Author's Note: I loved this anime so I decided to do a fanfiction for it. I am sorry if it is really close to the series. I never completely finished it. I hope that you guys enjoy it.


Chapter 1: Revelations


I held the cell phone close to my heart. I was toying with the idea of calling the one person that had occupied my mind more frequently than not. Every time I tried, however, I would chicken out at the last minute.

'Damnit! Just man up and do it!' I thought to myself. I gathered up what courage I had and scrolled through the contact list. When I hit the one titled 'Agatsuma Soubi', I pressed the talk button and put the phone close to my human ear. I waited for it to start ringing impatiently.

'Why didn't I just text him? Then I would have avoided this entire charade.' I thought to myself. I knew perfectly well why I had called instead of texted. I wanted to hear Soubi's voice. I waited for Soubi to pick up. Just when I thought that no one was going to answer, Soubi picked up the phone.

"Yes Ritsuka?" Soubi asked in a breathless voice. I frowned when I heard Soubi's voice. Soubi had never been breathless except for the one time that I had instigated a kiss. I started to get a bad feeling, but promptly forced the feeling down.

"Are you okay Soubi? You seem really breathless." I asked. I could hear my voice waver, but if Soubi caught it, he didn't mention it.

"Of course I'm fine. Kio. Please stop, I'm on the ph-" Soubi managed to get out before he was cut off by a loud moan. I could tell that it came from Soubi. I felt blood travel downwards at the sound of it. Arousal threatened to take over my thought process. However, there were more powerful emotions in play. These emotions completely overshadowed my arousal. The most powerful one was an immeasurable amount of grief. I suddenly felt anger at Soubi for making me feel so weak. My cat ears flattened against his head and my tail swished back and forth angrily.

"I guess you are busy. I'll just let you get to it then, shall I?" I said coldly. I immediately hung up before Soubi even had a chance to talk.

I sat there in stunned silence. I couldn't wrap my mind around the fact that Soubi was cheating on me.

'He can't cheat on you if you aren't even together.' A voice in my head reminded me. 'Then why does it feel like I have been betrayed?' I countered the voice inside of my head.

I sighed and tried my hardest to calm down. However, whenever I try to calm myself down, I remember all of the times that I have shared with Soubi. When I went through my usual routine, I surprised myself by breaking down. I cried and didn't even care if my mother heard me. I was crying so hard that I didn't even notice my phone buzz and flash with a red light, a tell tale sign that I had received a text message from Soubi. When I finally calmed down enough to read it, I was hiccupping and was still sobbing lightly.

'Ritsuka... That wasn't what it seemed like. We need to talk. Meet me in the park where we shared our first kiss. I will be waiting for you.'

I couldn't deny that the idea was appealing, if only to see Soubi's face. However, I was afraid that if I did go, it would reveal how much I truly cared about him. I knew that I loved him, but I didn't think that I was ready for a relationship with him just yet.

Keeping that thought in mind, I curled into a ball and tried to get some sleep. It took almost an hour before I finally started to feel sleepy. I had shut my mind off so that I wouldn't think about Soubi and the pain that he caused me. When I finally fell asleep, I had a terrible dream.


*Dream*

In The Park


I was sitting in the park where Soubi and I had recently agreed to meet. Soubi was running late and I was starting to get really anxious. In all of the time that I had known him, I had never known him to be late.

When Soubi finally arrived, it was with Kio. I started to get really worried, but I forced it down and waited for Soubi to speak.

"Ritsuka. We're done. I don't want to be with you anymore." Soubi said suddenly.

I felt all of my blood turn cold, like I had just been submerged in a tub full of ice. I felt something inside of me break.

"B-but Soubi? I came here to apologize for the way that I treated you. I'm sorry." I said before his words could sink in properly. I knew that when they did, I would be left a sobbing mess.

"It doesn't matter Ritsuka. I don't want to be with you anymore. I don't love you." Soubi said.

With those words, Soubi created a cut into my heart, into my very being, that I knew would never heal. He had given me a taste of the love that I didn't even know that I was craving until I had met him. He made me feel alive inside and made everything seem better, no matter how bad things were. And now he was telling me that he didn't want me in his life. I didn't think that there could be a more horrible pain or a more excruciating torture.

"Why are you saying this Soubi? What did I do wrong? Whatever it is, I'll fix it. Just. Don't go. Please." I said as my tears overflowed and ran down my cheeks before dripping off of my chin.

"I got tired of waiting for you. I wanted nothing more than to be considered yours. You kept me waiting for too long, so I finally moved on." Soubi said and started to walk away.

