Some paths aren't meant to be walked.

The bitter cold wind stirred the icy lake, the wind swirled upwards taking diamond like droplets of water into the air. The water sprayed against his small body. Dark pinks and reds were sprawled over the sky, black and purple littered the sky with fore coming darkness. His small body was draped in black, sparkling gold eyes shone through dull lifeless hair. In his eyes swirls of emotions brooded.

I simply don't understand his complex personality. One day he would a complete ass and then the next day he would be joyful. His idiotic mood swings drive me insane!! I hate that annoying basturd. The small boy huffed. He's getting so odd lately happy then anger, happy then anger, then crazy and then we're back to happy! Alphonse has been even weirder, ever since he got his new body back he's got SO many dates, the little womanizer. Edward froze with fear, he came to a sudden realisation. He's just like Mustang!!

As Edward mulled in his own thoughts and emotions, a tall familiar man stood at the end of the pathway, he himself also musing over thoughts.

Dull blue lifeless eyes gazed into the equally lifeless water.

Why? What has become of me? Why has this deep swelling of emotion within this beating heart suddenly appeared after all these years. Each beat of my heart slowly tearing at my decapitated soul. Was it right? Of course it wasn't! It wasn't even human, yet I did it anyway. I can't live with it but that's the path I chose. That sick twisted path. Why did Mustang have to open these scarring wounds? This sorrow…it follows like the blood of the innocent. War is a horrible, vile thing. It's full of pain, destruction and death. I hate it. So many death, so many deaths, so many lives taken, so much innocence lost. Screams, flames, gunshots. The haunting memories, the victims faces never leave the shadow of my eyes.

'I should go talk to Mustang about this' Havoc whispered.

Havoc turned and began to return to his office. A feeling of destiny swirled inside him. He stopped near the exit and them trudged in the opposite direction. He followed a feeling he couldn't describe, he followed a sound he couldn't hear. He followed something he couldn't see. His mind oblivious to this fact. His mind pondered heavily. Would the world be better off without war or would other problems just arise?

I have to get Al sooner or later, might as well be sooner. Edward sighed in defeat, he knew, despite his attempts, he still didn't understand what he could do to ease his worries.

Each man in his own world lost and alone in their thoughts collided. Havocs arm knocked Edwards shoulder. Havoc spun around, 'Oh sorry!' his voice covered in fakery. Edward stopped and turned his head slightly. 'Oh Fullmetal! Hey how are ya?' Havoc forced a smile, Edward didn't. 'Fine, bit cold though. You?'

'Alright, just thinking' Havoc said hollowly. There was a still silence between them, it seemed to grow intensely cold by the passing seconds.

'So what brings you here in this cold' Edward said trying to keep the flame of the conversation alive. 'Nothing really, I was just running around for Mustang' Havoc lied. Edward nodded. 'What about you?' Havoc questioned.

'Bored' Edward shrugged. Havoc looked down upon Edward. Edward…

'Wanna grab a coffee?' Havoc blurted. Edward looked up and straightened his body. Edwards golden orbs seemed distant when they met Havocs depressed blue ones. 'Sure' Edward replied, smiling. Edward looked over his shoulder Hmm I'm sure Al can live without me for a little while more. The two men began walking, small smiles rested on their lips.

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Edward stared at the brown substance that swirled within a white cup, he looked at Havoc then quickly retuned to staring at his coffee. 'You alright Edward?' Havoc asked, the whole purpose of this coffee deal was to find out why Edward was upset anyway.

'Yeah I'm fine' Edward lied and Havoc seemed to stare right through it.

'Edward you can tell me' Havoc said gently. Edward sighed. He stirred his coffee.

'It's Alphonse. He is different'

'What do you mean?'

'Well before I got his body back he was always with me…he was my brother, trusting brother but now he is constantly going out without telling me and coming home at 3 in the morning. He won't tell me anything. He just says he's out with his girlfriend but I can't believe him. Who stays out on a date that early?' Edward asked. Havoc grinned.

'I do'

'But you're old enough, he isn't. He's only 14'

'He's just discovering his youth, let him party it's good for a teen his age to be around girls. It'll do him some good!'

'How may I asked?' Edward shot Havoc an icy glare. 'I rarely had time for girls when I was 14, matter of fact I was very busy trying to get back his body!' Edward hissed.

'And look at you, you're so whined up you could snap, at least this way he could some sort of young memory of himself without his metal body AND he can release the tension of a teen'

'What?! I'm not sure what you're getting at but I don't like it!' Edward snapped. Havoc smirked to himself and nodded. 'Sorry Fullmetal' Havoc snickered. Edward thought heavily 'Hey what are YOU doing out here? Shouldn't you be at the dog's feet?'

