Hey guys, Lunamon810 here. I have recently became addicted to Hunter X Hunter (thanks to my cousin), therefor I've been writing a lot of Hunter X Hunter fanfiction, but this is the first one I'm posting on here. Which might be a bad idea, because I can just imagine the hate messages for some slight out-of-character-ness. But I do think Illumi would do what he does if something like this happened. *Is trying to explain without spoilers* Anyways, this is a two-shot, so the second part should be up soon. I hope people don't just decide not to read my fanfiction because of this one. But then again, if they do then I don't need them. So yeah. Enjoy~

Disclaimer: I DO NOT OWN HUNTER X HUNTER!


"Killua! Wait! Please!" I begged, and he sighed and turned to face me.

"What Kimber?" My brother asked, slightly irritated.

"Take me with you! I want to leave too!" I grabbed his wrist. "Please big brother, don't leave me!" He seemed to debate it, knowing I only called him big brother when something was really important to me. He sighed and shook his head.

"I can't Kimber. I can't be responsible for you, I need to do this on my own." He turned away and started to walk away.

"Big brother! Don't leave me! Big brother!" He ignored me as he exited the house, and I felt tears come out of my eyes. "Big brother..." Illumi put his hand on my shoulder.

"Kimberly, you don't need to cry over something so small as him leaving. He'll be back."

"I want him back now." I said somewhat stubbornly, trying to make myself stop crying. I didn't want to look weak in front of Illumi, ever since I was little I wanted to impress him, which is why I try so hard not to be phased by the whippings and everything we have to endure to train and become not necessarily immune to pain, but not being affected by it. All of us would agree, some of it still hurts like hell, but the others were able to seem completely unphased by it, where as I was still learning. I bowed my head a little bit, causing my shoulder-blade length hair fall in front of my face a bit. "But then again, I'll be fine without him." I turned to walk away, but Illumi sighed.

"If it's so important to you to have Kil here, than I'll go get him."

"I don't want to stop him from doing what he wants to." I said. "I just, I'll miss him...I mean, I know it's stupid to miss someone...but..." I don't know why, but for some reason Killua was my favorite brother. He seemed to really care about what I thought and how I felt and everything. As for Illumi, he was my second favorite. He could be a bit cold, emotionless, but he seemed to like me too. Or at least respect me.

"I'll follow him, I'll let him do whatever, and I'll bring him back." Illumi said, and with that he left. I was happy that he was going to get Killua back, but at the same time I felt like I was betraying big brother. He was only a year older than me, and I felt like he probably would feel the same way if he was in my position and I was in his. I went up to my room, but it didn't last long. I was brought down to the room where they chained us up. I sighed and removed my shirt and pants, leaving my in my cropped shirt and shorts I have to wear so I'm ready for this stuff. I put my wrists and ankles in the open cuffs, and Milluki closed them around my ankles and wrists.

"Mom and dad are busy today, so I get to do the honors today," He said smirking. This sent chills down my back. Normally either mom, dad, or Illumi whipped me. Milluki probably would do as much damage as he could. He picked up the whip and slammed it against my stomach, and I winced, clenching my eyes and mouth shut, trying not to scream in pain. He hit me again and again, on my stomach, legs, arms, face. I restrained myself from screaming until about the twenty-second hit, and that was when he hit my side again. This whip was electrically charged I realized. The others had these used on them all the time, but not me, I didn't know why. "Illumi isn't hear to stop me from using the electric whip like he does mom and dad!"

Illumi stopped mom and dad from using the electric whip? I never knew that. Was there anything else Illumi did to help me?

"You look surprised. You didn't know Illumi stopped them, did you? He's so stupid, he's saved you from a lot of training stuff. It's probably why you're so," He paused to hit my ribs with the whip, "weak."

"I am not weak!"

"You haven't had our training, there's no way you can become an assassin! You need to give up on your little dream to impress Illumi, you never will! He probably just feels sorry for you, but it's his fault you can't!"

