A/N: Okay, I know I should be working on my old fanfics, but I started writing this a couple of days ago and couldn't stop! It contains spoilers for anyone who hasn't seen "Drop The World part 2" of Degrassi: The New Generation. Enjoy!
Full Summary: 23 years after Drop the World pt. 2 and Clare is married to an alcoholic K.C. with a daughter, Marie. Marie is 13 when she finds her mother's old high school diary with her 10th grade yearbook and asks about her mother's first true love. Then, Clare starts questioning it herself.
Genre: Romance & Hurt/Comfort & Drama
Rating: T for Adult Drunkeness
Notes: Jenna broke up with K.C. and kept the baby, never speaking to K.C. except for Child Support and help with College Student Payments.
While K.C. was out at the bar down the block, Marie, 13, and Clare, 38, were eating peacefully, enjoying their food for once.
"So, mom," Marie said, setting down her fork. "You'll never guess what I found the other day."
"What did you find, sweetie?" Clare asked curiously.
"Well, I was in the attic looking for dad's old bike, because mine broke, when I came across a box labeled 'High School- Clare Edwards.' When I opened it, I found a bunch of your old yearbooks and stuff."
"That's wonderful, sweetheart," Clare smiled at her daughter. "Did you find anything interesting?"
An awkward look passed over Marie's face. "Well yeah, but…"
"But what, Marie?"
"I, uh, I found your diary from 10th grade."
Clare forced a smile. "Really? I thought-" she glanced at her daughter a moment, then said, "Did you, erm, read it?"
Marie cleared her throat. "Yeah, some of it… And mom?"
"Yes?"
"Who's Eli Goldsworthy?"
Clare's eyes opened wide. She hadn't heard his name in years. "He's nobody, darling," her voice cracked.
"Mom, you mentioned him about a million times in your journal. Did you go out or something?"
Clare cleared her throat. "Yes, I did date Elijah, for quite a while. However, that was the past, and-"
"Why did you break up?" she cut in.
"Uh, well, you see," Clare stuttered. "Elijah and I just weren't meant to be."
"Did you have a fight?"
"Something like that, yes."
"What was it about?"
"Well, lots of things-"
"Did he like someone else?"
"In a way-"
"Who was it?"
"Marie!" Clare yelled. "Enough. I- I'm not ready to tell you about Elijah quite yet. In fact, please bring me that journal now."
Marie deflated and went to her room to find the diary.
Clare took their plates to the sink and began to clean them.
How could she have forgotten her ex-boyfriend, the boy she fancied herself in love with her sophomore year? The boy who had, in trying to relive his and Julia's past, ripped her heart out and left it lying on the floor?
But then, if she was honest with herself, had she ever really forgotten him? The answer was no. She still had dreams of his green eyes, his dark hair, his lips.
No. She could never forget.
A/N: Well? What do ya think? I have many chapters already written, but I need 5 reviews to update :) So, like it? Hate it? Love it? Let me know! Also, if anyone wants to be my Beta, let me know and tell me how to have one… . I have no clue, haha. Thanks!
