nothing here belongs to me! just the piece of work! I don't
own the characters so please don't sue me!
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Severus lay on his back, staring at the fabric of his old canopy bed. He wasn't sure how long he had been there, but if felt as if it had been an eternity. From time to time he let his mind wander and eventually it rested on his school days. Those seven years were difficult for him. Everyone avoided him. He only made three friends; Lucius Malfoy, Bellatrix Black, and Narcissa Black. His mother was proud that he was sorted into Slytherin, his dad didn't care. He got good grades, he studied hard, and he paid attention in class, but there was one thing that bothered him. He had feelings for a Gryffindor...a male Gryffindor...his name was James Potter. Severus wanted to tell his friends but Bellatrix often started rumors and he had a feeling Lucius would freak out. He eventually told Narcissa who told him that his feelings were normal and no big deal. A week after his talk with Narcissa Severus confronted James and told him how he felt. James was horrified and ever since then he and his gang of friends always taunted him or picked on him. Severus' first year was horrible.
In Severus' second year he began to fall in love with his best friend: Lucius Malfoy. He denied these feeling to himself for over a year. About half way through his third year he confessed his feelings to Lucius. And to his surprise, Lucius confessed his feelings for him. They decided to try a secret relationship.
The relationship worked out for about two years before the broke up due to different views on the rising power of a dark lord. During their separation Severus quickly fell in love with two other students. Both were Gryffindor friends of his first love. They were Remus Lupin and Sirius Black.
Sirius. The name made Severus' insides squirm. He never told Sirius or Remus how he felt because he and Lucius got back together only months later and he was scared that Sirius and Remus would be like James.
Now it was too late to tell Sirius and he was still too scared to tell Remus. He closed his eyes tightly, trying to hold back tears. He tried to think of happier times, he immediately thought of his graduation.
Graduation is always odd. For some time it's a depressing time, but for others it's a time for celebration. For Severus it was a bit of both. It started out as a celebration because he was finally out of Hogwarts! He was free! He mostly stood around with Bellatrix and Narcissa, exchanging addresses and saying goodbyes until Lucius pulled him off to the side. He confessed to Severus that he was to be wed to Narcissa, he had been since before he was born. Severus was stunned. He had become a Death Eater for this man and now they'd have to break up cause of a wedding that was arranged before they were born?
That's when he went to Dumbledore. That's when he became a double agent. That's when he switched sides. That's when his life took a major turn.
Now he's back to where he started. He still has the medium, black, greasy hair...and his nose is still too large for him. His parents are gone, Severus didn't really notice when they suddenly disappeared and he doubts they ever cared about him. People still said nasty things about him and he was once again; friendless.
Severus curled up underneath his blankets and softly sobbed. 'What am I?' he thought, 'God's horrible joke? What's even the point anymore?' He sat up in his bed, pulled the curtains back and walked out into his living room and reached for the antique pistol that hung over his fireplace.
~Fin~
Author's notes: well, this is a one shot fic...I was bored one day and I just began to write out a bit of the first paragraph and this is what it turned into. Comments, both positive and negative, are welcome
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Severus lay on his back, staring at the fabric of his old canopy bed. He wasn't sure how long he had been there, but if felt as if it had been an eternity. From time to time he let his mind wander and eventually it rested on his school days. Those seven years were difficult for him. Everyone avoided him. He only made three friends; Lucius Malfoy, Bellatrix Black, and Narcissa Black. His mother was proud that he was sorted into Slytherin, his dad didn't care. He got good grades, he studied hard, and he paid attention in class, but there was one thing that bothered him. He had feelings for a Gryffindor...a male Gryffindor...his name was James Potter. Severus wanted to tell his friends but Bellatrix often started rumors and he had a feeling Lucius would freak out. He eventually told Narcissa who told him that his feelings were normal and no big deal. A week after his talk with Narcissa Severus confronted James and told him how he felt. James was horrified and ever since then he and his gang of friends always taunted him or picked on him. Severus' first year was horrible.
In Severus' second year he began to fall in love with his best friend: Lucius Malfoy. He denied these feeling to himself for over a year. About half way through his third year he confessed his feelings to Lucius. And to his surprise, Lucius confessed his feelings for him. They decided to try a secret relationship.
The relationship worked out for about two years before the broke up due to different views on the rising power of a dark lord. During their separation Severus quickly fell in love with two other students. Both were Gryffindor friends of his first love. They were Remus Lupin and Sirius Black.
Sirius. The name made Severus' insides squirm. He never told Sirius or Remus how he felt because he and Lucius got back together only months later and he was scared that Sirius and Remus would be like James.
Now it was too late to tell Sirius and he was still too scared to tell Remus. He closed his eyes tightly, trying to hold back tears. He tried to think of happier times, he immediately thought of his graduation.
Graduation is always odd. For some time it's a depressing time, but for others it's a time for celebration. For Severus it was a bit of both. It started out as a celebration because he was finally out of Hogwarts! He was free! He mostly stood around with Bellatrix and Narcissa, exchanging addresses and saying goodbyes until Lucius pulled him off to the side. He confessed to Severus that he was to be wed to Narcissa, he had been since before he was born. Severus was stunned. He had become a Death Eater for this man and now they'd have to break up cause of a wedding that was arranged before they were born?
That's when he went to Dumbledore. That's when he became a double agent. That's when he switched sides. That's when his life took a major turn.
Now he's back to where he started. He still has the medium, black, greasy hair...and his nose is still too large for him. His parents are gone, Severus didn't really notice when they suddenly disappeared and he doubts they ever cared about him. People still said nasty things about him and he was once again; friendless.
Severus curled up underneath his blankets and softly sobbed. 'What am I?' he thought, 'God's horrible joke? What's even the point anymore?' He sat up in his bed, pulled the curtains back and walked out into his living room and reached for the antique pistol that hung over his fireplace.
~Fin~
Author's notes: well, this is a one shot fic...I was bored one day and I just began to write out a bit of the first paragraph and this is what it turned into. Comments, both positive and negative, are welcome