"You're wrong! I can be just as strong as the rest of the family! Come on, is that all you've got!?" I didn't care how hard he hit me, I wouldn't scream. He looked pretty mad and hit the whip harder than before across my entire stomach, and I made sure I didn't move or change expression. I looked madder as he hit me again and again, in different places. I refused to move or scream, or anything that showed it hurt. I was scared of one thing though, I was starting to bleed, and knowing him he wouldn't stop until I passed out of blood loss. He didn't stop for a long time, and everything turned black.

The next thing I knew I was laying on my bed, bandaged up heavily. Kalluto, my younger brother, he was a year younger than me, stood up next to me. "Mother told me to watch after you. She said you loss too much blood."

I tried to sit up, but it hurt to move, so I decided to stay laying down. I looked at all the bandages on my skin. "Damn it Milluki..."

"He went a bit overboard, didn't he?" I nodded.

This went on for a good while. They kept letting Milluki whip me, and I never winced. Eventually I was able to withstand it and move on after the whippings. I even started running around the estate, and I got to talk to Canary, who helped guard the house. She seemed kind of nice, but she didn't talk much.

I didn't know how much more my body could take before something bad would happen to me. I stopped running around after a while. I stayed in my room, drawing. I drew Killua and Illumi, I missed them. I drew me and Illumi together, than me and Killua. I wanted to give them to them when they got back. I hoped they got back soon, I was afraid Milluki might kill me otherwise.

Finally one day when I woke up Killua and Illumi were next to my bed instead of Kalluto, who'd pretty much had gotten used to coming as if it was part of his schedule. Killua looked like he was about to cry, and Illumi seemed upset, though he barely showed it. I smiled a little big. "Kil, Illumi, you're home. I'm glad you guys are alright."

"It doesn't matter if we're alright Kimber! You're not! What happened!?" Killua demanded.

"Milluki whipped me with the electric whip everyday...he didn't hold back at all. I don't feel good big brother." I said, and he had to close his eyes to keep from crying.

"I'll kill him. I will. You're going to be fine Kimber, I promise," he said.

"I shouldn't have left." Illumi said. "I should have known he would take over the whippings and use the electric whip. I should have been here to protect you."

"It's okay big brother. You went to get Kil for me, " I said smiling. "Thanks." Illumi just nodded and Killua grabbed my hand.

"I'm sorry Kimber. If I hadn't left Illumi wouldn't have, and this would have happened to you." He carefully felt a scar down my forearm. Tears filled his eyes but didn't come out. "I'm sorry."

"It's not your fault Kil. I shouldn't have taunted him. I'll be okay big brother." My vision started to blur, and realized I was starting to cry, and when I did, he did. I sat up, ignoring the pain, and hugged Killua tight.

"Sorry to say, but you're probably not going to be okay. You still have cuts that don't want to stop bleeding." Hearing him say that broke me. I released Killua and cried into the heels of my palms, and I felt someone sit down next to me and hug me. I looked up just enough to see who it was, and was shocked to see Illumi. He never hugged anyone. He was on my right, therefor he was pressing my right side against him. His hair fell around me a bit. "I'm sorry Kimber. I couldn't stop him. If I'd known I would have came back and stopped it. But I didn't know."

"I know big brother." I said resting my head on his chest. "It's okay. I didn't want to be an assassin anyway, what life is worth living if you can't do what you want to?" I was shocked when I felt something wet hit my neck. He was crying. I felt myself start crying. "Don't cry big brother. I'm not worth it." He starting shaking a bit as he cried.

"I tried to protect you Kimber, I really did. I wanted to make sure you made it out okay-"

"Big brother, relax. It's fine. I know you made sure none of the whippings went too far, I know you did your best to save me. I couldn't have asked for better brothers than you and Kil." I heard Killua still crying. "Really guys, I'm not worth crying over. It doesn't change anything, right? I don't really do a job around the house or anything, you'll be fine without me."

"No we won't! You're important to us, or at least me and Illumi!" Killua said, grabbing my hand again. I could feel my heart slowing, so I pulled Killua on the bed, and both hugged me at once. And that's where I died, happy, in my brothers arms. I was glad they cared about me.