Chapter 1: Is she really gone?

Hello! I know I discontinued the other fanfiction, but there were just too many fic's with the same idea. So here's my spin on the old "Love fades, Mine had" but what's going to come of our two love birds, 4 years later after rose left. Will simple eye contact let they're love blossom?

-Weekly/every chapter I will have songs I replayed/are meant to go with this chapter and this week's song is…

My Immortal; Evanescence

"… These wounds won't seem to heal. This pain is just too real. There's just too much that time cannot erase. When you'd cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears. When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears. And I held your hand through all of these years. But you still have… All of me"

RPOV:

I punched his face, before I moved on to trying to stake him. But he kicked me first-but not before I blocked him with my foot and during that one moment of surprise; I staked him.

I sagged and sighed in relief. I had been walking past the mall boarders, on my way to my apartment, until three Strigoi jumped me but thankfully I caught them. I then went to run; not wanting to be caught by anymore and stopped.

After about two minutes, I arrived in the front of my house; I then walked in and sank onto my closing my eyes. God was I tired. I had multiple strigoi fights today-as I had tracked a cave near court with Strigoi hiding-and wanted nothing more but to sleep.

I then, got up and drew in a deep breath, clearing my unwanted dark feelings. Two days. In two day, I will be 23 years old. My unsettling feelings have been arising so often; it was a routine. Breath in, breathe out, watch friends and calm down. Easy, right?

My darkness has become so bad and consuming its all I think about. I think about the dark. I think about sometimes killing people- or sometimes wanting to be killed. I had a constant cloud over my head and a empty heart of where everyone once was. I missed everyone to this day; lissa, Dimitri, and god even Christian.

I can't feel fully into the bond anymore. Like my darkness is numbing it. I feel Lissa is alive; but no thoughts. It hurts. What hurt more though, is they stopped. They stopped looking for me. Sure, I made sure my existence wasn't known… but I had to. To protect us, me and lissa. I did this for her. I will never regret that. But what I do regret is never telling anyone the truth…

So, over the last 4 years I had made myself busy… I was thing most feared, the one among strigoi that was feared. But in that, I only increased my darkness and sadness.

DPOV:
March 21. In two more days, it would mark her birthday. Would mark the birth of someone so very special to me, and many more have lost. Someone so truly beautiful in and out, that everyone let slip away... and now she was gone.

It had been harder and harder to not think about her. Just walking through the court's yards, or the guest housing, even just passing by the Queens station, all reminded him of her. No. Not her, Rose. And I felt my heartbreak every time.

No one had seen or heard from her in 4 years. She was believed to be dead. Rose. 'She' has a name. After a year of searching and dead ends the princess stopped, everyone just kind of gave up and assumed she was dead. I mourned her, heck, I still am. Everyone was discouraged to go on; and everyone mourned in they're own way. Lissa's way was to ignore and keep herself busy; and that's exactly what she did. For me, I never found a way, I just always dwelled on the memories…her.

I missed the light that followed her personality, I miss her dark brown wavy hair, her smile, god, even the nickname "comrade" I would do anything to hear those words come out of her mouth again. Everyone took her gone hard. Her mother even, everybody. Vasilissa, Eddie, even Christian. We all missed her everyday but more so recently.

Lissa explained how she couldn't feel her anymore, can't feel when she's there. Usually, she could feel when rose was watching; a piece of her. All she feels is a dark oblivion. A Darkness of some sort. But me? I took it the hardest. If wasn't selfish. If I listened to her. Just maybe, just maybe, I'll have her here in my arms.

Although, I can't help but feel that she's alive. I don't believe she's dead, it's like I can feel her. Me and Rose have always had some kind of bond, though not magical, we could tell what one another were feeling. Soulmates.

"Guardian Belikov, please report to Hans front desk" The speaker awoke me from my thinking, I was currently watching the boarders of court while my charge-Tasha-was out with Christian. I took it upon myself to be her guardian after she practically begged me. I needed something to keep up my mind, distract me. So, I aggreged.

