Another Wound on My Heart

Fandom: Avatar: The Last Airbender

Ship: One-Sided Tokka, slight Toko

Genre: Romance/Angst

Over the years I've spent traveling with the Avatar, I've had two different girlfriends.

One of them was Princess Yue, from the Northern Water Tribe. She was the first person I ever fell in love with, and she loved me back. But she had to become the Moon Spirit, and left me. I still pray to her. When she left me, I got the first wound on my heart.

Months later, I met Suki. A Kyoshi warrior, and a beautiful one, at that. She defeated me the first time we battled, when she and the other warriors captured us. Then I got to know her, and vice versa.

We began a tentative relationship; I still wasn't completely over Yue. After some months of being together, I told her I loved her. She told me the same thing. I was so happy… We were so happy together.

But, as my luck would have it, that happiness was short-lived.

It was the day of Black Sun, and she was battling Azula. She died, but managed to take Azula with her. When I saw her fall to the ground, never again to get up, the knife I had begun to forget stabbed me in the heart yet again.

When I finally recovered from my depression, about a year later, I fell in love again.

This time, it was with my best friend, Toph Bei Fong. The greatest earthbender in the world, and the only person I've met who can match me in a battle of sarcasm and wits.

When I approached her, about to confess how I felt for her, I saw her. I had been looking down, you see, nervously twiddling my thumbs, worried about how she would respond to my feelings… Then I saw her.

She was wrapped in Zuko's arms, her lips pressed to his; one of his hands pressed against the small of her back, the other tangled in her black hair, for once let out of the bun he was so used to seeing her in; her arm firmly around his neck, the other hand weaved through the ex-prince's messy hair…

My heart ripped in half. I had already lost Yue and Suki, but at least I had known then that my love was returned. Now? I had lost her to someone else.

I knew rather well the feeling of having my heart crushed, of losing a lover… But this was worse. Much, much worse. Maybe it was because Toph was just that much different from the other girls.

Another wound on my heart.