Sesshomaru Left Us...
Chapter 1
The Crescent Moon⋐
As usual, I left to play in the sunny court yard. My brother is sitting over near the wooden house, watching me. Why does he never come to play? Oh well, at least he watches me. Some days I train. I want to surpass him some day. Like that would happen. Ever since dad left he's been more to himself than ever. We used to train together, but now it's like he doesn't care about me anymore. Brother, what is wrong? I cannot worry now! He is watching and I have to prove myself to him. He might then take me back into his life. I look around and see mother watching me as well. She's standing next to brother in her silken kimono. She looks beautiful in it. I walk over slowly to the place where the wooden swords are kept. I chose only the hardest one, but brother knows this. The wooden hurts my skin some times but I have to be strong! All of a sudden I feel a sharp pain ring through my finger, a splinter!! No time for this!! I try and pull it out, but it is too deep for reach. Tears come to my eyes but I cannot shed them. What if brother came? I wait and try to figure out a plan. A shadow comes over me and I turn so fast that I almost fell. My eyes widen at who I see it is. The tears from the splinter start to force their way out. My brother watches me carefully, analyzing my every move. He bends down and holds out his hand. I wonder what he is going to do but I trust him and I give my splintered hand to him. He took it and looked at it carefully, his fingers are cold as ice. A chill runs down my spine. I look at his face ,which is looking at my hand, a crescent moon on his forehead and two lines on each cheek. His hair is whiter than mine, long and flowing. I have no markings of father, but my brother does. He takes two fingers and pulls the splinter in one second. I could not feel anything. My eyes widened in amazement, "Thank you nii-san!" The only thing he did was to nod and walk off. Why had he come? Did I take too long?
Mother took my hand and wrapped it with bandages, brother must have told her. The bandages sting but I know she only cares for me. I'll be brave and put on a smile. Out the door I see brother pass by. Where is he going? I ask mother but she does not know. Brother is always leaving to somewhere, but I never know where. If I follow he always catches me. I've given up with what my brother does. The sharp pain of when mother is tying it to stay runs through me. She gets up and pats my head and silently walks in the direction of where brother went. Is she trying to find him too? I cannot see her anymore but I know that she is not far. I sit on the hard wood floor and wait, wait for someone to come back. Will they come back?
I've been sitting here for a long while now. Where are they? I sigh and get up. Walking along the court yard, searching for anyone. The sent of blood rushes through the air, the breeze must have brought this. I wish it hadn't. I run, frantic to find anyone, even a dead body would do. The scent is gone! Where did it go? Brother would know. OUCH!! I must have stepped on a nail, I look and sure enough the nail was there, and so was a trickle of blood. This is not good, I'm trying to search for mother and brother and I'm bleeding. The scents mix and I cannot tell anything anymore. I'm dizzy from the scent of blood now, it's all I smell. All I feel is the dirt ground hit me, or did I hit it? I can't even think straight. My vision blurred and the last thing I saw was white surrounding me. Was is brother? Everything went black but I felt warm arms around me. Who was it? Must be brother...the white, and the arms, they feel muscular. All I can do is think now. Has someone saved me or did they just kill me? Oh brother I hope it is you...
My eyes open slightly and my brother is standing over me. I sit up to recognize my room. I ask him if he saved me. He nodded. It's nice to know that my brother cares for me every once in a while. He pushes me down to my bed again and tells me to rest. He says that I'm too young to be out in the court yard alone. I told him of how I smelled blood but stopped right away as I saw a rip in his kimono and around it was blood. The scent of blood surround me again but I stayed awake from this one. He knew that I saw his arm and walked out of the room. I didn't want him to leave, I wanted him to stay with me forever. But I guess he thought that it would be better if he left. I miss him but mother walks in right away and starts babying me. Some times I wish she wouldn't. Especially when brother watches. I can feel his golden eyes staring at us. I cannot see them, but I feel them. I'm spoiled here, I know I am. Mother is really only my mother, she is not mother to him. You see we are half brothers. His mom is a demon, I don't know much about her but I know that she left him and father a long time ago.
I can walk now, like I couldn't with the bandages. But mother just worries that it would get infected. Brother told me to keep the bandages on. I feel bad, it's as if that I'm dead weight in our family. I only cause trouble and get hurt. Why me? Brother takes the blame all the time for my foolish doings, for me being stupid. He suffers, it's my fault. I wonder what they do to him? He's taking the blame for me now...I know it. I can feel it in my veins. He's gone, I cannot feel his golden eyes peircings through me anymore. Mother left too, but to where? To punish brother for making me go to the court yard? I hope he is alright. One day he's going to die for me...one day...not now...
Training day!! Brother promised to train me today! The one time I get with him. Mother does not like us training together, but she knows that I love to train with my brother. That is why she says nothing. He walks up to me and hands me a wooden sword and I take it, smiling. He walks away, to the other end of the field. I look at mother who is on her toes, ready for any bloody mess, but brother wouldn't hurt me. The match begins and he waits but I charge to him with all speed in me, going at him. I swing the sword. But he's not there anymore. A trick that he always does. Dodging without being seen, I want to learn how to do that too. I quickly turn and charge for him again but this time he blocks it. I pull it away as fast as I can then point the tip at him and strike. He blocks it again! I keep repeating until he disappears again. I look all over for him, ready to attack again, but he is no where. I turn to mother and she is looking around as well. Where is he? Her eyes widen and I feel the tip of his sword at my back. He has won this match. I ask him how he does that disappearing trick. He says that he just jumps with all strength. When will I be able to beat him?
After our match in the court yard we go to eat lunch, but brother is no where to be seen. I look to mother but she shakes her head. She always knows what I'm thinking, just like brother. Our lunch is all wrapped up and in a basket. Why? Mother takes the basket in her arms and walks out the door but stops, waiting for me. I jump up and run to her. She takes my hand and walks to the garden. Her hand is so warm and soft, unlike brother's. She leads me to the most beautiful spot in the garden then lays down a wool blanket and sits on it. She pats the spot next to her, beckoning me to come. I do as I am told. She takes he food out and tells me to eat up. I stare at her with a curious look. She says that we are on a "picnic". Where is brother? He doesn't eat but he usually comes with us and talks among our family. Why is he not here in the garden with us? I look around and I see mother's worried look. I smile and take a rice ball. Why would brother miss out on this?
We have came back to the house. I still can't find brother. Where is he? I ask mother, but all she says is that he left us. My eyes shoot open and I run out of our house and into the court yard. I see him sitting in a tree. Why did mother say he left us? He noticed me and jumped down and asked what was wrong. I smiled and told him that everything was alright. He doesn't buy my story and shoots a worried look at me, I give in and tell him everything. He looks puzzled, not speaking. I ask him why mother would say that he left, but he does not know why. I know he does, the look in his eyes tell me that he knows. Why do I not know? Why am I the only one that doesn't know? He walked off in the direction of where mother is. They do not get along well any more. What happened? Does she blame him for father's death? Oh mother, don't blame Sesshomaru anymore...
