For the Love of Him
By: Bejiita-chan
Beta-read: DarkPhyre a.k.a. Mike ((Arigatoo again Mike-san! I owe yaz! ))
R
Warning: Cussing, Yaoi, lemon, rape
Pairing: BejiitaxGokou
Author's notes: this story switches from Gokou's prospective to Bejiita's.
Japanese ((Nihon go))
Uchi= home
Mainichi= everyday
Jaa nee= see ya
Part 1: Watashi no tomodachi ga daisuki imasu yoâE¦. Imasu ka?? ((I love my friendâE¦ I love my friend? ))
GokouâEs perspective
I always knew that I was capable of pushing myself to become whatever I wished, but if I achieved that goal, what else would be there for me to do? I always keep myself occupied for that reason, and leaving my home is a easy diversion. I want to stop, but I donâEt know how to. If only someone would capture me in some sort of net, then I could be restricted, with no way to escape. I would be willing to do as my master commands. But only one person could make my heart stop in such a manner. Someone who has never even shown me a smile. A smirk, or a wink at best, but never a smile. I have studied the personality of this creature, and I understand that he can be humorous at times. He wants to talk but doesnâEt know how to express his emotions. He is a serious man, but wants an appreciative companion. He thinks everyone is watching him and he doesnâEt like that. Sometimes he wishes to accomplish his goals. He even wants a certain person to recognize, and notice him. I know who this person is. Every now and then, this creature will try something that will distract me from conversations with my family. He knows how to run around my finger. But I know how to get inside of him. He reads my mind a lot, but I let him. I want him to know....but.. he already knew. He knows everything. He is so wise and observant. I admire and praise him more than I should. Maybe it's because I love him. Maybe because I constantly think about him. Or maybe its because I love his arrogance. He's an aggressive guy, and heâEll do anything to get what he wants. HeâEll also do anything to get him out of anything he doesnâEt want. His figure is complex and bold. God, his figure is perfect. Curving muscles, that slice between his clothes. If there is a God, his angels must have put together this beautiful creature. He is more than perfect, more than marvelousâE¦ more than I can have. I can never take a hold of this man. Never. I am not worthy of such a prize. So, I let him lay next to his wife, as I am supposed to lie next to mine. I allow him to do what he wants, and I will be occupied with other foolish things. Sometime my day will end, and I will not return home again. I will sleep under the stars and dream of him, as I am not supposed to. Really! I do not want to be obsessed with the prince, but these feelings have finally taken control of me. But I will not allow them to be spoken.
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It is my day to train with the arrogant creature and I am more than afraid to. I have tried everything in my will to stop myself from seeing him, but I cannot break his wifeâEs heart. The mate of my creature has asked me to come over and maybeâE¦ MAYBE spar with Bejiita. Yes, Bejiita is his name. The great Prince 'Jita. If only he...! Do you see me? Are you listening to me? Can you notice how I lower myself when it comes to you? I am practically scared of him just because I am in lâE¦, in lo... *sigh*. No, I cannot use that word, but I will admit that I have feelings him. Yes, I care for him. I would cradle him in my arms and watch him sleep. I would wrap my arms around his broad shoulders and embrace him if he needed compassion. I would give anything to this man, anything but love. Why? Because it is too risky. I cannot allow myself to fall in love with something I cannot have. Yes, I fear something far greater than the man himself.....rejection. To be abandoned and not wanted by him. To not be loved. It would hurt. It already does. The preconcieved rejection brings me pain the more and more I think about it. So I wash my mind with ecstasy and angels, and let my pure heart lead the way. To the house, to his house, to my longing desire.
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Ah the good old housewife. She is a dear friend of mine, another reason why I cannot have him. Damn, am I making a list now? I probably already have more than ten reasons, but I will not speak of them, nor count them, out loud. For they will hear, and they shall never hear. I greet them casually, as innocent as a sweet schoolgirl and I play with the children. I add the children to the list. When it is finally time for my creature to come down, I glance at him, walking strict and upright like the royalty he is. He snickers the moment he sees me, and then smirks. He drinks, playing with something in his hand. Finally speaking only to interrupt what his wife has to say. This is his way of greeting. I wish I could see him do it again, but I plan on leaving before anyone else arrives. I nod silently to his wife and hand over the food my own wife sent with me. I hurry to follow her, only to be out of my princes sight. I know that I would just die the moment I heard his lustfull, thunderous voice, say what I love to hear most of allâE¦
âE?Kakarotto.âE?
