What do you think in those last minutes, when you know you are going to die? What memories or regrets pass through your mind, when you resign yourself to self-sacrifice for the sake of something you love, for retribution of another's death? Is it difficult - is it painful - to let go?
Do you think of all that might happen without you, that which you should never be blessed to witness, to stand as observer of? When your eyes fall on all that can be seen, knowing you will never more breath that air, see that sky, laugh or talk with your friends and relations.
Do you feel relief, or agony, contentment, or fear? What do you think in those last moments, when you stand with the last of your strength and survey what you know you have died for? When you realize the world will go on, lives will still be lived, but you shall on longer be there to watch?
But what if you don't know the end of the battle, the end of the war? What if all you know is, whatever happens today, you finished what you knew must be done. Perhaps things in life no longer become concerning, for you know the living will repair the broken, aid the weak and build up what you could not. Perhaps it is a calm quiet, those last moments, as the sun sets slowly in the west, filling the sky with the last of its rays.
Perhaps you might smile, thinking of the friends you fought for, and the amazing quest you have traveled. Perhaps, perhaps the world seems beautiful, and you know that your choice to die, or your unexpected death, will benefit the world becoming a securer place.
But these last moments? We can never truly know what is thought. These questions can never be answered, they are seconds lost in time, time of infinite words, time when thought is not given to every moment, every jot. Only pray that there truly is life after death, because there, we will finally understand those last moments.
A/N:
My brother and I were watching BOTFA, and I was wondering what Thorin thought, standing there, before he died. What he thought when he ceased holding his life in the balance. What does someone like that think of in their life? Do they regret, do they even remember all that happened to them?
We know Thorin did, at least, it seemed he did. I don't think he regretted actually, just remembered. I don't think he was sad for his choice either, I think he was at peace. Still, for me - a deep thinker - I wonder what he - anyone - thinks in their last moments.
I know that right there, on the ice, Thorin knew that the only way to win was to die, and he realized that death wasn't so fearful, wasn't the end of everything. He chose to die not only because he knew it was the only way, but because he wasn't afraid of it anymore. That was what, in my opinion, allowed him to pull back his sword. Still, we can never truly know.
This is merely my question voiced aloud. Tell me what you think in a review, if you want.
WH
