A/N: Happy finale day! I hope everyone survives tonight!

I wrote this a week ago after a long discussion about the wedding with someone, and I wrote this so quickly. I just got the chance to edit it today though.

For Filleencore- I hope you can forgive her.


She has no idea why she's running. She loves Barney. She really does. She wants to marry him. But she feels the rain hit her in short distance from the church to the tent, and it makes her think. She can't do this. Marriage, commitment, a life together. She wants to, but it's going to fail. No matter what she does to save it, it will fail.

She feels bad about all the things she said to Ted. She shouldn't have said any of them. It didn't even feel like her saying them. She doesn't love Ted in that way, but he was there. During her freak out, he was there, and Barney wasn't. She'd do anything right now to give herself a reason to run away, to not break Barney's heart as much as it will when they eventually screw up and divorce.

She doesn't want to be with Ted, she doesn't want to move to Chicago, she doesn't want to root for the Blackhawks, she doesn't want to run out on this wedding. But there is this driving need, this driving need to run, to get as far away from the church as possible, as fast as possible. She needs a sign that Barney is the one, because the locket sure wasn't it. That only made her question all her life decisions even more.

She doesn't like the person she is right now. In fact, she hates it. Those things she said about Barney earlier were so hurtful, so mean, so untrue. He's been there, he really has. He hasn't even lied to her that much. And only once in the whole time she's known him was it about something bad. He's done so many sweet things for her over the years. He's always done everything she's asked of him. And yet, she's still running. Still running and running, and now she's almost at the tent, and her feet won't stop moving. She wills them to. She wills them to stop carrying her, to turn her around, to turn her back to the wedding, but they keep going and going, and she hates herself for it.

She turns around to look to make sure no one is following her, seeing her at this horrible moment in her life.

And then it stops.

The running stops.

She's stopped by flesh, by a person. A person that helps her up, dusts her off, and doesn't tell her to go back to the wedding, doesn't tell her what to do. She only tells her to take some deep breaths. She can do that. She can take a few deep breaths. She closes her eyes.

One.

Two.

Three.

She's startled by Barney's voice, and the minute she sees him, he makes it all better. So much better. So much so, that she can't believe that she even just tried to run away. What was she thinking? She can't live without him.

Then he's waxing poetic about vows and never lying to her, and it's everything she ever wanted. She's crying, and she wishes she hadn't been so stupid. She loves him. She loves him more than anything in the world, and she knows he will be there.

His hug and kiss seal the deal, and then he's gone, and she follows, getting herself back to her wedding, because it's what she wants more than anything in the world.