It's been quite a long year
Like we're being tested
To face all our fears
I sighed, sitting down on Gabi's hospital bed, waiting on her to get changed. Yes, hospital. I said it. The doctors said that tonight might be her last night. When she stopped responding to the treatment… everything got bad. I haven't left her side. I'm afraid if I do, I won't be able to say goodbye.
Finally your mind
will get some rest
And you'll feel much better
I smiled sadly at her when she walked out of the bathroom, wearing nothing but a hospital gown. She smiled back softly and ran over, getting in the bed beside me and laying on my chest. I pulled her against me tightly.
When you're laying on my chest
I'll keep you right by my side
I feel you breathing
Close your tired eyes
"Goodnight my love," I whispered softly. I heard her even breathing.
I feel you drifting
"Goodbye my best friend," I felt my heart crack.
While you're deep in the Goodnight my love
This ain't no kind of living
Goodnight my love
And I'll hold you one more time
Until tomorrow
I'm awake and thinking
Of what we could have been, yeah
Could I have done something better
And made some changes
But objects in the review mirror
Are closer than they seem
there's no use grasping
The things out of reach
I feel you drifting
Goodbye my best friend
This ain't no kind of living
Goodnight my love
And I'll hold you one more time
Until tomorrow
I felt tears enter my eyes. I thought of all the good times we had together. Meeting at the ski lodge, Twinkle Towne, going to prom, getting married… and her having our twins Tyler and Braden.
Inside I'm dying
I don't wanna let you
We worked so hard and
Sobs wracked through my body when I felt her lifeless form against me. It was cold.
Outside I'm crying
My heart won't admit
What my mind already knows
And it's getting light outside
I looked outside and saw the sun rising over the mountains in the distance. I sighed and looked at Gabi. She looked like she was sleeping with a mile on her face. Another sob wracked through my body. Guess I'll get up
Put on my
I stood up from the bed and put my sweatshirt on. It was her favorite one. Another sob threatened to come out but I bit my lip and held it in, my bright blue eyes were swarming with tears.
And kiss you one more time
I started shaking from the sobs so I leaned down, kissed her cold lips, then walked to the door. I paused, my hand on the doorknob. I looked back at her and smiled softly. She looked like she was glowing. She's an angel.
"Bye Gabi. I love you," then I walked outside. I closed the door behind me and broke down. I leaned against the wall and slid down it, curling into a ball and sobbing.
So close your tired eyes, yeah
I felt my heart being ripped to shreds. She's gone. She took my heart with her. the only thing I can live for now, is knowing she's watching over me and the twins.
Goodnight my love
I feel you drifting, baby
Goodbye my best friend
This ain't no kind of living
Goodnight my love
At least I held you on last time
Before tomorrow