"Come back Soubi! You can have me! Just please... please don't leave me. I would die." I said and was astonished at how true those words were. I would die if I didn't have him in my life.

"... It's too late Ritsuka. Good-bye." Soubi said and vanished with a smirking Kio, leaving me alone with a shattered soul.


I ran blindly to my house. I ran to my room, completely bypassing my mom. I shut the door and locked it before going over to my computer desk. I opened the top drawer and took out my pocket knife. The same one that Soubi had given me for my thirteenth birthday. I opened the blade and went over to my bed. I laid down on top of it and tried to clear my eyes so that I could see what I was doing.

"I can't live without you Soubi. I'm sorry. I love you." I said and sliced my wrist. The blood flowed down my arm and pooled in my sheets. I heard my mom bust down the door and felt her hovering over me. I just barely heard what she said.

"Ritsuka! No! Please don't leave me alone! I was stupid for thinking that you weren't me real son. I'm sorry. So sorry. Please come back!" I heard my mother say. I looked down and realized that she was crying all over my chest.

"Good-bye mom. I'm sorry for not being the son that you wished for. I love you." I said. I felt my eyelids get heavy and I shut them gratefully. Blackness instantly engulfed me.


*End Dream*


I woke up in my bed, gasping and sweating all over. I felt dried tear tracks across my cheeks and my eyes felt puffy. The first thing that I noticed was that I was trembling all over. Not small shakes, but body rattling trembles. I had kicked away the covers and I was now freezing cold. I started to cry again once I went through the events of my horrible nightmare.

'Why does he affect me so much? I can't imagine a life without him.' I thought.

I glanced at the clock on my bedside table and saw that it was too late to call Soubi. So, instead of calling him, I texted him a short message.

'Soubi. Meet me in the park tomorrow after school. We can talk then.'

I sent that and spent the rest of my night worrying about my dream. I needed to make sure that my dream wasn't going to become a reality.

When I decided to get up for good, it was only 5 in the morning. I still had another two hours before school started, but I couldn't handle lying in my bed for any longer. I decided to get on my computer to pass the time.

I started to research the Seven Moons. Even though I knew that Seimei was truly dead this time, I still liked researching it because it was where Soubi had come from. It was also where he suffered tremendous amounts of pain.

Just thinking his name was enough to make me feel like I was about to cry. I dried my eyes and focused on the computer screen completely. After an hour, I knew next to nothing about the Seven Moons. The only thing I knew was what Soubi had told me. I got a bit frustrated, so I shut down the computer.

I went downstairs and started to cook me a breakfast of eggs and bacon. When my mother came out, she fixed me in place with a murderous expression. I froze and waited for the outburst that I knew was coming.

"What are you doing? My Ritsuka would let his mother cook for him! You aren't my Ritsuka! You are a stranger! You will die for wearing Ritsuka's face! You aren't Ritsuka!" She screeched. She started to throw things at me. Most of them were harmless, but she managed to grab hold of a knife and she proceeded to throw it at me. It hit me on my side and I crumpled.

I was vaguely aware that my mother had stopped throwing things. I heard a door slam.

I used my last amount of strength to take out my phone and text the one person that I was hoping would help me no matter what. I texted Soubi again.

'Soubi. I need help. My mom hurt me really bad. Please help me.'

I just barely managed to hit the send button before blackness overtook me and I knew no more.


When I finally came to, I felt bandages on my side. I looked around and saw that I was in Soubi's apartment. I also realized that I was in Soubi's bed with my hand in his.

I started to move around and Soubi's head snapped up. My eyes narrowed when I saw his. They were bloodshot.

"Have you been crying Soubi?" I asked. I kept my tone carefully neutral.

"Of course I haven't Ritsuka." Soubi said. I could tell that he was lying because his voice cracked.

"Tell me the truth Soubi. That's an order." I said with as much authority I could muster.

"... As you wish. Yes. I have been crying. I thought you were dead. When I found you, you were deathly white and there was blood all over the floor. If you were dead, I never would have been able to forgive myself. It was my fault that you were put in that situation. And don't you dare say that it wasn't." Soubi said. His pain made me feel like I was a failure as a friend... and maybe, one day, his lover.

"It wasn't your fault Soubi. It was mine. I got so jealous. I felt so betrayed. The only reason that I felt like that was because I l... I lo... I love you. I can't imagine a life without you. Every time I try to imagine it, I break down into tears. I think that... that I might want to be more than friends." I said. I knew that I was blushing, but I didn't really care.

