Title: Eternity With out you(is to Long)
Author: Kaiyote
E-mail: candygirl_mnm@yahoo.com
Rating: G - PG
Pairings: None
Spoilers: Some of 4 and 5
Summary: After two rejections, Spike writes a letter to Buffy telling her about the chose he's made.
Type of Story:Song fic
Disclaimer: I do not own the rights to any of these characters. It all belongs to Joss and co. and I don't own Smashing Pumpkins song 'The Beginning is the end is the Beginning'
Feedback: Yes please!!!
Notes: Lets all pretend Spike loves Buffy in season 4, he has his chip, and Dru's just left him because of it, oh and Dru came back and Buffy killed her(Oh and all things italics is the letter and falsh backs, Bold is the song)
Warnings: Character death
the sewers belch me up..
the heavens spit me out...
from ethers tragic I am born again...
***Flash Back(previous day)***
'Spike' came a voice from in the shadow's of the tree by Buffy's house where Spike was. 'Dru?'
came the response of Spike. 'I've come back for you' Dru said. Buffy watched from inside her house,
and carefully got up and grabbed a stake that was resting by her. She crept outside through the porch
near the kitchen. 'Dru, you shouldn't of come back!' Spike growled. As Dru neared Spike, Buffy
neared Dru. Dru touched Spike on the cheek sending a shiver through him. 'Don't you still love me?'
Dru asked, looking sad. But before Spike could answered Buffy plunged the stake into Dru's heart. '
Slayer' Spike said. 'Spike, I told you to leave town! And told you if Dru came back here I'd kill her'
Buffy said. Then she walked away leaving Spike alone, with Dru's ashes.
***End Flash Back***
and now i'm with you now
inside your world of wow!
to move in desires made of deadly pretends
It had been a day since Buffy had killed Dru, and Spike was not taking it very well. "Dru."Spike
called softly, hoping that maybe Dru wasn't dead.' What am I going to do now,' Spike sadly
thought,' The only reason I wanted to live before I fell for the slayer was Dru, but now she's gone. And
the slayer hates me. Why should I live for eternity if there's no reason?'. ' I'll kill myself,'
Spike thought,' I will'.Spike took out a piece of paper and began writing.
till the end times begin...
climb my ribcage to
the replays run for you
Spike walked into Buffy's room and found the stake that was by her bed. He took out the note that
he had wrote her. Read and glanced at her,' God she's beautiful' Spike thought. But a small part of his
mind said,' She killed Dru, she''l kill you, she'll never love you, you'll always be alone!'.Spike looked
at her then saw the sun slowly rising.
unhook my lights to peek behind the flash
for I am crystal chrome
I am shatter dome
And as the sun rose Spike took the stake he held in his hand, he rose it to his heart. And just as
the stake penitrated through his dead skin, Spike flung the letter at Buffy and hoped she'd read it. Then
as Spike slowly turned to dust, he whispered," Maybe I'll be with Dru now, Buffy". And now a pile of
dust lay where Spike had been.
I am kremlin king of angels avenged
to destroy the end...
the zeppelins rain upon us the guns of love disastrous
Buffy woke with a start, after the letter had flotted to her face. " What's this?" Buffy asked no one
in peticuler. Buffy lifted the letter and read....
Dear Buffy,
I no you said to leave so I have, I just hope that you don't want me back. Because I don't think I'll ever
be coming back. I'm dead. It's your fault, you know. You killed, Dru, you broke my heart. Not once
but twice. You broke it when you told me to leave, you broke it when you killed Dru. There was no
reason for me to live for eternity, if I was already dead in my heart, soul, and body. So goodbye,
Buffy.
- Spike
a shadow lies amongst you to defy the future cast...
is it bright where you are
have the people changed?
Buffy looked around then she saw the pile of dusts, she hadn't relized it but until now, but she was
crying and loudly too. So loudly that Dawn walked in, when Dawn saw the dust she said," What's
that?" Buffy looked at Dawn then, burst into more tears and said," Spike". " What!" Dawn said. " It's all
my fault" Buffy murmured. Buffy threw the note at Dawn, then told her to get out. Buffy never knew
how much she loved Spike until it was to late, and Buffy cried and cried and cried, thinking of Spike.
does it make you happy you're so strange?
and in your darkest hour, I hold secrets flame
you can watch the world devoured in it's pain, strange
The End
A/N: Hey this is my first Buffy story! Do ya like? Tell me in your review, pwease! :)