I died. I am completely in heaven now, my blood rushing to my head, I think my heart just stopped. I must be a fool for thinking I could trick my prince. I should turn and look at him, to greet him with the normal âE?Hey âE~Jiita! Ready for a spar?âE?. But this time I don't. I just pretend I donâEt want to see him and keep my head lowered to keep my eyes hidden. ItâEll be easier for me not to look at him.
âE?Kakarotto, You are staying for meâE¦âE? God Bejiita, I would stay forever just to stare at you. âE?......to spar with you.âE? It was a command, a clear and distinctive command. One I don't want to follow, but I know I must. I slowly turn around, breaking my previous escape attempt. Lifting my head to reveal my eyes, I find myself staring at his magnificent features. Only a quirky smile covers my face as I try to solve and organize my emotions within.
âE?Of course âE~Jiita! You know I would never miss a spar with you!âE?, including the word âE~neverâE to add an emphasis of affection to the sentence. I don't think his wife sensed the âE~strangeâE vibes that I had picked up on. And strangely, they are all coming from the prince himself. I tilt my head to the side when I notice his hands shaking. I blink my eyes when I notice how high his ki is, for such a normal presentation. And I am thrown back when he gives me a look I have never seen before. The look was mostly in the eyes. His eyes lowered, showing more his forehead. He licked his lips and jerked his head back up. Then he was suddenly gone. It wasâE¦like.... his face wasâE¦ I suddenly felt turned on!! Did his wife see Bejita's display? Was he giving that look to me? Or was it to her? What about the child?...the child!!! Where is lil Bra-chan? Why am I worrying about the child? What about Bejiita? Bejiita! His look! KAMI! Help me! Listen to me! IâEm out of my mind! I can't even think straight, my mind is swirling like whirlpool. And IâEm afraid to get out of the water and come back to reality. But this was ambiguous. My prince was playing a game. A game I would have to catch on to. But I am, yet again, afraid to play. IâEll probably loose.Only to not win him. Why did I come over in the first place? Ah yes! The delivery. Hm, I see Chi-chis food on the table, and the prince's wife is leaving with the child. Ack! That smell! What is that smell? Oh! The baby! Heh, I suppose when nature callsâE¦ Oh no! My prince! Where did he go? I start to panic! The sparring room? YES THE SPARRING ROOM! I want run, but no, I'll make him wait. Should I play hard-to-get? Well the prince is already playing a game, right? Why canâEt I?
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I walk so slowly it feels like IâEm going nowhere. I can feel the prince getting impatient; his ki is rising unbelievably fast. I smirk at the change in his ki. I love to play with him in many different ways. Oh kami! My cheeks blush warmly. I can't allow the creature to see me like this! HeâEll know! Does he know? He probably does. Kami, he is so perfect, so dazzling, and so close! How could I let myself walk to him close enough that I-I can fell his breath andâE¦ and his smell! Kami, his smell isâE¦ is driving me insane! I roll my eyes to the pleasurable scent, engraving his mark inside of me. God, it is foolish! But I want it, I want more, I want to feelâE¦.
âE?Kakarotto?âE?
What? My name? Oh god yes! My name, he says it so dirty and lustfully, I love it! It makes me feel like he wants me as much as I want him. *Sigh* Only daydreams. If only they weren't.
âE?Hai âE~Jiita?âE?
Oh noâE¦ n-no no, no! Not that smirk! Please do notâE¦ oh kami! His sexy smirk! I lost it! IâEm insane with desire! IâEve got to have him! Him and that smirk! That haunting smirk that he always paints his beautiful face with. That smirk that changes him into a sexy piece of work. Do I sound obsessed? Maybe I am. Heh, the passion has become the obsession. Now I can understand what the creature was feeling before he admitted I was the paramount of our race. I never wanted him to do so. I wanted nothing more than to have him there, to challenge me always. So when I was old and bored, I could turn to him and he would mock me until he researched all the swear terms in the book. And then I would grin, knowing that he is my colleague, and he would never leave me. But now that he has acknowledged that he has lived a lie, will he leave me?Â
âE?Kakarotto,âE?
that smirkâE¦ oh kami
âE?I have decided that you and I are going to train on another planet.âE?
