AN: Ok so this is my first attempt at writing so tell me what you think,
DISCLAIMER: Stephenie Meyer ownes Twilight and the characters within.

I have loved her for as long as I can remember.

She was beautiful, kind, sweet and caring. She is my everything, but I never told her these things. Why? Well, because I was afraid. You see my name is Jasper Whitlock and the girl I love, Bella Swan has been d my best friend since we were in diapers and no matter how hard I tried I couldn't tell her and risk losing her form my life forever. Not only have I loved her forever but I had to watch as she grew to be more stunning everyday and dated other guys, fell in love with other guys. I feel the familiar ripping and tugging of my heart as the name James Hunter enters my thoughts, Bella's boyfriend. They met senior year in while we were attending Forks High School and their relationship has continued till now when we are all attending University of Washington together. Sadly they are still going strong and are more in love than ever.

"Hey Jasper" I hear the idiot James call to me. He is running towards me, wearing jeans and a black form fitting shirt, his long blond hair pulled into a pony tail at the base of his neck.

"James" I say plastering a fake smile on my face, which probably looks more like a grimace.

"I need a favour" he replies.

"And what would that be then"

"I need you to keep Bella occupied tonight, I have to go and do something" My heart leapt and a genuine smile came to my face when I think of just us being able to spend time together without James being there. But my curiosity is sparked by the second part of that sentence.

"Why? What are you doing" I say, he looks around and drags me into a deserted lecture room, and turns to face me.

"Ok, cause you're her best friend I will tell you, but ya have to keep it a secret" he smiles. Something just doesn't seem right, I have such a bad feeling about this.

"James get to the point, what is it?" I reply my agitation breaking my usual calm façade.

He beams at me and pulls out a little velvet box from his back pocket. Oh God No! He opens it to reveal a gold diamond ring, with white gold intertwined in the band, drawing the focus to a large diamond surrounded by two smaller diamonds on each side. It was beautiful.

I felt my world come crashing down, he was going to ask Bella to marry him and I knew that Bella would say yes. She world never be mine and that scared me. My dreams of one day being able to marry her and have children together, to be able to hold her and love her came crashing down around me. It was all my fault, I should have told her how I felt before she even met James.

"I-I-Its great "I stutter out hoping he can't hear the pain in my voice.

"I know I can't wait to ask her" he says putting the ring back into his pocket. "So I will tell Bella to come 'round at like 5, ok? Thanks for this! C ya Jasper" he shouted as he left the room.

My head was pounding, my chest hurt and I felt like I was going to throw up. I knew that I had two choices, let Bella be married to James. Or fight for her and tell her how I feel like I should have done about 10 years ago.