"Am I supposed to be happy?
With all I ever wanted, it comes with a price."

-The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus "Cat and Mouse"


Picking up the

s/h/a/t/t/e/r/e/d pieces of your heart

is a lot harder than you

imagined.

So many pieces

So many slivers

all stained with the reminder of

him.

x

Taking risks is something for which

you're programmed

it's in your blood

it's in your name

(James Sirius Potter)

but that name of yours

it's also the definition of

l o y a l i t y

and that's why

that's the reason

you couldn't close the

s-p-a-c-e

between his lips and yours.

'Cause that boy

with the turquoise hair

&the heart-stopping smile

he's your sister's

boyfriend.

x

It wasn't his reputation

It wasn't a hesitation of whether it was wrong or right

because none of those things

mean shit to you.

It was purely the fact that

you couldn't hurt Lily if

your own life depended on it.

No matter how long you've been

wanting to taste his lips

No matter how deeply you've longed

to feel his heart beat against yours

it wouldn't be worth it

'cause she's your sister

and your family comes before

your desires.

x

You *might* forget how to smile

You *might* lose your laugh

Your heart *might* never be quite the same

but you have to be brave

you have to m-o-v-e on

before

it becomes too late

before

you can't recall where that line between

right/wrong is

before

you end up losing what your name is all about.

No, no, you could never

betray

your family, right?

You have heard that love can make you

do unusual things…

but this, this isn't

l o v e

right?

(wrong)


The lyrics at the beginning belong to the band "The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus" and are from their amazing song "Cat and Mouse." I really love that song!

:D

Oh Merlin, how I've missed writing boys' love! This is my first James/Teddy, but mew has a few fics for them that are really worth reading!

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Thanks mew for betaing!