Shadow of a Girl
By: Suisen Tekkodan

When I look in the mirror all I see
Is someone that I'm not suppose to be
I can't help the fact the in your eyes
You see a girl who has died.
A girl who is stronger, smarter and prettier than I.
How am I suppose to be happy knowing that
I'm a shadow of a girl you once loved?
A girl who's life, to yours, was above.
A girl you loved more than life itself.
While my heart you threw on a dusty old shelf.
I'm talking about the pains of love.
I'm talking about me and you all alone in the woods.
How you looked at me with no regret.
How you watched me shed each tear after tear.
You, my love, became my worst fear.
The fear of loving one who does not see.
How am I suppose to be happy knowing that
I'm a shadow of a girl you once loved?
A girl who's life, to yours, was above.
A girl you loved more than life itself.
While my heart you threw on a dusty old shelf.
I didn't mean to see you there
Nor for you to know
That seeing her in your arms
Broke my heart painfully slow.
I would have loved for it to be quick.
So that I could move on and forget.
I wanted to forget our time together.
Everything we had.
Good and especially bad.
But every time I close my eyes
I see you in that clearing and
Feel the wound that had yet to heal
Reopen once again.
And so it will be until
I can finally be free of you.
And knowing I'm a shadow of a girl
you once knew.