âE?Nani?âE? the confused phrase popped out of my mouth before I had the chance to say otherwise. Another planet? What planet? Why am I asking myself all these questions? The man with all the answers is right in front of me! I shall askâE¦
âE?I am disgusted and tired of seeing this fucking planet! Mainichi!âE?
oh I love it when he speaks in his foreign tongue. So sexyâE¦ but anyways,
âE?I want you to come with me only for one reason.âE? he is pacing now âE?Only because I desire a sparring partner, and well, you obviously cannot train with a 6 month old baby, and Trunks has become the lazy ass that he is! SoâE¦âE? he spins on his heels, looking at me and only me âE?You are left.âE? Blinking and over whelmed with joy I shrug and play it cool.
"I feel like I'm being picked for a game in P.E., but sure ~Jiita! You know I'll go with you!"
"I am not ASKING you Kakarotto," t-that smirk again! I am TELLING you. that smirk... How bout we start keeping count of how many times this beauty likes to smirk at me!
"I suggest that you go pack for year-long trip."
I look out to the door. Hopefully he doesn't mean right now, nee?
"Right now Kakarotto."
Oh okay. He means right now, oh darn. I don't want to go if I have to leave right now. But what the heck! This is a once and a lifetime trip! Alone, in space, with BEJIITA-SAMA! Kami! I cannot wait to see what happens! Maybe we'll. nah, I'm getting too excited, it's a good thing I'm not showing it. To Bejiita I just shrug and smile at his kawaiiness.
"Alright 'Jiita, I'll be ready first thing in the morning! Jaa nee!" I quickly wave and leave the premises. Teleporting would be a fast and quicker way to uchi, but who wants to go home at a time like this? IT IS LIKE I WAS ASKED ON A DATE WITH BEJIITA! Well, more like command, but heck! You must live with it or leave. I'd rather live with any bad habit as long as my Bejiita-chan was right next to me. *Sigh* my daydreaming starts to take over. Too much daydreaming and getting excited for one day, if I do say so myself. Uchi is where I am supposed to go, and for the first time in a long time, I will.
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Part 1: Watashi no tomodachi ga daisuki imasu yoâE¦. Imasu ka?? ((I love my friendâE¦ I love my friend? ))
GokouâEs perspective
I always knew that I was capable of pushing myself to become whatever I wished, but if I achieved that goal, what else would be there for me to do? I always keep myself occupied for that reason, and leaving my home is a easy diversion. I want to stop, but I donâEt know how to. If only someone would capture me in some sort of net, then I could be restricted, with no way to escape. I would be willing to do as my master commands. But only one person could make my heart stop in such a manner. Someone who has never even shown me a smile. A smirk, or a wink at best, but never a smile. I have studied the personality of this creature, and I understand that he can be humorous at times. He wants to talk but doesnâEt know how to express his emotions. He is a serious man, but wants an appreciative companion. He thinks everyone is watching him and he doesnâEt like that. Sometimes he wishes to accomplish his goals. He even wants a certain person to recognize, and notice him. I know who this person is. Every now and then, this creature will try something that will distract me from conversations with my family. He knows how to run around my finger. But I know how to get inside of him. He reads my mind a lot, but I let him. I want him to know....but.. he already knew. He knows everything. He is so wise and observant. I admire and praise him more than I should. Maybe it's because I love him. Maybe because I constantly think about him. Or maybe its because I love his arrogance. He's an aggressive guy, and heâEll do anything to get what he wants. HeâEll also do anything to get him out of anything he doesnâEt want. His figure is complex and bold. God, his figure is perfect. Curving muscles, that slice between his clothes. If there is a God, his angels must have put together this beautiful creature. He is more than perfect, more than marvelousâE¦ more than I can have. I can never take a hold of this man. Never. I am not worthy of such a prize. So, I let him lay next to his wife, as I am supposed to lie next to mine. I allow him to do what he wants, and I will be occupied with other foolish things. Sometime my day will end, and I will not return home again. I will sleep under the stars and dream of him, as I am not supposed to. Really! I do not want to be obsessed with the prince, but these feelings have finally taken control of me. But I will not allow them to be spoken.
