I weep.
Why did it have to
Happen to me I
Ask. Why? I didn't
Want this. Not for me.
My eyes wander to
The portrait on the
Wall, so dusty, so
Long forgotten. Who
Has forgotten
It? No one but me.
Four smiling faces,
So childish…but so
Happy. So carefree.
That was before. Before
It happened. O Lord,
Why did it happen
To me? They are gone
Now. The people now
Stare at me, and for
A moment I look
Away, tears in my
Eyes. They have been there
Since the train took their
Lives. Oh, the train didn't
Take them. The Lord did.
He did it for a
Reason. But why? Oh,
Lucy. So carefree.
So happy. Who was
I to always wipe away
The smile, always, from
Lucy's so pretty,
Oh-so smiling face.
Why did I have to
Be so practical?
I was a burden,
I am sure. I would
Have gladly changed my
Ways if they had not
Passed away. Peter.
My eyes wander to
His boy-going-on-
To-man face. New tears
Appear. My older
Brother, guiding me
Through all my life, when
I listened. At least
I listened to him
Sometimes. Why did he
Have to leave? Why? I
Cry some more, having
Seen Edmund's face, not
A smile on his face,
But a frown, trying
To look like a man.
He was so far from
It back then. He grew
Up so fast when we
Pretended in that
Imaginary
World that we made up
Inside that wardrobe
And at the station.
They claimed that it was
Real. How could anything
Be real that isn't
Practical? It is
Against logic that
Such a place would exist.
Even Peter, the
One who was supposed
To be the guiding
One, to teach us right
From wrong, was telling
Me that it was real.
It can not be possible.
I look up to the
Ceiling, expecting
Some sign to be there,
Then a little voice
Inside my head chants
From memory,
"Anything is
Possible with God."
Where have I heard that
Before? When I was
Little, sitting in
The church pew, with my
Family, it is a
Bible verse.
That's right. It is possible.
O Lord, how can it
Be real? I suddenly
Understand what
Peter had been trying
To tell me about
Aslan. O Lord, how
Could I have been so
Blind to have ignored
Them like they were children?
Suddenly, I smile,
Look up towards heaven
And know that they are
Watching me right now,
Smiling, because I
Understand now.
