh oh oh

So much for my happy ending

Oh oh oh oh

So much for my happy ending

Oh oh oh oh

Let's talk this over

It's not like we're dead

Was it something I did

Was it something you said

Don't leave me hanging

In a city so dead

Held up so high on such a breakable thread

Not dead, yet, you mean. This song wasn't doing anything except making me feel guiltier. Yeah, I had left. I thought it was for the best. I did it to protect them, to protect Max. I had explained it in the letter, but letter or no, I'm pretty sure Max was upset. She would be mad and sad. She would mope, but if she saw me, she would kick my butt and drag me back to the flock. And probably chain me someone or something. Maybe her? I wouldn't mind that, much.

You were all the things I thought I knew

And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted

We were meant to be supposed to be but we lost it

All of the memories so close to me just fade away

All this time you were pretending so much for my happy ending

Glad your memories fade, cuz mine just come back and try to bite me in the ass. For a while, I thought it was perfect. Me and Max. I thought it'd work out. Then Dylan had to show up and Angel had to go power-crazy. I still loved her, but what did it matter. I had left and Dylan was probably sitting there laughing at me for listening to him.

Oh oh oh

So much for my happy ending

Oh oh oh oh

You got your dumb friends

I know what they say

They tell you I'm difficult

But so are they

But they don't know me

Do they even know you? (even know you)

All the things you hide from me

All the shit that you do

My new friends aren't that dumb. At least my talking dog thinks. People don't have to tell me you're difficult. I know you are. That's not why I left. That's not why I hid stuff. That's not why I snuck out. I did it so it wasn't all on your shoulders. I did it to protect you, Max. Great. Now I'm talking to Max in my head?

You were all the things I thought I knew

And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted

We were meant to be supposed to be but we lost it

All of the memories so close to me just fade away

All this time you were pretending so much for my happy ending

It's nice to know that you were there

Thanks for acting like you cared

And making me feel like I was the only one

It's nice to know we had it all

Thanks for watching as I fall

And letting me know we were done.

I did care. I still do. I just couldn't stay. I couldn't stay with you. I couldn't 'watch you fall'. So instead I left. And probably caused you to fall. But, hey. As long as I don't have to watch. I really am an ass. I didn't think about what would happen after I left. I just thought about what wouldn't. All the bad stuff that might not happen if I left. Everything we could stop. With two flocks. With you focused on the flock and not us.

He was everything, everything that I wanted

We were meant to be supposed to be but we lost it

All of the memories so close to me just fade away

All this time you were pretending so much for my happy ending

You were everything, everything that I wanted

We were meant to be supposed to be but we lost it

All of the memories so close to me just fade away

All this time you were pretending so much for my happy ending

Oh oh

So much for my happy ending

Oh oh oh

So much for my happy ending

Oh oh oh oh oh oh ohhhh

My "Happy" ending? More like 'My Crappy Ending.

"Hello? Raven? Anyone in there?" Gwen said.

"Maybe he's dead?" Riko asked.

That still made me laugh. Riko means "truth" in Japanese. Not much came out of this kid's mouth that was true.

"I'm not dead." I muttered.

"Yay! Raven's alive!" Riko yelled, gaining us weird looks from the people around us. Well, he is seven…

Gwen was looking at me worriedly, but also understanding. She knew what I had been thinking about.

"Should we go, then?" She asked quietly.

"Yeah." I swallowed hard. "Let's go."

AN: What do you think? I've been wanting to write a Maximum Ride fanfic and I am a HUGE Max X Fang supporter. I HATE, HATE, HATE DYLAN! Anyways, let me know what you think.

-Haru