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It is my day to train with the arrogant creature and I am more than afraid to. I have tried everything in my will to stop myself from seeing him, but I cannot break his wifeâEs heart. The mate of my creature has asked me to come over and maybeâE¦ MAYBE spar with Bejiita. Yes, Bejiita is his name. The great Prince 'Jita. If only he...! Do you see me? Are you listening to me? Can you notice how I lower myself when it comes to you? I am practically scared of him just because I am in lâE¦, in lo... *sigh*. No, I cannot use that word, but I will admit that I have feelings him. Yes, I care for him. I would cradle him in my arms and watch him sleep. I would wrap my arms around his broad shoulders and embrace him if he needed compassion. I would give anything to this man, anything but love. Why? Because it is too risky. I cannot allow myself to fall in love with something I cannot have. Yes, I fear something far greater than the man himself.....rejection. To be abandoned and not wanted by him. To not be loved. It would hurt. It already does. The preconcieved rejection brings me pain the more and more I think about it. So I wash my mind with ecstasy and angels, and let my pure heart lead the way. To the house, to his house, to my longing desire.
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Ah the good old housewife. She is a dear friend of mine, another reason why I cannot have him. Damn, am I making a list now? I probably already have more than ten reasons, but I will not speak of them, nor count them, out loud. For they will hear, and they shall never hear. I greet them casually, as innocent as a sweet schoolgirl and I play with the children. I add the children to the list. When it is finally time for my creature to come down, I glance at him, walking strict and upright like the royalty he is. He snickers the moment he sees me, and then smirks. He drinks, playing with something in his hand. Finally speaking only to interrupt what his wife has to say. This is his way of greeting. I wish I could see him do it again, but I plan on leaving before anyone else arrives. I nod silently to his wife and hand over the food my own wife sent with me. I hurry to follow her, only to be out of my princes sight. I know that I would just die the moment I heard his lustfull, thunderous voice, say what I love to hear most of allâE¦
âE?Kakarotto.âE?
I died. I am completely in heaven now, my blood rushing to my head, I think my heart just stopped. I must be a fool for thinking I could trick my prince. I should turn and look at him, to greet him with the normal âE?Hey âE~Jiita! Ready for a spar?âE?. But this time I don't. I just pretend I donâEt want to see him and keep my head lowered to keep my eyes hidden. ItâEll be easier for me not to look at him.
âE?Kakarotto, You are staying for meâE¦âE? God Bejiita, I would stay forever just to stare at you. âE?......to spar with you.âE? It was a command, a clear and distinctive command. One I don't want to follow, but I know I must. I slowly turn around, breaking my previous escape attempt. Lifting my head to reveal my eyes, I find myself staring at his magnificent features. Only a quirky smile covers my face as I try to solve and organize my emotions within.
âE?Of course âE~Jiita! You know I would never miss a spar with you!âE?, including the word âE~neverâE to add an emphasis of affection to the sentence. I don't think his wife sensed the âE~strangeâE vibes that I had picked up on. And strangely, they are all coming from the prince himself. I tilt my head to the side when I notice his hands shaking. I blink my eyes when I notice how high his ki is, for such a normal presentation. And I am thrown back when he gives me a look I have never seen before. The look was mostly in the eyes. His eyes lowered, showing more his forehead. He licked his lips and jerked his head back up. Then he was suddenly gone. It wasâE¦like.... his face wasâE¦ I suddenly felt turned on!! Did his wife see Bejita's display? Was he giving that look to me? Or was it to her? What about the child?...the child!!! Where is lil Bra-chan? Why am I worrying about the child? What about Bejiita? Bejiita! His look! KAMI! Help me! Listen to me! IâEm out of my mind! I can't even think straight, my mind is swirling like whirlpool. And IâEm afraid to get out of the water and come back to reality. But this was ambiguous. My prince was playing a game. A game I would have to catch on to. But I am, yet again, afraid to play. IâEll probably loose.Only to not win him. Why did I come over in the first place? Ah yes! The delivery. Hm, I see Chi-chis food on the table, and the prince's wife is leaving with the child. Ack! That smell! What is that smell? Oh! The baby! Heh, I suppose when nature callsâE¦ Oh no! My prince! Where did he go? I start to panic! The sparring room? YES THE SPARRING ROOM! I want run, but no, I'll make him wait. Should I play hard-to-get? Well the prince is already playing a game, right? Why canâEt I?
