Darkness. It is comforting,welcoming like the embrace of an old lover, secure like the trust of an old friend. It is wise, and patient, and it bears many gifts to those strong enough. I've always been strong and she was there to comfort me, by showing me the biggest truth. That no matter what I do I can't escape myself, no matter who I win, I'll never defeat the demons in my head. All I could do was accept them, let them empower me.

A monster they called me even before Torfan. What do they know of monsters? Yet they entrusted me with this. They did because Anderson understands that there is a difference between a monster and a willing sacrifice. I do what I do so that others might be spared. Because of what I did I've spared others the horror. How many were spared the horror of a slaver attack, and the yoke of slavery?How much easier is it for the Alliance now?

And now I'm the first human Spectre. Today I joined them, the most prestigious position in Citadel Space, apart perhaps from a position as a councilor. My mission is rather simple: track down Saren and bring him down, no matter the cost. Heh . They think they understand what that means. Lulled by a false sense of security and supremacy they think they understand. But I do. No matter the cost means with no pity, no remorse. It means I must be ruthless. But it is easy to stray. Give power to the part of me that screams its rage in the dark, and indulge it. No, if I do that then I'll become a monster. So I must focus. That is the only way. And it is Easy, it has always been easy to focus through rage, and pain. Use them to gain strength and retain my focus on my prey. Gain strength to bring it down.

And my companions? Of them only Wrex can understand. I respect him and vice versa, and he'll be that last to sacrifice but I will sacrifice him if needs must. Of the others?

Garrus is valuable for one reason: being a turian he is a member of the Council Races, so as long as he lives we are more or less ok with the turians. Same with Liara. Her knowledge of the Protheans might also be useful. Her inexperience in dealing with others , combined with her naivete make her putty in a master's hands. Plus she is Benezia's daughter, so her death is easily justified. Tali has spent her usefulness when she delivered me the means to prove Saren's treason. But she and Alenko are smart, so no need to try to manipulate them. But I can count on him to do what must be done if the need arises. And no one will care about a missing quarian. Ashley will be a tougher nut to crack but only because she needs careful planning and patience. She craves attention and recognition .

Her insecurity needs appeasing. First as a soldier, as no commander before has done it for her. Then as a person, then as a woman. After that she is just a tool, bereft of thought and filled with what I want her to believe. She'll jump into an inferno if I asked her to. The rest of the crew have little choice but to follow me, that is what they have been trained to and that is what they will do.

So there we have it. From here I will start hunting you down Saren. (A wolfish smile forms on his lips). And then darkness will take you.

Good night