I weep.

Why did it have to

Happen to me I

Ask. Why? I didn't

Want this. Not for me.

My eyes wander to

The portrait on the

Wall, so dusty, so

Long forgotten. Who

Has forgotten

It? No one but me.

Four smiling faces,

So childish…but so

Happy. So carefree.

That was before. Before

It happened. O Lord,

Why did it happen

To me? They are gone

Now. The people now

Stare at me, and for

A moment I look

Away, tears in my

Eyes. They have been there

Since the train took their

Lives. Oh, the train didn't

Take them. The Lord did.

He did it for a

Reason. But why? Oh,

Lucy. So carefree.

So happy. Who was

I to always wipe away

The smile, always, from

Lucy's so pretty,

Oh-so smiling face.

Why did I have to

Be so practical?

I was a burden,

I am sure. I would

Have gladly changed my

Ways if they had not

Passed away. Peter.

My eyes wander to

His boy-going-on-

To-man face. New tears

Appear. My older

Brother, guiding me

Through all my life, when

I listened. At least

I listened to him

Sometimes. Why did he

Have to leave? Why? I

Cry some more, having

Seen Edmund's face, not

A smile on his face,

But a frown, trying

To look like a man.

He was so far from

It back then. He grew

Up so fast when we

Pretended in that

Imaginary

World that we made up

Inside that wardrobe

And at the station.

They claimed that it was

Real. How could anything

Be real that isn't

Practical? It is

Against logic that

Such a place would exist.

Even Peter, the

One who was supposed

To be the guiding

One, to teach us right

From wrong, was telling

Me that it was real.

It can not be possible.

I look up to the

Ceiling, expecting

Some sign to be there,

Then a little voice

Inside my head chants

From memory,

"Anything is

Possible with God."

Where have I heard that

Before? When I was

Little, sitting in

The church pew, with my

Family, it is a

Bible verse.

That's right. It is possible.

O Lord, how can it

Be real? I suddenly

Understand what

Peter had been trying

To tell me about

Aslan. O Lord, how

Could I have been so

Blind to have ignored

Them like they were children?

Suddenly, I smile,

Look up towards heaven

And know that they are

Watching me right now,

Smiling, because I

Understand now.