'Oh that's harsh!' Havoc shot back. Edward leaned back and smiled.

'Well?' Edward urged. Havoc smiled slightly then turned grim.

'I told you before I was just thinking'

'Of what?'

'Nothing really'

'Don't bullshit me Havoc' Edward lowered him gaze to his coffee. 'Come on'

'Well I saw some stuff and it brought back some hurtful memories'

'Like?' Edward said. Havoc gave Edward a cold, grim stare. Edward shouldn't have pried further into the situation but curiosity got the better of him. 'Please tell me'

'Well when I was getting stuff for Roy I saw this kid…' Havoc pasued.

A kid? That's weird he wouldn't get emotional about a kid…

'This kid was running down the street. Blood was pouring out of him like a gushing river, cuts covered him. No one noticed him, this screaming kid. I looked down the road and saw a man holding a beer bottle broken in half. I heard the screams drowned out the remainder of the beer bottle smashing to the floor. The fragile glass, hitting the floor, obliterating upon the hard icy concrete. The poor kid…' Havoc said sadly, he stared at his reflection in his, now cold, coffee. Edward stared at Havoc.

'It's just a kid' Edward said slowly.

'It was an Ishbalan child' Havoc said.

'Why does that matter?'

'Well…'

'What? Were you in the Ishbalan Rebellion?' Edward joked, trying to lighten the mood. Havoc stared right through Edward. He nodded slowly. Shock ran through Edward like electricity. 'Yo…you were in the rebellion?'

'I was part of the armed soldiers, not that Mustang knows. Not many people do remember us' Havoc sighed. Edward couldn't understand the words that had unfolded in front of him. 'Tell me more Havoc' Edward said placing his warm hand on top of Havocs cold ones. 'I despise glass. I don't fear it I just merely hate it'

'Why is that Havoc?'

'Well in the Rebellion all the children had to protect them was glass. Every time I killed someone I would hear glass shattering. I was a mere foot soldier, just merely a pawn to be played within that bloody, unholy war. I maybe faithful to my country but what our forces didn't was deathly wrong. There was no need for the lose of life. For the rivers of blood to pour down into the sewers. I remember the day I lost my pride, dignity and soul. They were once a family…once so happy and joyful, I took that away from them. I took away their happiness, their childhood and her innocence. I didn't want to kill them but I had a duty to carry out. I was only doing my duty as a loyal pawn. We were told to go into town and kill all 'threatening' civilians. This meant we could charge into homes and do as we please to the villagers. We shouldn't have killed all those children, they did nothing wrong but I was just another victim that had succumb to the urge of bloodlust. I didn't mean to kill them but once my hands were tainted by the blood of another human you feel every human is as low as the last. Once you've had the blood of innocent children poured over your hands you can't be called or what you're doing is humane, you can only call yourself a murderous blood thirsty monster. Your actions are the result of this' Havoc didn't realise he was squeezing Edwards hand. A single tear fell from Havocs cheek, his voice empty of any emotion. The feeling of bitterness and self-loathing pierced through Havoc's heart. Edward squeezed Havocs hand reassuringly.

'Follow me' Edward whispered.

Together they walked out of the near empty café 'Put it on Coronal Mustangs tab' Edward said flashing his alchemist watch. The waitress nodded and waved goodbye. They walked in silence, snow crunching underneath their heavy boots. The stars shining bright against the midnight black sky. They entered the park. 'You had no choice' Edward lied, tugging at Havoc's hand softly. What am I saying?! He had a choice!

'I had a choice to between being a soulless, cold-blooded murder, portrayed as some patriotic hero or to have some sort of dignity and heart and refuse to go to war, maybe then more people cloud have escaped' Havoc looked at the stars. Edward held onto Havoc's hand tightly. A few hostile tears fell from Edward's eyes and trickled down his icy face. 'Don't cry Ed' Havoc's blue eyes lingered with pity. Edward shot Havoc a disgusted look. 'I'm not crying for YOU, you arrogant basturd. I'm crying for the innocent people YOU killed' Edward paused, he realised how vicious he sounded.

'Fair enough' Havoc said

Havoc wrapped his strong arms around Edwards small body. Havoc placed a hand gently on Edward's face. 'Edward' he sighed. Havoc's arm wrapped around Edward's waist. 'The world isn't perfect. Neither am I'

'Don't you think I know that?!' Edward shouted pushing away from Havoc.

'One day you might have go through what I did just promise me you won't'

'What?! Havoc, I'll never kill someone!!'

'That's what I said' Havoc said grimly. He turned abruptly and left Edward standing on his lonesome.

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I found this story in an old, cute folder. Thanks to Maddeline.Thorne for helping me with the original story, sorry I changed so much of it, well practically all of it, lol. She wanted more EdxHavoc, here you go!