THURSDAY

"I'm so sick of your bull!", I shouted at him. Completely outraged. "your always lying and spouting nonsense. Do you expect me to believe this….. Your not sorry!"….. He looked at me guilty. His eyes and body language expressed shame. "your always the one telling me cheaters never prosper. And ya know what? Your right. They don't, you stupid hypocrite!", I say looking at him in disapproval and heart ache. Trying to hold back the tears threatening to spill over. "you just lost the best thing that could have ever happened to you. Pack up your things and get out." I turned and walked out the door. I'm to upset to look him in the eyes anymore. I just want a go crawl into a deep hole and lay their. For the rest of my life. Any future I had in mind has crumbled.

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A couple days later Inuyasha packed up all his things and was moved out….I refused to be their while he packed. Instead I walked the city deep in thought and slept in my car. I just cant believe after seven years of knowing each other and three years of dating he could cheat on me. I thought he really loved me. I thought we could create a wonderful family together. Have children and grow old together. At least I thought we would….. Until I found out he was going behind my back. How could your cheat on your fiancé ? The woman you've sworn to love for ever? When I had returned home I found a piece of paper sitting on my bed, it read" I'm sorry. I love you both." what kind of bull shit is this? I ripped up the piece of paper and through it away. If only a gapping hole in the universe would tear open above my head right now and suck me in, I would be grateful.

MONDAYDAY MORNING

I woke up to the sound of my alarm clock ringing. Ugh, I so don't want to go to work today. I slowly reached over and hit the snooze button. The weekend was over and I had to move on with life. But I wasn't ready for life to push me so fast. I still wasn't recovered, I hadn't even called my family and best friend Sango to tell them what happened to my engagement. This last two weeks have been ever slow and devastating.

After I showered and got ready for work, I said good bye Buyo, my little man. And started to drive to work. On the way to work I cranked up the stereo to the song time of your life, by Green Day. Seriously, of all the songs by them, it had to be this one?!

-_-…..finally to work, I park and take a deep breath….I hope no body brings up my engagement….

I work at a coffee shop called yunomi. You'd think it would be a traditional Japanese tea shop, except we sell coffee, cake, and sandwiches. Also we wear aprons. The shop neme really has no relevance to what we do. I erally don't understand our store owner. She's a weird one.

Before walked into the building I stoped out side the door and took a big breath. Ready to face today I guess. I opened the door and got ready for my shift. I walked past all the regulars, with a few hellos and exchange positions with Mugero. A pretty blonde green eyed cashier. This is going to be along day.

I hear the bell to the shop ding and I look up to greet the customer. "welcome" he nods to acknowledgement. "Well hey Kagome, long time no see," he says. …just smile and move forward. "Hello Koga," I say with a big fake smile. "What can I make for you?"

He looks me in the eye, deeply.

"you can make your love for that hanyou disappear," he says evenly

"haha what are you talking about again…" seriously why is he always bringing him up? Why god dammit? Why cant we not just bring him up for this once, and have a goddamn normal ass conversation?!

"I can see he went with a lame ring. Only one diamond. And its not even that big," he had grabbed my hand as he said this.

"excuse me?," I said jerking my hand away. I had forgotten to take this stupid ring off…how could I have forgotten? I looked down at my hand…I didn't think it was little, or cheap.

I could feel my eyes begin to sting.

"Hey hey Kagome I'm sorry I didn't mean to make your cry, I was only kidding," he said as he looked into my eyes again, this time sincerely and worried.

And now im crying! How did that happen so goddamn fast?

Why am I so shaken by a little thing like this? Why do I…why do I care? Why am I instantly shaken like this so fast?

Tears spill over rapidly.

"Hey can we go in the back and talk people are staring," he said.

Koga used to work here as well, untill last month he quit because his psycho ex girlfriend tried to poison this guest for flirting with him. She was caught before the coffee was served. Fired, and left town. Koga quit for he to "bad memories" here.

He dragged me into the back while passing and telling Cynthia to cover the front. Another blond waitress.

"ok kags whats going on?" he looked at me worriedly.

Oh hell I'm going to have to get it out in the open sometime.

I looked into his eyes and said "I-inuyas-sha-a-a-" he cut me off. "stop. Take some deep breaths and continue" he said grabbing my shoulders. Did I mention that Koga is one of my best friends? Known him forever.

I took some steadying breaths and started again. "I-Inuyasha….he…he cheated on me again!," I sobbed into him. I'm just in pure shock at the moment. He petted my head and shushed me. Everything began to actually finally sink in. im not getting married. Im not going to have children, im not going to be a house wife welcoming home her husband from a long days work, and offering him dinner. Im going to be alone. And im devastated.

"It'll be ok, these things always worked them selves out," he said holding me. "no! n-not th-this time!" I sputtered. I took a shaky breath. It felt as though the silver on my finger was searing hot. "this time its really over! I kicked him out and told him I can't bear to see him anymore. I cant koga! I cant do this anymore! Im hurting and I want to be done!" I pounded my fist on his chest. He stroked my hair and told me everything will ok. That hes here and its ok….

After the episode in the back koga offered to let me stay at his house for the night so I wouldn't be alone. But I declined the offer. I just wanted to be alone right now.

I looked down at my ring finger. Stupid. stupid. stupid. stupid.