Disclaimer- Harry Potter belongs to J.K Rowling not me. The only thing in this fan fiction that is mine is the plot. No money is being made off of this.

Chapter 1- frustration- starts off in OoP

Harry woke up after only a few restless hours of sleep. He looked at the clock and was not surprised to see it was only 3:40 am. he let his head fall back to the pillow 'another night with no sleep, this is seriously getting old' he thought to himself, before walking to the bathroom. Figuring he might as well get a start on what he expected to be a long grueling day. It had been 3 weeks since the death of his godfather, yet it felt as if it was only yesterday. every night he would dream of the look on his godfathers face, as he was hit and fell through the veil. Harry shook his head and stepped into the hot shower.

He was on his way to the kitchen to make his self breakfast. He had already showered dressed and done the last of his homework. He figured he would make himself something before starting on the meal he had planned for the others. He cooked some French toast and eggs with a bagel and cream cheese. Just as he sat down to eat molly walks in. "Harry dear, oh it's so good to see you up and eating decently. How are you feeling? Well I hope did you sleep enough?" she asked. "Fine, I slept enough to get through the day. But you know I think I will actually skip breakfast im feeling a little sick." He replied as he got up quickly to leave the room. As the door closed behind him molly seemed a bit worried but let the teenager go with out a fuss.

Harry laid down on Sirius's old bed feeling so frustrated. It was as if no one could leave him alone long enough to actually think. Just as he began to drift back to sleep Ron and Hermione walked in. "Harry mate, you coming down for breakfast? Mum said you left a yummy looking plate behind" Ron said. 'Of course' thought Harry 'all he cares about it food'. "No Ron im not very hungry why don't you have it mate." He closed his eyes preparing for sleep when herminone spoke. "harry you know im not falling for this, you keep acting as if your tired or sick or have something else to do anytime some one walks into the same room as you. We all know you miss him but you cant let it stop you from training and moving on with your life. We need you to stay focused. I cant imagine how hard this is for you but you do have a destiny to fulfill and you know he would want you to do what you needed to first and mourn him later." She said this so softly harry was sure she didn't belive it herself but still he was so pissed with every one telling him this. "no i will not put my godfathers death off till later I will deal with it now and in my own way, and I will train when im up to it so just leave ok" he said this with such anger he was she he had scared her but he simply didn't care. He closed his eyes again and heard the door click shut and he drifted off to sleep.

when Harry woke again it was mid afternoon. He got up and went down to the kitchen in hopes of saying sorry to herminone. As he reached the door he heard voices. "hes so distent, we need to get him back on track" he recognized the voice of lupin. "yes that is true but we also need to let him do this on his own." That was albus he was sure of it. "you are both right but I think we all need to give him a little push, to show that we are all behind him and that we understand" and that was molly. "I say we let him go unprepared and teach him a lesson for acting like an insufferable fool" snape any one would know that 'I love how they all act as if I cant think for myself, im so sick of this shit' he though as he reached for the door knob but stopped when he heard a voice he had not expected to hear "maybe we should back off of him let him live a real life for a while and then ease him back into training when he ready, if he doesn't survive do you really want to think back and realize none of you ever let him live a real life? I hope that's not what happens but if it is I want to remember him having fun and being normal" this was ginny weasly. 'at least some one cared about what he wanted' it was albus that spoke next and sent him over the edge "there is no time for being nice and letting him have a life he needs to defeat voldemort and do it soon he can live a life after that when we know the world is safe"

with this harry walked in his fist clenched and his jaw locked. "fuck you all how about that FUCK you all you worry about is what I do well maybe you should worry about some one else like some one who gives a SHIT im so sick of this destiny and this weight of the world crap I don't want it and I never did and the only person in this room who deserves being saved at the moment is ginny for actually caring if the so called boy who lived actually gets to live!!! I don't want to do any of this im doing it because until now I thought I would be fighting for people who loved me and who I loved as well but I can see how wrong I was. You all have 2 options you can shut the fuck up and leave me the fuck alone until im good and ready or you can keep pushing me and I'll just leave and never come back and you can deal with the stupid lunatic on your own with out your damn robot boy to do it for you understand? So who wants option 1?" he was screaming and he was waving his arms all around and he was crying, but he never noticed. He stood there breathing hard waiting for a reply when finally ginny broke the silence. "Harry im with you 100 percent I choose option 1, but I don't wanna leave you alone id actually like to maybe go on a date with you sometime….. if you would have me. I have fancyd you for a while and well im sick of waiting around for something to happen so im going out on a limb and asking you out again if you will have me." She ws blushing so red her hair looked dull in color. "uh thanks ginny I um im sorry I yelled and everything and erm y-ye-yes id love to go out with you, how about tonight?" he replied nervously. "well now that you to have that out of the way, the answer is no harry we will not choose 1 or 2 you wll train and you will fulfill your destiny you have no choice its your life and we wont let you ruin it because of the obviouse depression you are experiencing." Surprisingly this forcfull voice was albus the so kind and caring headmaster and mentor. "fine you think that all you want you can sit by and wait while I do nothing to help you. It is my life and im going to live it with or with out you all. Ginny lets go out now I need some space from these barbarians" he held out his hard for hers and she took it with out hesitation.

they walked upstairs to get ready. "I just need to change real fast and grab my wand" she told harry as they reached her room. "alright I think I will do the same, meet me back here in 5 min" he said as he walked away. Ginny opend her door and found a magic note in the air wich read "ginny I have fancyd you as well since the chamber and im sorry to say that tonight I plan to leave I have plenty of money to support me and at lest 3 other people and truthfully I would like it you came with me I understand if you say no but after our date I will be headed to the states to start over new iv spent my entire life stuck in a world I hate and its time I changed that you are the best part of all of this I will take care of you if you come if not all I ask is that you keep my secret and never tell any one maybe some day I will come back but I highly doubt that. I am so sorry for the shock this letter must have brought but if your coming please back a bag with this and meet me in the hall I will know if your coming or not iv charmed the purse to alert me when opend if you don't pack it I will understand and I will not mention a word of this on our date but I wish with all my heart you say yes. Yours Harry. " as she read of the purse a cute black and orange purse had apeard in front of her. She thought hard about what to do but even she knew she would go she opend the purse and packed everything she owned into it and changed her cloths she took one last look at the room behind her and walked out. Harry was just done packing and changing headed to the door when he felt his wand heat up alerting him that ginny had packed he walked into the hall with a smile on his face. He was off to his first date with the girl of his dreams and then off to his new life as long as no one figured it out before they got away.

this is all i have so far i need to know if i should keep going so hopfully some one reviews or at lest tells me whats i should do to make it better but this is also my first ever fan fic and i know it is VERY VERY OOC but i hope u can look past that thanks!