The fight between she and Kara had been massive; they'd both said terrible things to each other, but… in Lena's defense she hadn't realized who she was talking to at that point; if she had, none of that would have happened… She would have told Kara everything and would have never kept the kryptonite a secret from her.
After finding out that Kara was Supergirl, she realized why the whole situation had been so personal to Supergirl, and why Supergirl had been so adamant about fixing their broken friendship, after all was said and done between them. She was grateful that she meant so much to Kara, but right now there was an issue with it all…
Lena had said goodbye to Kara a few days earlier. Back then, she had thought that Kara was going on a super-secret freelance assignment that had nothing to do with CatCo… To her knowledge, Kara was going out on her own with her journalism. At that point, she had been thrilled for her best friend, and secret crush; because as far as she knew, Kara was coming back.
Now, however, after hearing from James about Supergirl's upcoming departure… her permanent departure; she was devastated. Which was why she was speeding through the desert in her overly expensive, barely driven, Mercedes Benz… She needed to get to the D.E.O and intercept Supergirl before she left the galaxy forever.
She needed to tell Kara the truth. To tell her that she was sorry, that she understood everything that happened now. That she was in love with Kara, and that she had been for the past two years.
She hoped that maybe, just maybe, that would be enough for Kara to forgive her, and to get the adorable Kryptonian to stay on Earth; or, perhaps it might warrant her a seat on the ship taking Kara back to Argo… Either would be sufficient in Lena's book… as long as she got to keep Kara.
As soon as Lena pulled into the D.E.O parking lot, she exited the car without even bothering to turn it off. She showed the guards her visitor's pass, and swiftly maneuvered her way through the complicated maze of halls that led her to the lab of Director Alexandra Danvers. But, when she was met with a teary-eyed Alex Danvers instead of one that was holding her sister against her will, she frowned, and her heart stopped... Had she been too late? Had Kara already left?
"Alex?" She croaked out tearfully. "Please tell me I'm not too late. She didn't even say goodbye to me." She whispered through tears, pretending still to be oblivious to Supergirl's true identity.
The director offered Lena a watery smile. "She was saying goodbye to the rest of the agency when I came in here. She's probably boarding by now though, but I just can't stand there and watch her leave. It's too hard."
Lena's heart broke for Alex. She couldn't imagine what it must be like for her to have to watch her little sister, her rock leave after all these years. Lena was devastated that Kara was leaving, and she knew that Alex was feeling just as miserable about the situation… probably even worse. "I'm sorry, Alex. I know this has to be difficult for you." She said sympathetically. "I know how closely you worked with Supergirl. I can't imagine how you must be feeling." She paused, taking in how miserable Alex seemed to be feeling, and then spoke again. "If you don't mind, I'm just going to go and say my farewells as well."
The Director nodded her head and wiped away the tears on her cheeks. "Yeah, yeah… Go ahead, you better hurry though," She warned. "She will be leaving any minute now."
Lena thanked Alex and ran to the area in which she knew the ship was being held.
She reached the lift off point just in time to see Kara staring out the back window of the already in-air ship, waving goodbye to the people she had spent the past two years working beside.
Kara was almost gone, and there was nothing Lena could say or do to get her back. She stared at Kara with a broken heart, tears cascading down her cheeks, and watched the ship raise higher and higher.
Eventually, Kara's eyes met Lena's; when they did, Lena offered Kara a tearful smile and whispered: "I love you." Through her sobs.
Lena watched as Kara's face morphed into an expression somewhere between confusion and shock; but before the hero could say or do anything in response, the ship bolted into the sky, and Lena lost the one person she loved more than anything…
That was the day Lena lost the love of her life, and the day she decided nothing really mattered anymore.
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Lena had been staying almost completely isolated for the two months following Kara's departure.
There was nothing and no one that could make her feel better about the loss of Kara.
That Kryptonian hero was her sun. She was her smile, and her laugh… And losing Kara? Well, to be quite frank it was the most significant loss of her life, and Lena was no stranger to loss.
She had lost her brother, her mother, her father, and eventually lost the little bit of Lillian's love that she had. She'd lost Jack, the respect of the country (the respect of the world, really), she'd lost businesses, and friendships, but all of them combined paled in comparison to the loss of Kara Zor-El Danvers… Losing Kara felt like someone had pulled out a steak knife and cut out her soul. Then proceeded to pour lemon juice on her fresh open wound that her soul used to guard.
Her life without Kara was a lot like it had been in Metropolis now; people didn't care about her because Supergirl wasn't there to vouch for her. They disregarded her works of good, and still wondered (out loud on national television, mind you) when the other shoe would drop, and Lena would fall into the same demise as the rest of the Luthor clan.
But if anyone were to ask her how she was doing, she would put on the biggest smile she could fake and tell them she was okay.
