Chapter One

Life

Sometimes when I first wake up in the morning I lie in bed and stare at the ceiling really thinking about my life. Its really funny the way life works, usually it never goes the way you plan, for instance I planned on going to college and getting a business degree and opening my own company. Where am I now you might ask? Well I've been out of school for two years, never took a college course, I don't have a job, and I live in a two bedroom apartment on the bad side of town with my cousin. That sounds pretty crappy and when I'm laying here just thinking of that I hear this one sound all through the house and I think I would never trade these last two years for anything in the world. Cause I've learned that happiness to me isn't a degree or a business, its him. Down the hall and in the dining room sitting in a highchair laughing at whatever my cousin is telling him, is my happiness, my son Shiro. He wasn't planned but he is my life I wouldn't trade the time I've had with him for anything.

I get up and walk into the kitchen past Kikyo my cousin who is practically my twin, but we have a few differences between us. She's got long straight black hair with straight cut bangs while I have long wavy black hair with side swept bangs. She has milky brown eyes and mine are a deep blue. Shes more athletic and I'm more curvy. She has a very mature and down to earth attitude, I'm more free spirited and dreamy. She's been the only one I could rely on since I found out I was pregnant, before I moved in with Kikyo I lived with my grandpa, mother, and brother. Grandpa found out I was having a child and not just any, one that is part demon he disowned me and kicked me out. Mom never spoke up to fight for me and I think that is what hurt the most it was like she didn't care at all. I don't blame Souta he was only 6 he couldn't have done anything and I still see him sometimes I ride by his school and sit with him catching up till mom pulls up. Kikyo never pasted judgment she took me in when I had no where to go, she knew what it was like to be cast out. I come from a long line of priest and priestesses and demons and definitely the enemy to them but I was grew up is a world where demons are every where and they are just like me and you they have families and relationships. Kikyo fell in love with a half demon and decided that she wasn't going to stick around with people that wouldn't except her relationship, after she was disowned and moved out the love of her life left her without anything she's been doing this on her own for 4 years, and when I was in trouble she took care of me and my son. I could live for a 500 years and never repay what she has done for Shiro and me.

Sitting at the table after grabbing some coffee I run my fingers through Shiro's short baby soft white hair and looking into his gold eyes that remind me so much of his father it sometimes hurts to look. Your probably thinking that his father has passed or something like that but he is very much alive, where I have no idea I never even knew his last name all I know was that he was the one and I loved him and I left him. I regret that everyday I should have asked for his name or gave him my number or anything I could to have kept in touch with him. He doesn't know about Shiro, he's never rocked him to sleep, or looked in to his eyes, or heard his laugh, and that just kills me inside.

I've put my life on hold, not dating hoping that one day I'll be walking down the street and turn a corner and there he will be. I'll tell him that I'm sorry and tell him of this life we created and tell him how much I love him. I've been waiting two years and it hasn't happened so I've decided that I have to move on find myself a good man and start living. Today is that day, I have an interview with a really important company Tashio Corp. and I'm going to get that job if it kills me and thats going to be my first step into my new life no more waiting I'm not going to live forever but I'm going to make the most of what I've got.

"Kagome, its almost 7 isn't your interview at 8," Kikyo's brown eyes glance at me from in the kitchen.

"Yeah Kikyo I'm jumping in the shower now, be a good boy for Aunt Kikyo," I kiss Shiro on the head and walk down the hall to the bathroom.

Kagome Higurashi age 20

Is getting a job today.

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