I don't know who owns NCIS, but I know it's not me. Enjoy!
!P!A!I!N!
?does it even compare?
can it hold a
|candle|
to the
?guilt?
do you even
?remember?
(you used to have it all)
you took it for
granted
(?didn't you?)
?why?
?why did you choose blood over family?
(you shouldn't've)
?do you regret it?
(of course you do)
it's why there's !P!A!I!N!
(?isn't it?)
((it is))
because you miss them
(the people that)
(care about)
(love)
(miss)
(you)
((?do they really?))
because you chose wrong
(you know he's never)
(cared about)
(loved)
(missed)
(you)
((?does he now?))
because you were stubburnblindstupid
(and you still)
(care about)
(love)
(miss)
(them)
?can you protect them?
you're trying
(to protect them)
with the !P!A!I!N!
(but it hurts)
not as much as if they were hurt
(that would kill you)
they won't let you die
(your captors)
?will they?
not until you give up your
coworkers
friends
family
the family
that (you) left
the family
that (wa)s always there for you
the family
that love(d) you
you won't
?will you?
(please don't)
you won't
?tell them?
(you can't)
you won't
?b|r\e/a|k?
(their lives depend on it)
no
you won't
(you have to save your family)
you
take the !P!A!I!N!
you
{embrace} it
you
zone it o|u|t
and you lightdream
(?isn't that what it's called?)
you wish and you pray and you hope
and you dream
dream
that maybe he'll save you
(but you know he won't)
dream
that maybe you'll save yourself
(but you understand you can't)
dream
that maybe they'll save you
(but you hope they don't)
because
he's never loved you
he's never even hated you
you've always been just a
soldier
to him
because
you're too weak
you've given up on being ~STRONG~
but you don't have
any
other choice
because
you don't d.e.s.e. them
they're so much better than you
they can't be in
dan|ger
because of you
you want to blame
him
(but you can't)
because you know
it's your fault
(all of it)
because you
walked a.w..a...y...
(from them)
because you picked
him
(a cold uncaring father)
over them
(a loving helpful dad)
((abba))
(a doting story-telling uncle)
(an eccentrically hyper sister)
(an endearingly geeky brother)
(an awkwardly lovable cousin)
(and the not-quite-brother you may want to be more)
((your family))
but
!guess what!
just because you gave up on them
doesn't mean they'll
ever
give up on you
?would you believe it?
(that they're on they're way)
they are
?do you know?
(that they'll save you)
even if you've put them in danger
?can't you see it?
(that they love you)
though they think you don't love them
((?don't they know how much you do?))
they're here
(?are you really sad?)
they've come to save you
(?is your heart really not soaring?)
they're willing to die for you
(?can you really hide your fear?)
you don't need to
because
they did come
and
they did save you
and
they didn't die for you
(they would have if they'd needed to)
but they didn't
they brought you {home}
they still love you
you're still you
and so it's
fine
that he didn't save you
(you never really expected him to)
((the cold uncaring father))
because
they did
(you had to know they would)
(they're your family)
((a loving helpful dad))
(((abba)))
((the doting story-telling uncle))
((the eccentrically hyper sister))
((the endearingly geeky brother))
((the awkwardly lovable cousin))
and now
...now...
you can save
yourself
(maybe with the help of your not-quite-brother)
((who will one day be more))
and that takes the
!P!A!I!N!
away
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