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!P!A!I!N!

?does it even compare?

can it hold a

|candle|

to the

?guilt?

do you even

?remember?

(you used to have it all)

you took it for

granted

(?didn't you?)

?why?

?why did you choose blood over family?

(you shouldn't've)

?do you regret it?

(of course you do)

it's why there's !P!A!I!N!

(?isn't it?)

((it is))

because you miss them

(the people that)

(care about)

(love)

(miss)

(you)

((?do they really?))

because you chose wrong

(you know he's never)

(cared about)

(loved)

(missed)

(you)

((?does he now?))

because you were stubburnblindstupid

(and you still)

(care about)

(love)

(miss)

(them)

?can you protect them?

you're trying

(to protect them)

with the !P!A!I!N!

(but it hurts)

not as much as if they were hurt

(that would kill you)

they won't let you die

(your captors)

?will they?

not until you give up your

coworkers

friends

family

the family

that (you) left

the family

that (wa)s always there for you

the family

that love(d) you

you won't

?will you?

(please don't)

you won't

?tell them?

(you can't)

you won't

?b|r\e/a|k?

(their lives depend on it)

no

you won't

(you have to save your family)

you

take the !P!A!I!N!

you

{embrace} it

you

zone it o|u|t

and you lightdream

(?isn't that what it's called?)

you wish and you pray and you hope

and you dream

dream

that maybe he'll save you

(but you know he won't)

dream

that maybe you'll save yourself

(but you understand you can't)

dream

that maybe they'll save you

(but you hope they don't)

because

he's never loved you

he's never even hated you

you've always been just a

soldier

to him

because

you're too weak

you've given up on being ~STRONG~

but you don't have

any

other choice

because

you don't d.e.s.e. them

they're so much better than you

they can't be in

dan|ger

because of you

you want to blame

him

(but you can't)

because you know

it's your fault

(all of it)

because you

walked a.w..a...y...

(from them)

because you picked

him

(a cold uncaring father)

over them

(a loving helpful dad)

((abba))

(a doting story-telling uncle)

(an eccentrically hyper sister)

(an endearingly geeky brother)

(an awkwardly lovable cousin)

(and the not-quite-brother you may want to be more)

((your family))

but

!guess what!

just because you gave up on them

doesn't mean they'll

ever

give up on you

?would you believe it?

(that they're on they're way)

they are

?do you know?

(that they'll save you)

even if you've put them in danger

?can't you see it?

(that they love you)

though they think you don't love them

((?don't they know how much you do?))

they're here

(?are you really sad?)

they've come to save you

(?is your heart really not soaring?)

they're willing to die for you

(?can you really hide your fear?)

you don't need to

because

they did come

and

they did save you

and

they didn't die for you

(they would have if they'd needed to)

but they didn't

they brought you {home}

they still love you

you're still you

and so it's

fine

that he didn't save you

(you never really expected him to)

((the cold uncaring father))

because

they did

(you had to know they would)

(they're your family)

((a loving helpful dad))

(((abba)))

((the doting story-telling uncle))

((the eccentrically hyper sister))

((the endearingly geeky brother))

((the awkwardly lovable cousin))

and now

...now...

you can save

yourself

(maybe with the help of your not-quite-brother)

((who will one day be more))

and that takes the

!P!A!I!N!

away


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