~ Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters mentioned. They belong to Tortall, who belongs to Tamora Pierce, who belongs to herself. Oh well. ~
Damn that Keladry of Mindelan. Damn her and her Yamani tricks. Damn her for being such a good fighter. Damn her for being so calm when I'm not. Damn her for being so beautiful, graceful and lovely. It's not fair, the way her little friends get to be around her all the time, and here I am, stuck with her hate and resentfulness. Damn them all!
It just doesn't seem possible. I hate her! And yet... there's that feeling again. I cannot love her! I can't possibly! It's just not right! Me? Love her? Ha! As much as that sorry excuse for a training-master does. There is no way in all the Death Realms that I feel anything towards that Mindelan except hate. And that is that.
I watch her sketching the wonderful view of Tortall for a high castle wall. She does not know I am here. Why does she put herself though such torture? Why doesn't she just go to the convent and learn to be a proper lady? And then she could just go off and get married, and live a high life. Any nice man in his right mind would take her for a bride, I'm sure. Why am I thinking such thoughts? I do NOT care for her.
And yet... No, it is impossible. I cannot love her and hate her at the same time. That is such an unreasonable thought that I could laugh, but I do not want to disturb her from her peaceful sketchings. Why, when I can win any other girl's heart, she shows no interest in me at all? But I know that I have done the unforgivable. Now she will hate me for the rest of her life. That makes me so damn mad!
Why was I so stupid? Why did I go along with their plans to make her life miserable? If only she knew that I was not the leader of them! If only she could forgive me! But that is too much to ask. Much too much. So now I must sit here and watch her, hating me, loathing me. Why was I so damn stupid?
But no. I'm not stupid. I do not love her! I hate her! It's completely ludicrous! Me, Joren of Stone Mountain, love Keladry of Mindelan?
~ Hey, y'all. I'm expecting reviews, you know! This is for that person who keeps suggestion Joren/Kel fics. Uh... I can't remember who that was, but it'll come back to me. Any moment now. Any moment... Nope, guess not. Well, see ya! ~
Damn that Keladry of Mindelan. Damn her and her Yamani tricks. Damn her for being such a good fighter. Damn her for being so calm when I'm not. Damn her for being so beautiful, graceful and lovely. It's not fair, the way her little friends get to be around her all the time, and here I am, stuck with her hate and resentfulness. Damn them all!
It just doesn't seem possible. I hate her! And yet... there's that feeling again. I cannot love her! I can't possibly! It's just not right! Me? Love her? Ha! As much as that sorry excuse for a training-master does. There is no way in all the Death Realms that I feel anything towards that Mindelan except hate. And that is that.
I watch her sketching the wonderful view of Tortall for a high castle wall. She does not know I am here. Why does she put herself though such torture? Why doesn't she just go to the convent and learn to be a proper lady? And then she could just go off and get married, and live a high life. Any nice man in his right mind would take her for a bride, I'm sure. Why am I thinking such thoughts? I do NOT care for her.
And yet... No, it is impossible. I cannot love her and hate her at the same time. That is such an unreasonable thought that I could laugh, but I do not want to disturb her from her peaceful sketchings. Why, when I can win any other girl's heart, she shows no interest in me at all? But I know that I have done the unforgivable. Now she will hate me for the rest of her life. That makes me so damn mad!
Why was I so stupid? Why did I go along with their plans to make her life miserable? If only she knew that I was not the leader of them! If only she could forgive me! But that is too much to ask. Much too much. So now I must sit here and watch her, hating me, loathing me. Why was I so damn stupid?
But no. I'm not stupid. I do not love her! I hate her! It's completely ludicrous! Me, Joren of Stone Mountain, love Keladry of Mindelan?
~ Hey, y'all. I'm expecting reviews, you know! This is for that person who keeps suggestion Joren/Kel fics. Uh... I can't remember who that was, but it'll come back to me. Any moment now. Any moment... Nope, guess not. Well, see ya! ~
