Title: Selfish Needs
Pairing: Leah/Edward (Leaward)
Rating: T
Summary: Leah and Edward are having an affair and when she tries to leave Edward uses blackmail. Will Leah crumble to his wishes or stay strong and free herself from his selfish needs?
Disclaimer: I do not own anyone or anything from Twilight!
Stranded in this spooky town
Stoplights are swaying and the phone lines are down
This floor is crackling cold, she took my heart, I think she took my soul
With the moon I run far from the carnage of the fiery sun
Driven by the strangle of vein showing no mercy I do it again,
Open up your eye, you keep on crying baby, I?ll bleed you dry
Skies they blink at me, I see a storm bubbling up from the sea
And it's coming closer
And it's coming closer
You shimmy shook my bone leaving me stranded all in love on my own
Do you think of me? Where am I now? Baby where do I sleep?
Feel so good but I'm old, 2000 years of chasing's taking its toll
And it's coming closer
And it's coming closer
And it's coming closer
And it's coming closer
Closer- Kings Of Leon
"You don't love me." Her statement was spoken with such conviction almosting convincing me she had the ability to know what I was feeling instead of I being the one who knew what my emotions really were.
"I do love you! How can you stand there spouting such lies when you know the truth." I shook my head adamant in my denial of her words.
Golden eyes locked with her dark almond orbs. Eyes that tell you so much about her if you ever got lucky enough for her to trust you enough to let you in. Eyes which could look into your very soul and tear your heart out when she shot you with one of her deadly malicious glares.
The conviction that colored her tone didn't lessen in sincerity as she replied. "Then I don't love you. Not anymore and never will I ever love you again. It's over and you are just going to have to accept it. Move on with your stupid fairytale life. Run back to your adoring little wife and precious baby daughter."
A sneer twisted her face into an ugly mask of jealousy and anger. The same mask she had worn for years. One I fear will never come off. Oh how I wish I could be the one to bring her out of the darkness and into the light. I wished I could free her of this tainted darkness slowly consuming her soul.
I still beleived with all my heart I could be the one to take away her bitterness and heartache if only she let me. Deep down a part of me knows she will never let anyone in but I cannot accept that knowledge. Another part in the back of my mind screams in unyielding fury I am the reason she could never move on to better times. The voice informed me I was holding her back and yet I could not find it within myself to set her free.
I doubt that I'll ever be able to gather the strength it would take to unbound her from the heavy chains which bound us together. Even if I could allow her the freedom she craved, I did not want to do so. I had always been a selfish creatures and now I'd finally gotten a taste of real love and passion with her, I would be damned if I would allow it to slip from my grasp after taking so long to find it in the first place.
"Seek comfort in the arms of your loving family who all believe you can do no wrong." I noticed she shifted when saying this. She couldn't seem to hold still and that always alerted me to the fact she had begun to feel nervous and on edge. I knew then I still had a shot of swaying her mind to change and making her stay here with me.
"You have everything when some people have nothing. Why do you feel the need to ask for more than what you've already got? Can't you simply be happy and content with your life even if I am not in it? Why must you have everything you want even if it will only hurt me in the future? Do you hate me so fiercly you want to watch my torture stretch on and on?" The eyes of my secret lover filled with pain and I felt it stab into my heart like a thousand knives dipped in acid.
Why did she feel it nessasary to phrase it in such a way? How could she beleive I ever hated her after everything we've been through? She had to see how much I loved her. I would do anything for the girl standing in front of me. Correction, I would do anything except the one thing she truly wanted of me.
I reached my pale dead hand out to rest on her shoulder. The movement seemed to slow and I wondered if some how time was begining to freeze. The sweet burn her skin sent pulsing through my dead cold flesh was a relief. Almost like someone had restarted my heart with a defibulator, the shock was that intensely strong.
My thumb trailed along the bare russett flesh of her collarbone. I could feel the shiver she gave cause my own body to tremble. I still had a chance and I couldn't fail. If she didn't change her mind on her own I would have to go to drastic means and I would if it ment I could keep her in my life. Let's hope she did not make me go as far as those lengths I was willing to go.
"You know why I can't leave you Leah." I rolled my tongue and purred her name. It earned me another shiver from my lover. I took the oppurtunity to slide behind her and wrap an arm around her waist as I positioned my lips beside her ear so that each time I would speak my lips brushed against the shell of her ear.
"I know we never ment for this to tumble out of control but for some reason it did exactly that. You can't leave me Leah. Not if you really ever loved me. You may say the words stating you don't care anymore but I can feel it's a lie when we are together." I placed a cold kiss below her ear. "When I touch you. When I taste you and especially when I am in you I can feel how much you love me. It's also how I know you will never really leave."
Leah stepped away from me even though her mind was screaming to stay. She turned to send me one last look of..love? Longing maybe? "Don't pull all this love crap on me leech. You do not really care for me. You want me to satisfy the sexual needs your undead wife can't seem to. That's not love leech. It is lust pure and simple. Nothing to do with the heart and everything to do with chemicals in the body."
Her lips parted and she hissed. "If you truly loved me as you claim to then you would want what is best for me even if it hurt you. Since you obviously cannot let me be free it tells me how little you care." Leah took a step towards the door. "Goodbye Edward Cullen. I'm sure it won't take you long to find another woman you can bewitch into being with you. I pray with all my soul the next girl can get free before she ends up like me."
When she reached the door panic clouded my thoughts. She couldn't leave! She may think I only wanted her for sex but she was wrong. I loved her and that happened to be the real reason I wanted her to stay. I had to make her stay so I could find a way to prove my love to her. When the knob turned and she began to pull it open I blurted out the only thing I could of which could cause her to rethink her actions.
"If you walk out the door I swear I will go to the Volturi!" When she turned around after letting her grasp on the door handle to loosen with her mouth hanging open in shock I knew I'd managed to catch her attention. It was a start atleast.
TBC..
AN: This is going to be a two-shot and the next chapter is Leah's pov. What will she choose? Will she believe him or will she leave for her own sanity? In advanced warning this isn't going to have a completely happy ending. Well one of the characters will get what they want but not the other so it's kind of angsty.
I am in Boston having some medical tests done and this came to while listening to Closer by Kings of Leon. Please R&R like always!
