A/n ok everybody this is the first Spawny fic I have ever written even though I have been a fan for a long, long, long time so please don't be to hard on me. Also I would like to say thanks to bashipforever, Spikaholic101, and LilyRite because they inspired to actually write something. Well anyway I hope you guys like this and please, please, please, please review so I know if I should keep going or not. Any suggestions are fine by me and I will give ya credit for them cause I am not an idea stealer. Thanks, Candi.

New A/N : Since I wrote this I have moved three times. It's been a rough few years but all in all not bad. Awhile back I thought about taking this fic off of because it showed how hopeful was that it...I would be a good witer. Well i think i was about eleven or twelve when i wrote this (yup, amazing isn't it) and I have decided to fix my mistakes and continue. I'm almost fiftheen and honestly, I am still rather impatient, but i want to try again. Anyway, I hope whoever reads this likes it and I hope you are not too dissapointed. The first few chapters will be short seeing as i am in the middle of a move and will be without a computer at certain times. Please bare with me, I really am trying.

Disclaimer: I do not own Buffy the Vampire Slayer or any of the characters except some henchmen and that sorta thing later or maby an evil person. On to the story...

Oh by the way this takes place before dawn finds out she's the key, but she's sixteen.

Thoughts: at the summers home

Who ever woulda thought I would end up feelin like this, I mean it's Spike! Evil, killing, sexy, etable, Spike. O.k. forget those last two, erase them like they were never there, gone. Anyway like I was saying, it's Spike.

Why do I have to like one of those guys you know are never gonna like you back? It is so not fair. I bet buffy could get any guy she wanted, with her shampoo commercial hair and her super slayerness.

I mean don't get me wrong I love my sister, I really do, but does she always have to be the center of everyone's attention? I mean, really, ever since I can remember she's always been first in everyone's eyes, my mom, my dad, and now Spike. I know he likes her, I mean how could he not? It would probably go against nature or something.

I just wish that for once I could be the center of everyone's world, the savior, the slayer. I wish I could be the one everyone wanted, the one Spike wants, but that will never happen. How could it, I'm just the slayers little sister, I'm just Dawn, Dawn Summers.

End thoughts

Thoughts: at the magic box

Staring relentlessly off into space, thinking, wondering, waiting. Something is going to happen soon, I can feel it somehow. I can feel it in the wind, it's in the air, it's change, and it's coming.

I don't know what it is but I know it's there. It's like its inside of me somehow, something that was always there but I never knew, something old...ancient.

I wait for it to come, to change me, to save me. Somehow I know that whatever this change is, whatever it will bring, it will not hurt me. Whatever it is...is going to make me into the person I want to become. I know it won't be long now.

All I have to do...is wait.

End thoughts

In the magic box...still

Dawn sat in a chair at the table with all the others and every time she even tried to reach for a book, to help out, someone would take the book she was reaching for and then continue like nothing happened.

"Hey Buffy, why am I here again? I just wanted to know because you won't let me research, you won't let me patrol, and you won't even let me know one detail about your life or what your doing so, why am I here?"

Buffy, who sat across the table from Dawn, didn't even glace up at her sister, she was to busy pretending to read her book looking for this goulash demon or whatever it was called.

"Dawn I already told you," Buffy said a little irritably, she was having a wonderful daydream about what Angel and her could have had if not for a pesky "no sex" curse, "I won't let you research because your to young, I won't let you patrol because you could get hurt, and I don't let you in on my life because you don't need to be let in on it." Why couldn't Dawn just understand?

"Buffy why can't you just understand that 1. I'm almost 16 not 8, I mean I'm older than you were when you were called so how can you say I'm not old enough to do research, 2. I can get hurt yes, but so can you; you won't even let me show you what I can do, so how do you know if I'll get hurt as much as you think I will. And 3. I'm your sister, so just because I don't need to know what goes on doesn't mean I don't want to know what goes on.

Dawn didn't realize she was even standing until she was finished with her little 'speech' as Buffy liked to call them, truthfully they were more like outbursts but she really didn't care, something was coming, and it was putting her on edge, she wanted to know what was happening. Who knows, something could be after Buffy and all she would say about it was "Dawn, don't worry, I'll always protect you..." like that was all Dawn wanted to hear.

"I'll see you at home, but first I just wanted to remind you that tomorrows' my birthday. You know, in case it accidentally slipped your mind that tomorrow's October 25, you know 6 days before Halloween. Anyway see ya later, maybe.

As Dawn walked out of the store she thought of how she just had a little outburst in front of spike, and what she was gonna be for Halloween. If she looked back at her sister she would have seen the look of shock on Buffys' face and then a look of shame at having forgetting her little sisters birthday, but Dawn didn't look back, she just kept on walking, kept on thinking.

Dawns Thoughts while walking:

Hmmm what should I be, their's always the traditional costumes like a princess, a witch, a devil, and of coarse an angel, but then their's always the more, how should I put it, sexy costumes like schoolgirl, vampire, Dutch girl, gothic queen, that sort of thing. I just don't know I'll have to ask Janice to help me, maybe I could ask Spike for some help later too.

I can't believe tomorrow is my birthday. I'll finally be sixteen; I'll finally be the center of attention.

I wonder if anybody even remembered. I know Buffy didn't, I mean why remember your sister's sweet sixteen when you have demons to fight. I know Buffy loves me and don't get me wrong I do love her, but why doesn't she understand I want a little freedom, I want a chance, I don't want to be smothered like a new-born baby. I guess what I really want is a little independance.

Oh well, you don't get everything you wish for.

I guess it's time to head home or Buffy will be worried, and we can't forget about mom either...

End Thoughts

Dawn slowly trudged home, thinking of ways to get people to know she was not just a little girl, not just the slayers little sister.

She wanted people to know that she was Dawn Summers, and she was a force to be reckoned with.

End Chapter 1

A/n first of all I want to know if anybody thinks I should continue this story and if so please tell me. Second I need to know what costume you want Dawn to wear. Third should I make Dawn the key. Forth should Buffy die? Oh yeah just to clear this up I am not trying to make Buffy seem mean in anyway, I am just trying to create the animosity that is actually between siblings, and I should know because I have two brothers. And if your wondering why Dawn's birthday is October 25 it's because that's my birthday, i know i know, selfish. Thank you and PLEASE REVIEW