An: this is what I think should happen.
RB STORY: Waiting
While Sam and the gang was in the waiting room he'd began to think about the events of that day. It made him angry that she said yes and that ring didn't even suit her, it just doesn't scream Andy. She said she had found it so being the awesome detective that he is he began discerning that the ring wasn't for her in the first place then it dawned on him that it was for someone else like Jo who was sitting beside him. "So was that ring yours?" he blurted out. She was shocked but not surprised, "Yes but at the time we wanted different things and I guess he's never really left my mind till I came back. Sam I still love him and I think he still loves me but he's got Andy and now I don't know what to do."
Sam just sighed because he didn't know what to do either. He loved Andy so much it killed him to see her being fake happy about the engagement to him. He felt like he couldn't breath, he needed air so he decided to go up to the roof. "Jerry, text me if Andy comes back. I'm going to the roof to get some air." he just nodded knowing that this whole situation was killing him; he could see the pain and hurt in his eyes.
he practically ran up to the roof and as soon as pushed through the door, made sure it closed he let out a scream he had been holding in since this morning even though he had bolted out of parade and went to the locker room and punched his locker till his hands hurt that's why he wore his gloves. He just kept doing that for a couple of minutes till he collapsed on his knees and sobbed; he just rocked back and forth with his head in his hands. He was so heart broken that she did this to him; she was his soul mate. He thought they would have a chance once she realized that she loved him to and quit denying her feelings for him. his phone vibrated and he got a text from jerry saying that she was coming back so he'd better hurry and get down here.
He quickly put his phone in his pocket and raced down to the waiting room where jerry looked up at him and saw his tear stained face with blood shot red, puffy eyes. He knew he'd been crying over Andy and this whole mess of a situation, it made him angry that she denied her feelings him even though she felt the same way.
"You alright?" a concerned jerry asked
"I don't know. Jerry I love her so much it hurts me to see her faking it with him just because he's a safe choice and she thinks I'll end up breaking her heart but I would never do that and I just can't be her friend, I want all of her. Maybe I should transfer to guns and gangs. I just don't know anymore."
Before Jerry could answer him Andy came through the door with red, puffy eyes, "He's awake and asking for you, Jo. You need to go in there, he only wants you and here give this to him. It never would've worked out anyway. You're a good match for him." She handed her the ring and smiled. They exchanged seats and she sat down next to Sam, sighed and leaned her head back against the wall. She was surprised that he hadn't said anything by now so she opened her eyes and looked at him. He didn't look like himself, he was hunched over with his head in his hands, he looked beat down and broken. She knew it was her fault and she could just kick herself for doing that do him. She put a hand on his shoulder and saw that he flinched to her touch. "Sam…Sam did you hear me a few seconds ago. It's over between me and Luke. He woke up and said her name, Sam he wants her not me which fine by me. For some strange reason I feel relieved. Are you listening to me?" She was concerned that he wasn't saying anything but then he turned around and she saw what she never what to see from his eyes—hurt, pain and relief then she saw that they were bloodshot, red and puffy; damn he'd been crying over the whole situation.
"Yeah I'm listening, I just wanted to know if it was real or if I was daydreaming but I guess it's real since we're still here at the hospital."
"You've been crying haven't you?"
"Yeah I have, you better be glad you weren't here earlier."
She looked at him quizzically and he continued, "I felt like I couldn't breathe so I went up to the roof and screamed and kept on for a couple of minutes. After I stopped that's when the tears came and I couldn't stop them. Andy you hurt me so bad it felt like I got punched in the gut because I…I love you."
Her mouth dropped opened, she wasn't expecting to hear those words come from him; although she had wanted him to say those words to her since the night of the blackout.
"Sam…I don't know what to say except that I love you also. I have always loved you but…" she was cut off by him, "I know Luke was a safe choice but you don't have to worry about me breaking your heart because I never would dream of it and if I did then I give you permission to shoot me dead." He smiled with his dimples showing knowing she loved when he did that.
"I'll be sure to do that but Sam you screamed and cried? I am so sorry; I shouldn't have tried to deny my feelings. I over thought it again and look what I did. I hurt you so bad I don't think I'll be able to ever forgive myself."
"No Andy don't do that, listen to me, yeah I did that on the roof and I also punched the lockers in the locker room after I bolted out of the parade but that's not the point. What I'm trying to say is that no woman has ever made me feel like that. You are the first woman that gotten through the walls of my heart and then when that happened this morning it felt like you stabbed me with a knife. I half expected to see blood coming from my chest because it cut me so deep when I heard that announcement. Even my other girlfriend who cheated on me didn't make me feel like. You are in my heart and soul Andrea McNally and I can't get you out of my system."
Now she had tears in her eyes because he was getting chocked up again and started to cry when he was pouring out his heart to her. It made her mad at herself for doing this the whole time and she didn't even realize that she was killing him in a sense. Before she could say anything Jo came back out. "How is he? She asked.
"He's still the same, the doctor said that these 2 days are still critical even though he woke up there's still a chance for internal bleeding for some reason. Oh my god I've never been so scared in my life." She started shaking, leaned against the wall and slide down crying uncontrollably. Andy ran over to her and wrapped her in a hug and let her just cry. She rubbed her back and told her, "It'll be ok." Sam was amazed at her; she had a big heart and cared about everyone. He had just broken it off with her and yet she was going over there and comforting the woman that he truly loves. It just made his love for Andy go even deeper.
After a few more hours Jo told them to go home because there was nothing else they could and that she'd call them for any changes in his condition. They all said goodbye and went home. Andy and Sam went together in his truck to his apartment. "Sam…"
"Yeah Andy…"
"Hold me." For some reason she felt vulnerable and wanted for him to hold her and never let her go. He came over to the bed and pulled her close to him. She being in his arms, she felt so safe like nothing could ever harm her. She also loved the feel of strong muscular chest and his strong heartbeat against her head it makes her feel relaxed and soon she's asleep. He looks down at her and kisses the top of her head softly. God he loved this woman so much that's all he could think about sometimes was her. Who knows maybe they'll have a little McSwarek running around someday—whoa where did that thought come from? But as he begun to think more about it, he smiled as he thought about Andy pregnant with his child. Her being on desk duty when it got late in the pregnancy and him out on patrol trying not to get into dangerous situations. He fell asleep as dreams of a little McSwarek with Andy invaded his mind.
AN: Let me know what you think of the story and if I should continue with it.
