"Depending on you."
A/N: WARNINGS: SPOILERS for everything up to the Season 9 Mid-Season Cliffhanger and the promos for January 14, 2014's Episode.. BLANKET WARNING covering anything and everything that may be offending, triggering or upsetting in any way shape or form… NC-17 Rated type things such as: Foul language, mentions rape of a Main Character when they were still underage, mentions of past suicidal thoughts and actions, mentions of child neglect, mentions of verbal abuse towards children and adults, mentions of physical abuse towards children and adults, mentions of mental and emotional abuse towards children and adults, mentions of Non-Consensual drug use, mentions of alcoholism, lots of blood, guts and gore, torture, etc.. Will all be strong themes in this work of FICTION…
I do not own anything having to do with Supernatural and I am not making money off of this FICTISOUSLY based story that is based off of the FICTISOUS Canon of a FICTISOUS T.V. Show that is based off of lots of FICTISOUS Mythologies, Legends and Lores.. That can actually be researched as if it were all fact. (Which I do, I do TONS of research on all of the 'REAL" Lore that I can get my hands on (Thank you Internet.)..).. Also.. There is tons of STRONG RELIGIOUS themes that will be present in this work of fiction and I don't own the rights to The Bible, The Quaran or any Religious texts nor do I own any Religion that any Religious text is based off of..
Please do not flame me… This FICTISIOUS story is based off of well researched Canonical lore as well as well researched 'real' lore…
CHARACTERS: Sam, Dean (OBVIOUSLY), Gadreel (It can also be spelled Gadriel.), Crowley and Castiel… For now… Hehehe… Almost everyone who's read my other stuff knows how I just LOVE to throw in little surprise twists!
A/N: Based on a combination of beliefs and lores, this is what I've come up with: When GOD decided to create HUMANS there was actually some trial and error…. AND... According to some obscure lores… Lillith (A FEMALE) was GOD's first human like creation… Oh and Adam (The first MAN) totally bit into the Forbidden Fruit before Eve did…
ANYWAY… Onto the story….
"Depending on you."
When Castiel arrived at the bunker he found Dean sitting beside the body of Kevin Tran.
"Cass." Dean croaked. The man had definitely been crying. "Bring him back. Please, bring him back."
Dean had been praying the same thing over and over, for more than an hour, but Castiel didn't know if Dean meant Kevin or if he was just pleading for his friend to bring his brother back home.
Castiel knelt down next to Dean and was finally able to see Kevin's face.
And then he found himself wishing that he hadn't looked.
"Dean, I'm so sorry."
"Why?" Dean whispered "Why are you sorry? I did this. Me. This is my fault. This time.. It's all my fault."
"Dean, you couldn't have known…"
"Yeah… But I did know Cass… That's just it… My gut, my instincts kept telling me that something was off about that son of a bitch and I ignored it… All because I was so freakin desperate to save Sam." Dean let out a humorless, self-deprecating chuckle "Now that I look back on it and think… I mean, really think… There's no hoop I wouldn't have jumped through if that bastard had told me to if it meant getting Sam healthy again… I would have done anything Cass. Any damn thing he said and all he would have had to do to was say that it was to help Sam."
"Dean… What is this?..."
"Well, I really mean anything Cass… How sad is that?... I would have lied… Actually I did lie… But I would've kept lying, I would have stolen, cheated… I would have killed…. I would have done anything… ANYTHING…"
Castiel looked around at the bunker and felt angry at himself for not having been able to get to Dean sooner…
There were half empty liquor bottles littering both of the tables in the library. Apparently, Dean did just about as well with being without Sam as Sam had done with being without Dean.
"You're drunk." Castiel stated. Kevin's body was still laying in the floor and Dean had went and gotten drunk.
"I couldn't bury him Cass." Dean cried "I couldn't salt and burn him… I just… I couldn't."
"Dean…" Castiel's tone was laced with sympathy, regret and remorse… This was just as much on him as it was on Dean, after all.
"There has to be a way." Dean stated, his voice sounded so distant, like Dean wasn't really there. "There has to be a way to get them both back… We have to get them both back."
"Dean, Kevin is gone and I fear that it may be too late to save Sam."
"No." Dean growled. "You do not… You do not tell ME that there's nothing we can do for either one of them!"
"Dean, Kevin's soul is beyond the reach of everyone except Metatron, now and it's possible that the angel who possessed Sam has sent Sam's soul to a place that's beyond reach as well."
Dean let out a frustrated snarl as the punch he landed on Castiel's jaw did nothing but hurt his hand.
"My brother is not dead! Don't you ever say anything like that again! Do you hear me?!"
Castiel only gave a sympathetic nod.
"He's still in there. We just have to find a way to get that winged asshat to give up the driver's seat long enough for Sam to eject the bastard." Dean wiped the fresh tears from his face then looked as if he was refortifying his emotional barriers as he finally allowed himself to actually touch Kevin's body.
"Kevin… Wherever you are, if you can hear me… I am so sorry." Dean whispered reverently then just like that… All of Dean's walls came back up and he was back to the stone cold, sharp edged predator that a year of Purgatory had turned him into.
Dean gathered Kevin's lifeless body and carried him into the room that was once Kevin's where he wrapped him in the bed sheets and once he was done he sat Shiva beside Kevin's body for three days, because Kevin was family and he was going to damn well get the same consideration he had given to every other member of his family who's died.
During the four days that Dean had needed for Kevin's funeral, Castiel had known to keep his distance, especially if he was going to try to mention how improbable it was that there was still some way to save Sam…
But now, Cass couldn't keep quiet anymore. He couldn't let Dean keep on like this. It was wearing him down.
Dean was acting like a lunatic with the way he was drunkenly tearing books from the shelves in the bunker's library, constantly muttering that one of 'the piece of crap books in this place' should have (had to have) an answer to how he could get his brother back alive in between drinks of Scotch or beer. And when he wasn't tearing apart the bunker's library, he was down in the shooting range emptying clip after clip until his arms grew so tired that he couldn't hold up the gun anymore.
The only differences between Dean right now and how Sam was after Lillith killed Dean was that Dean had thicker walls and a better poker face. That and Ruby wasn't around to screw with his mind. But other than those few, small differences it was just like watching the same thing happen all over again.
Castiel's about to hate himself.. But he either has to tell Dean that Sam is gone and that he has no choice but to let Sam go and hope he takes it well... OR… He's going to have to tell him that Crowley might be the only being that can possibly help save Sam now and hope that Dean doesn't do anything stupid like letting Crowley talk him into a deal.
Yeah… He's really about to hate himself…
"Crowley could cast the angel out." The mere thought that he's actually saying it out loud makes Cass hate himself even more.
Dean's face stays impassively blank. He just nods and moves away. Turns his back to Castiel then says. "We need a plan."… The cold, hard edge to Dean's tone is different than anything Cass has ever heard Dean use before, even on the worst days in Purgatory, he hadn't ever heard Dean sound like that.
When Dean turned back around though, his eyes were what sent chills down Castel's spine… The Dean before him was an entirely different person than the Dean he had known.
Castiel never thought he would see the day when Dean willingly decided to take up arms against the vestige of his brother, but when Dean picked up an angel blade... The message in Dean's eyes was written in green flames. "Save Sam or kill him."…
It was that instance Castiel realized that there was a big difference between Sam and Dean…. There were lines that Sam wouldn't willingly cross, even to save his brother… But with Dean… Well… THIS Dean… There wasn't going to be a line he left uncrossed even if it meant losing his brother…
TBC…
A/N: I know… But I'm working off what I saw in the Promo… ANYWAY… Thanks for reading and as always… PLEASE review!
