"I am not sorry
For who I had to become
In order to survive."
- Schuyler Peck
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Outside the front door of Alaric's office Kai Parker was banging on the door. His anguished expression was unfamiliar even to himself as he struggled to sort through the conflicting range of emotions in his head.
"PLEASE BONNIE! I NEED TO SEE HER, SHE'S ALONE IN THERE…' he paused, '...which is ironic…because I'm the reason for that…' for a moment his brain glitched and he remembered like an out of body experience all that had led up to this moment, 'BONNIE!"
He continued his banging, refusing to use magic to open the door himself. Somehow the idea of keeping the door closed in his mind was less harassing.
Pleading and begging, his voice was like nails on a chalkboard to Bonnie Bennett. Especially when it sounded like this, so desperate and so deeply uncharacteristic of Kai Parker.
Alaric closed his eyes and opened them again, a pounding headache beginning to take its toll.
"Sociopaths aren't born Bonnie. They're made."
"Malachai Parker is an abomination."
The banging continued.
"Yeah, you're right. But he's also a victim. And you know who convinced me of that? Jo."
Bonnie rolled her eyes and Alaric continued.
"A victim who up until a few months ago was incapable of redemption. It was literally not in his realm of possibilities...and now it is."
"Okay and? So what? Why should I care?"
"Because you're the only one who can get Demetria out of that prison world. You're the last Bennett witch. Do you really want to spend the rest of your life with that guilt on your shoulders? Knowing you could've done something and didn't?"
She looked away from Alaric for a moment, wishing that every word he was saying wasn't true.
"If it helps then just remember you wouldn't be doing it for Kai, you'd be doing it for her. She doesn't deserve an eternity of solitude."
She rounded on him again, "How can you be so sure? We've never even met her. What if she's just as crazy as him?"
They could hear Kai talking to himself now, pausing in his banging and screaming, only to resume mere seconds later.
"And what if she's not?"
Brows furrowed she stared at Ric until finally she settled on the only compromise her warring mind could come up with.
"Fine. I'll go. But I'm not going alone. Kai's coming with me. I'll bring her back if we find her but I'm not gonna be the one to look for her in there. He is."
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A/N: Words cannot convey the frustration and agony I feel every time I think about Kai's story arc in TVD. Everything that happened on the show made sense for the direction they chose. Kai starts out as a sociopath, someone incapable of love because it's been quite literally brain damaged out of him by his abusive parents. Then as fate would have it he merges with Luke and in effect is given the gift of humanity back. Yes his ugly side still exists but now he has hope. Had Bonnie forgiven him and given him a chance at life instead of leaving him in the 1903 prison world he may have been redeemed. But alas that action was enough to make him snap, yet again, and after being left in the heretic world and becoming one himself after turning into a vampire which magnifies all of your existing character traits, well then you have the Kai that kills his sister while she's getting married and goes to hell, only to get stuck in a prison world again. For all eternity. Ugh. This story is what should have and could have happened. It's also a story about how irrational love can be sometimes. The heart wants what it wants…