That wasn't much of an issue, however, because the only two people she had given access to her were Sam and Jess… Which helped minimize the pain. There were very few reminders of Kara, so Lena could focus wholeheartedly on her work on the Teleportation device she'd been working on from the moment Kara had left Earth.
She was making a few adjustments on the prototype when there was a knock at her office door.
"Go away!" Lena yelled.
The perpetrator ignored her order and wiggled the doorknob, which set Lena into defensive mode.
She stood up and started to rush for her gun when the door opened without resistance, and she saw Sam standing there with her key and an unimpressed look on her face. "You never lock your door, even when other people aren't here…what is going on with you lately?"
Lena swallowed the lump in her throat, letting the constant aching in her chest and stomach overwhelm her once more, and without warning, the tears began to fall. "I miss her so much." Lena sobbed. "This is all my fault. She would still be here if I would have just told her about what was happening."
Sam rushed over and enveloped her best friend in a tight embrace. "Shhh... Lena, it's okay, I promise you it's going to be okay."
Lena held onto Sam like her life depended on it and shook her head rapidly. "No! nothing is okay, and it never will be until I get to hug her again!"
Sam pulled back and faced the CEO with an inquisitive look. "Who?" She implored.
Lena averted her eyes once she realized that she couldn't tell Sam about how much she missed Kara, because it wouldn't make sense to her… For all she knew, Kara was going to be back, so it wouldn't make sense for Lena to be this upset about Kara's absence. "Supergirl." She murmured.
Sam raised her brow. "Really? I always thought you were in love with Kara."
Lena glared at Sam. "I am."
"But.. you just said-," She cut herself off and laughed sardonically. "Wow… Kara is Supergirl, isn't she?"
Lena clenched her jaw. Hating herself for giving Kara another reason to hate her now... Giving away such a dearly held secret was indubitably going to cause even more problems between them. "You need to leave." She asserted as she pulled away from Sam's embrace and wiped her tears.
Sam rolled her eyes. "Relax… if it ever comes up, I'll deny I know anything, and if push comes to shove, you can give me NDAs or something. I'm not going to tell Kara's secret to the world. Not that it matters, she's disappeared."
"She went home. To Argo City. She's with her mother and her friends. She found her world and went back to it without even realizing that she took mine away from me the moment she left."
She watched Sam frown. "Lena, there are so many other wome-,"
"Don't!" Lena scorned. "Don't say that! Because you're wrong. There are three billion women in this world alone, but there is only one Kara Danvers. She's the only woman I need, and she's not even in the same solar system as me anymore."
Sam looked at her with a challenging expression on her face. "But she could be… if you really wanted her to be."
Lena furrowed her brow, her mind confused, but her heart hopeful. "What do you mean?"
Sam smirked. "Let's get the other Danvers woman over here, and we can talk then."
XXX
Lena hated the idea of seeing Alex; every time she even thought of the older Danvers sister, it reminded her of Kara, and set fire to her already aching heart. Although that wasn't healthy, she couldn't quite stop it from happening.
So, when Alex walked through the door of Lena's office, the CEO felt as if she were about to throw up.
Alex looked a mess. Her hair was greasy, she looked as if she'd lost weight, and her shirt was wrinkled. Her face was emotionless as she spoke. "What's so important that you needed me here 'ASAP,' Lena?" She asked gruffly.
Lena shrugged her shoulders. "Sam is the one who texted you… I know just as much as you do."
Alex furrowed her brow and looked at Sam. "What's going on?"
Sam smiled. "I have a way to send Lena to Argo, but we'd need the help of the D.E.O."
Alex looked between the two women and sighed. "Why would we send Lena to a planet she doesn't even speak the native tongue of?"
Lena huffed. "I don't know what plan Sam has, but if it could actually work, I'd be willing to learn Kryptonese."
Alex seemed hesitant. "If anyone is going to visit Kara in Argo it's me or Superman."
"You have an agency to run!" Sam argued. "Once Lena is there, she can drop off the portal she's been secretly building for the past two months, and we can see Kara whenever we want. What do you say?"
Alex eyed Lena. "You've been working on a teleportal?"
Lena shrugged. "It only works one way, so that Supergirl can visit Earth whenever she wants, but no one on Earth can go to Argo and disrupt it without being invited."
Alex rose her brow. "And you thought of this why? I thought you hated her now."
Lena glared at Alex. She wanted to tell her that she already knew who Supergirl was but knew that would only cause more issues. "Because I miss her. I realized how stupid our fight was, and now I want to make it up to her. Supergirl deserves to have both of her homes; she shouldn't have to choose between them."
Alex smiled. "Well, you're in luck; because the D.E.O is already working on a ship that can get to Krypton. Come with me."
I've had this outline in my head for at least a month, and I finally decided to put it to good use. Let me know what you think!