Journey of the soul
Disclaimer: Don't own the Beyblade characters.
Summary: Takes place 6 months after the events in Journeys. Kai is trying to understand why his dreams are beginning to affect his life, and more importantly, what they have to do with Ray.
"Talking"
"Thinking"
"Mystery voice"
Hi, its me again, and I brought a sequel along with me. :) Well as you know it's the sequel to Journeys (duh). I'm going ot be trying a few things with this, in my ongoing attempt to keep my story logical and my sanity(what's left of it, if I had any to begin with) intact. Sit back, relax and enjoy. Don't forget to reveiw at the end. I like reveiws, they help my writing self esteem.
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"Where are you?"
"I'm here."
" I miss you."
"I know."
"Will you come back?"
"Yes and no."
"What do you mean?"
"You may not recognise me."
" I'll still love you."
" But can you love ME?"
"Why shouldn't I?"
"Can you handle the truth?"
" If it means finding you."
" What if you can't?"
"What if I can? I miss you. It hurt when you left."
"I'm sorry, but I had to go."
"I know."
Kai lay on his back in his bed, just as he had been doing every night for the past 6 months.
"Has it really been only 6 months!"
Six months ago he had found his heart and then lost it to the very people he thought they could trust, six months ago he felt the intoxicating sensation as passion and love mingled within him only to be crushed by the very thing that had triggered it.
Ray.
The raven haired beauty that had taken away all his reason and given him love and understanding instead. He loved him, and hated him. The bittersweetness that was love coursed through his veins, reminding him of those moments of joy he experienced when kissing his angel, his tiger. His Tiger, he wanted to laugh as he thought of the name he had given him. He had been a fool to think he could claim the wild creature that he had fallen for, now he nursed the, still raw, wounds that had made their mark on his heart and soul. They still pained, as if they were festering and infected, as he both pined for and cried for his lost tiger.
" You did it again. He was never yours. He couldn't be. Why would he let himself be controlled, he is more like Driger now then ever before, what made you think you culd control and tame such a creature."
He shook his head, Ray wasn't some animal that needed to be taught obedience, he was a living, breathing gift from the Gods. A gift that Kai had lost right after he learnt he had been given such a gift.
He knew he never deserved Ray, no one deserved Ray. Ray was everything anyone could ever wish to be. Beautiful, smart, graceful, elegant, caring, loving, protective, courageous, loyal.
"Was he loyal to you?"
The thought struck Kai, it felt like he had been slapped a across the face with an invisable gauntlet. Had Ray been loyal to him. He had left Kai, he had gone off and left him to nurse his broken soul. He felt himself begin to slip into the depths of deppression again, but as usual he was pulled back, reminding him that he had a promise to keep.
'I'm sorry, I can't stay. I must leave you now. I don't know what to say to make it easier. All I can say is I love you, I always will Kai. Please believe me!'
Ray had begged him to believe him, and he had. He felt the silky voice float in his head again, they were Ray's last words to him, before he made his promise.
' I'll always be with you Kai. I promise. Good bye.'
Good bye Ray. I'll be waiting.'
Had Ray heard him? He thought so, if not then why had he let Kai know he was alive. He would not allow the voice inside to hurt him, he had Ray to protect him. He loved Ray, he had said he would protect Ray and had tried to, but Ray had ended up protecting him.
He glanced out the window and saw the star Ray had pointed out to him.
'No matter where you are or what has happened, that star will always guide you home.'
He smiled again, Ray had said that while they were in Russia, after he had beaten Bryan and they were waiting to go home. He felt tears fill his eyes, he ahd cried so often now he was surprised he still had tears left to cry. He looked to the picture next to the bed, the one of all of them, though his eyes were trained on one person and only one.
"I love you Ray." He whispered, desperately wishing he could see him again.
' I love you too.'
Kai closed his eyes, memories filling his mind as he slid into the gentle arms of sleep, and let her weave her spell on him. Yet as he fell asleep he was sure he felt a hand touch his cheek and soft lips ghost over his own. He wanted to return to wakefullness but couldn't and managed one little thought before he succumbed to the spell of sleep.
' I smell tiger lillies.'
tbc
Theres your first chap. I know lame, but I tried. I swear the other chaps, so far, are so much better.R&R. . Night night.
