Tyler,

I visited your grave today, Tyler. Did you see me? I was right at your stone, putting down some flowers. You never told me which ones you liked, or maybe I should've asked. But I put down white roses anyway. I hope you don't mind.

God I miss you. I miss everything about you. Even after five years this happened people still mourn, and I do too, Tyler. I want to see you so bad. So, so bad.

Do you remember that panda you "won" for me at the carnival on our first date? I still have that, and I hug it to sleep every night. I almost lost it once because my dad thought I was too grown up for bears-which is true- and threw it away. Maybe he thought he got it for me when I was little and still kept it, but did you see me run over to the trash can outside our house before the trucks could come? I wonder what the neighbors think of me now.

Haha, I can already see you laughing at me. Don't get too witty on me now... God I miss you. I can never forget your laugh.

Oh, and guess what? I went to Caroline's bazillionth art exhibit today, and she drew you. I think she still remembers your face as clearly as I do. I hope you saw what that drawing was called- Tyler, maybe in heaven, with his cigar.

She turned sixteen lately, you know. She's practicing with my car to drive, and I'm teaching her. She's doing great- maybe better than her brother.

Speaking of Caroline's art exhibit, I did her hair today so that she was attending. I heard she never tried curls in her life, and now her hair reaches her back, I did it for her. It kinda looked like my hair, except brown and longer. You should've seen it- it was breathtakingly beautiful. She asked me if I could do this everyday for her, so I told her I would be taking her to the salon tomorrow after school to make it permanent.

Watch over her, Tyler. She sometimes tells me that she's scared to turn twenty two. You and your brother Michael died at that age, and it dawned on to her like a family curse, maybe. I feel scared that once she's twenty two, she won't be able to win over the feeling of eventually dying and making the decision of killing herself. So yeah, Tyler, watch over her. I'll be too.

I'm in the diner right now you used to go every morning. Maybe it'll become my place now.

I'll write back soon. Wait for me.

2006. 6. 8

Ally Craig


So yeah I've found this too. Old. It's ancient. Haha, but I thought it was pretty romantic, and I wanted you to see it.

I was a pretty big fan of this movie and I still am. So I guess I wrote this up as an inspration.

Thanks for reading, and I hoped you enjoyed it!