Summary: Bella lived in a world of loneliness and neglect. Her life was nothing but pain, until she met Edward Cullen. He showed her a new life. A new life full of love and passion. The were invincible against the world until reality stepped in. Left all alone emotionally and physically, Bella is forced to raise her child, Leila Hope Swan, all on her own. After 5 yrs, it seems that Bella will never regain her lost love and life again, but what happens when she comes face to face with Edward Cullen once again?

Warning: Some characters will appear out of character than they do in the Twilight Saga. Also, some content is dark as Bella is completely lost with her life before Edward. Please Comment! I hope you like it!

~Preface~

I still remember that feeling when he touched me. My whole soul would light on fire, blazing passions running like wild flames through both of our systems. It was inescapable; neither of us could deny the feelings we shared for one another.

I was young; we were both young. We were both naive to the world, unaware of reality and the issues we must all come to face. We were young and invincible, thinking we could handle anything life threw at us, together, hand-in-hand, but something happened. I changed. He changed. We both changed. We grew up.

I had never known what love was, never felt a feeling so strong in my life. I wanted him with me forever and forever, always consuming my life. They all told me I was too young to understand, that I couldn't possibly be in love. I didn't believe them and didn't care, neither did he. It's not till now that I understand what a fool I made of myself. Everyone was right. I was too young and didn't understand a thing about a serious relationship and now I am paying the price every day. I have to get up in look in the mirror to the face that holds nothing but burdens and mistakes. But, they were wrong about one thing. I was in love with Edward Cullen and the short time we spent together was the best in my life.

I might regret my recklessness and my mistake to ever get involved with a boy like Edward Cullen, but there is one thing I don't regret. I don't regret the miracle we made. He might be gone, but the child he left me with still remains. She is my life and the only love I will ever have. I have been raising her all on my own for nearly five years and I have tried as hard as I could, doing the best I could possibly manage.

I will raise my daughter with a clear and practical head on her shoulder, teaching her through all the mistakes I made. I might be full of pain and suffering, but my daughter will never feel a part of it. I will tell her my stories and memories of all that you have to lose when you are young and innocent. I will make sure she doesn't follow in my foot steps and make the mistake of falling in love with a hopeless relationship. She will learn to not let her passions and emotions get the best of her and cloud her judgment and reality. After all, what is love if it doesn't last and only leaves you feeling lost and hopeless?