What Hans wanted, I didn't know, but I did have a feeling it wasn't good. Although I was considered one of the best guardians that doesn't mean my strigoi days were forgotten. I wasn't usually called in for important jobs other than my normal guardian duties.

When I arrived no more than 5 minutes later, I was greeted by the faces of Hans himself, but also Vasilissa, Eddie, Christian, Tasha and Janine. Huh? When did Janine get here- and why were four moroi in guardian HQ? I had no idea. God, this really must be serious. But where was Adrian? Probably out at some party, partying away all of his sorrows…

"Hello, guardian Belikov as you know we've called you in, and as you can see some others also" Hans explained nodding in the others directions before continuing "Now that we are all here, I'd like to get started" we all nodded in agreement.

"As you all are aware, Strigoi numbers have dropped miraculously, and the source is a town, about an hour or two away" Hans stated. It was true, Strigoi numbers over the years had been going down but this year the numbers and bodies hit an ultimate low, why? We weren't aware.

"And, this has raised suspicions as to... A danger" he concluded waiting for a response, and that's when Lissa spoke up "How can it be a danger? Isn't Strigoi numbers going down… A good thing?" she asked, and others nodded in agreement, "Well, we don't know for sure what's happening, are they doing for or against us? The motive? But we also can't leave a trail of Strigoi bodies around…" Hans stopped looking around "Which is why I'm sending you, Belikov, to follow the lead we've gotten" he concluded.

"Wait, me? Why? Not that I'm not honored…" Hans cut me off "That's what everyone else is here for, the reason for everyone here is…" Hans gulped "The lead, the photo, it's a certain someone who used to be trained by Belikov, a friend among everyone, and Dimitri, you caught her once you can again" Everyone gasped. Rose? Alive? Lead? I couldn't think properly, and I could tell everyone else was confused as well.

"Rose?" Lissa said while a sob shook through her body.

"Roza" I breathed, and then I heard Janine sniffle along with Christian. Rose was ok? I couldn't focus. My love, the one I was to be believed was gone, was alive? I could feel tears in my eyes threatening to come out.

"How?" Janine Hathaway asked, voice shaking. "Well, the most recent attack was at a mall an hour away at night, and Rose came out and took on 3 Strigoi, we were able to get pictures" Hans looked at me, then at everyone else "I asked you all here, tracking her down, is because I know how much she means to you all; and she has a bright future if she just came back, maybe even healthier" When he finished my eyes bulged.

"What do you mean Healthier?" I asked, concerned. "Well..." he handed me a picture from the mall. I took the picture quickly and studied it. Rose looked skinnier, but she looked exhausted-mentally exhausted- and drained. Sad. In a way, unhealthy.

My hands were shaking, looking at her. Her hair, her face, eyes, nose, lips. It was all too much, but I knew one thing was for sure; I was going to find her one way or another.

And when I do, I will apologize, apologize for how selfish and mean I was, to say those four words for her to run. Tell her how much I wish I just ran into her arms after being restored. How much I missed her.

"I accept" I stated. "What? Dimka, are you crazy?" Tasha asked in a voice coated in jealousy and all eyes turned to her, "You don't know what's happened, what if something happens? I'm also your charge so you can't leave me" Tasha said looking at me, shifting in her seat.

"Lady Ozera, I have approved him to go" Hans said with a mean hint in his voice, "Well, I guess that means I'm going" she said looking at me smiling "Can you believe it Dimka, we get to can hang out all day" she said smiling. Hans tried to protest but Tasha used her Royal power to overpower him.

"What about me?" Lissa asked, clearing up tears. "Lissa, I'd prefer you didn't go with all the Strigoi…" I told her, "I promise, if I see anything-at all- I'll tell you, don't worry" she was going to protest but decided against it seeing the look on my face.

And that's why no more than two hours later, I was in the backseat of a guardian van with Tasha trying to get my attention and Abe Mazur waiting impatiently-how he got to court so fast was beyond me- while another guardian was driving, I was looking at a picture of Rose. Oh, how much I would do to have her now, in my arms. Look at her, tell her how much I love her, because despite what I said to her in the church; all I wanted to tell her now was that my love never faded… not for one moment.

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