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I walk so slowly it feels like IâEm going nowhere. I can feel the prince getting impatient; his ki is rising unbelievably fast. I smirk at the change in his ki. I love to play with him in many different ways. Oh kami! My cheeks blush warmly. I can't allow the creature to see me like this! HeâEll know! Does he know? He probably does. Kami, he is so perfect, so dazzling, and so close! How could I let myself walk to him close enough that I-I can fell his breath andâE¦ and his smell! Kami, his smell isâE¦ is driving me insane! I roll my eyes to the pleasurable scent, engraving his mark inside of me. God, it is foolish! But I want it, I want more, I want to feelâE¦.
âE?Kakarotto?âE?
What? My name? Oh god yes! My name, he says it so dirty and lustfully, I love it! It makes me feel like he wants me as much as I want him. *Sigh* Only daydreams. If only they weren't.
âE?Hai âE~Jiita?âE?
Oh noâE¦ n-no no, no! Not that smirk! Please do notâE¦ oh kami! His sexy smirk! I lost it! IâEm insane with desire! IâEve got to have him! Him and that smirk! That haunting smirk that he always paints his beautiful face with. That smirk that changes him into a sexy piece of work. Do I sound obsessed? Maybe I am. Heh, the passion has become the obsession. Now I can understand what the creature was feeling before he admitted I was the paramount of our race. I never wanted him to do so. I wanted nothing more than to have him there, to challenge me always. So when I was old and bored, I could turn to him and he would mock me until he researched all the swear terms in the book. And then I would grin, knowing that he is my colleague, and he would never leave me. But now that he has acknowledged that he has lived a lie, will he leave me?Â
âE?Kakarotto,âE?
that smirkâE¦ oh kami
âE?I have decided that you and I are going to train on another planet.âE?
âE?Nani?âE? the confused phrase popped out of my mouth before I had the chance to say otherwise. Another planet? What planet? Why am I asking myself all these questions? The man with all the answers is right in front of me! I shall askâE¦
âE?I am disgusted and tired of seeing this fucking planet! Mainichi!âE?
oh I love it when he speaks in his foreign tongue. So sexyâE¦ but anyways,
âE?I want you to come with me only for one reason.âE? he is pacing now âE?Only because I desire a sparring partner, and well, you obviously cannot train with a 6 month old baby, and Trunks has become the lazy ass that he is! SoâE¦âE? he spins on his heels, looking at me and only me âE?You are left.âE? Blinking and over whelmed with joy I shrug and play it cool.
"I feel like I'm being picked for a game in P.E., but sure ~Jiita! You know I'll go with you!"
"I am not ASKING you Kakarotto," t-that smirk again! I am TELLING you. that smirk... How bout we start keeping count of how many times this beauty likes to smirk at me!
"I suggest that you go pack for year-long trip."
I look out to the door. Hopefully he doesn't mean right now, nee?
"Right now Kakarotto."
Oh okay. He means right now, oh darn. I don't want to go if I have to leave right now. But what the heck! This is a once and a lifetime trip! Alone, in space, with BEJIITA-SAMA! Kami! I cannot wait to see what happens! Maybe we'll. nah, I'm getting too excited, it's a good thing I'm not showing it. To Bejiita I just shrug and smile at his kawaiiness.
"Alright 'Jiita, I'll be ready first thing in the morning! Jaa nee!" I quickly wave and leave the premises. Teleporting would be a fast and quicker way to uchi, but who wants to go home at a time like this? IT IS LIKE I WAS ASKED ON A DATE WITH BEJIITA! Well, more like command, but heck! You must live with it or leave. I'd rather live with any bad habit as long as my Bejiita-chan was right next to me. *Sigh* my daydreaming starts to take over. Too much daydreaming and getting excited for one day, if I do say so myself. Uchi is where I am supposed to go, and for the first time in a long time, I will.
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