I had my eyes shut, so I didn't see Soubi's eyes fill with fresh tears. When one dripped onto my hand, I snapped my eyes open. The next thing I knew, I had Soubi curled into my arms. I couldn't bear to see him cry, so I brought my head close to his.

"Kiss me Soubi." I said in a whisper. His eyes, though filled with tears, flashed with surprise. He complied and bent down. When his lips brushed mine, I sighed and melted into a puddle of figurative goo.

When we broke apart, I looked into his eyes and held his gaze. It surprised both of us when I asked the one question that I was afraid I would get a truthful answer to.

"Why did you do it Soubi? Why were you with Kio?" I asked in a clear voice. I was surprised at my guts. I saw pain and regret flash in Soubi's eyes, but I stayed adamant. I wasn't going to leave without an answer.

"I-I'm s-sorry Ritsuka. I was starting to get depressed. I think that Kio might have taken advantage of that. He thought that if he could pleasure me, then maybe I would cheer up. Your call saved me. Thank you." Soubi said sincerely. He had started off shakily, but managed to finish in a strong voice.

"I forgive you Soubi. Why were you starting to get depressed?" I asked curiously. I knew that I could have ordered him to tell me, but I wanted to see if he would tell me of his own free will. 'Please let him trust me enough to tell me without the orders.'

"I was depressed because I thought that I was losing you. After we killed Seimei, I noticed that you didn't spend as much time with me as you used to. I thought that you had no need of me anymore. It made me hurt more than I had ever thought possible. I probably should have told you how I felt, but I couldn't find the right words. Please forgive me." Soubi begged. I felt happy and sad at the same time. On one hand, Soubi trusted me enough to tell me things without my having to give him orders. On the other hand, I was the one who was causing him so much pain. It made me sick to my stomach once I realized how oblivious I had been.

"What are you apologizing for? I am the one who should be apologizing for not seeing this sooner. It is my duty as your Sacrifice and as your boyfriend to notice these things and I failed. Will you forgive me?" I asked. Soubi, however, ignored the question for a few minutes.

"What do you mean by 'boyfriend'? I thought that you weren't ready for a relationship." Soubi said. I could hear the hope in his voice. I smiled at him and kissed him again.

"I'm ready. I didn't think that I was, but I was wrong. I love you and that will never change. Just please... don't leave me." I said in a voice that I hoped portrayed how much even thinking about him leaving me would hurt me.

"I couldn't ever leave you. I love you too much. I need to see your face. You are like a drug that I can't ever get enough of." Soubi told me.

I knew that he was telling the truth when he said that he loved me. If he didn't, he would have left me when Seimei died for good. At first, it had only been Seimei's orders that made Soubi stay with me and pretend that he loved me. Soubi must have known that Seimei was alive because I knew that he didn't love me at first and yet, he still stayed with me.

"Thank you Soubi. You don't know how much that means to me." I said honestly. Soubi chuckled then stopped with no warning.

"What's wrong Soubi? Did I do something wrong?" I asked, already jumping to conclusions.

"No, you didn't do anything wrong. I was just thinking. What are we going to do about your mother? I won't have her hurting you anymore." Soubi said protectively.

I got lost in thought. 'Damnit. I didn't even stop to consider that. I could ask him to take my ears. That way, my mother wouldn't have any choice but to let us stay together. That might just makes things worse though. What to do, what to do?' I thought silently. I debated with myself for a few minutes, trying to decide whether or not I should ask him. I thought about my dream and made up my mind.

"Soubi? You could... take... my... ears." I said in a whisper that I knew he had heard. I was blushing like crazy. I heard and felt him chuckle again.

"Don't be silly Ritsuka. First of all, you aren't ready yet and second, that would just make matters worse. No... I think I have a better idea. How would you like to come and live with me?" Soubi asked. He had managed to keep his voice light, but I could sense that he was nervous.

"Are you sure Soubi? I'm only fourteen, so I can't take care of myself yet. I know that I can be a nuisance. I don't want to be a burden to you." I said. I truly wanted to live with him, but I was almost certain that I would be a burden to him. I couldn't bring myself to do that.

"I am absolutely certain. You could never be a burden to me." Soubi assured me.

"If you're sure... then yes. I would love to live with you." I said and kissed him hard.

'Maybe my life will get better now.' I thought. I just didn't know how good it would actually get.


Author's Note: I hope that this was a good first chapter. I didn't know how good a fanfiction I could do with this anime, but it is my favorite one, so I decided that I had to try. To all of the people reading my other story, I have not forgotten about it. I just wanted to get this story up first.