I don't own House (or Wilson or Amber for that matter) I do own Amber Mae
"You've got to let go of the past House," Wilson told him
"You have no idea what it's like," House replied, "you don't know what it's like living with the guilt, the memories, the heartbreak day by day by day. I watched her die. I watched my baby die at only 4 years old and I couldn't save her. Do you know the HELL that's like?"
"I WATCHED AMBER DIE HELPLESS TO SAVE HER," Wilson responded raising his voice ever so slightly, "and I was the one who had to turn off the machines."
"Do you know what it is to think, 'if only I'd done this,' or 'if only I had not done that' things would be different?"
"Yes," Wilson shot back, "I kept thinking that myself. I thought if only I'd insisted she stay home that night… she was catching a nasty flu anyway it wasn't like I'd be being mean. It would just be protectiveness or if I'd stepped in that afternoon or if I handled things myself… that Amber would still be alive"
"I know the feeling," House said, "but it's different. You weren't the one making the wrong decisions or not knowing what to do. There was no way you could have known what was going to happen. I on the other hand couldn't find out what was killing MY Amber till she was gone. I'm able to figure out everything but I couldn't with this one. If I had known if I had been able to figure it out my baby girl wouldn't be lying in a pine box-"
"Wait- your Amber"
House nodded.
"I named my daughter Amber Mae"
"Pretty name"
"Thanks"
"What happened to your wife," Wilson asked
House chuckled
"Wife? You're assuming I had one. She was a slut looking for a handout and she left right after the baby was born"
"Why would you be with a woman that was a slut?"
"I didn't know she was," House said rolling his eyes, "after Amber Mae died I became bitter and angry. I used the wrath any time someone would even look at me the wrong way. I hated myself for being like that but I figured if I had to suffer they did too. Then one day I tried to use the wrath on Cameron and she told me if I even tried she would jab my cane into my bad thigh. Now I may be bitter but I ain't stupid. I backed off and reluctantly apologized."
Wilson cracked up. He couldn't picture Cameron doing that.
"Anyway," House said, "I don't know how to let go"
"It's okay," Wilson said hugging him like a brother, "I'll help you"
