Chapter 1
AN: This is a story about how Callie and Arizona began. It follows the regular storyline a little bit, but not too much. This is my first fan fic ever, so please give me some constructive criticism. I hope you enjoy.
"I love you, Callie." Four little words that had been ringing through the head of Callie Torres all night long. Four words she did not reciprocate. Four words she had been dreading all week. For the past week, Erica Hahn, Callie's girlfriend, had seemed on edge. Callie tried multiple times to talk her through her apparent anxiety, only to find Erica claiming she was fine. But, Callie could tell she was hiding something.
Last night, was Callie and Erica's one month anniversary. They went out to a wonderful Italian restaurant on one of Seattle's most beautiful shorelines. Ferry boats floated in and out of view, carrying passengers to various destinations. The sun was setting in the distance. Needless to say, the scene was absolutely breath taking. They ate delicious food, drank wine, then headed back to Callie's apartment. Callie fumbled with her keys trying to unlock the door. She didn't worry about waking anyone since Cristina was on call at the hospital. Giggles escaped her mouth, while her tipsy wine infused brain continually confirmed that her car key would open her apartment door.
"Here, let me help." Erica said smoothly as she wrapped her arms around her hazed lover. Her hands taking control of the keys and helping Callie open the door. Callie looked over her shoulder at the slightly taller woman, her breath heavy and slowed.
"Thank you." Callie's lips broke into a smile as Erica came in for a light kiss. "Mmm, I could use more of that." She said seductively, as she moved in to deepen the embrace.
Erica pulled back and smiled, " Let's get inside first." The two shuffled their way into the house. Callie went to her kitchen and pulled out her already opened bottle of red wine, her favorite. She poured two glasses, grabbed the bottle, and walked over to meet Erica on the couch. Moments passed in silence as the women drank their wine. Callie was getting anxious. The room began to feel very small and heavy, tension was building. Erica was not breaking eye contact, no matter how many times she tried to look away at anything else. Suddenly her thoughts were interrupted by a break in the silence.
"Do you know how beautiful you are?" Erica asked. Callie smiled, flattered, as she tucked her chin down, shyly looking up at her girlfriend, lusty thoughts began filling her mind. Erica smiled as she moved closer to the beautiful being before her. She lifted Callie's head with her hand, and looked deeply into her eyes once again. "I know-" she began "I know I have been acting strange all week, but there is something I have been wanting to tell you." Callie's body immediately tensed up, as her heart began to race. Her stomach was flipping repeatedly as she tried to anticipate what Erica was about to say. Erica grabbed her partner's hand in her own, interlocking their fingers. "I realize that it has only been a month, but I have never felt this close to anyone in my life. You have helped me to realize who I truly am."
Callie smiled, "I made you see leaves." Referring to a comment Erica has made after their first night together.
Erica laughed. "Yes, you did. You opened my eyes. You have changed my life so much. And-". Suddenly, she became nervous. All of her feelings were boiling up in side of her, the feelings she had been restraining all week long. Every time she looked at the beautiful Latina sitting before her she melted and her heart would explode with an overwhelming surge of emotion.
"Yes?" Callie gently prodded, the tension in the room was growing larger and larger by the second. Callie could tell that Erica was more nervous than she had ever seen r, which was causing Callie's stomach to flip repeatedly. Her mind raced with what Erica might say, things had been going so well. Callie had never felt this comfortable with someone so quickly. She liked how easy things were with Erica, how nothing was complicated.
Erica took a deep breath. "I love you, Callie." Erica's face lit up at her declaration. "I love you. I love you." Her voice was loud, her smile beaming. "I mean, I really fucking love you." Callie faked smiled externally, as her eyes got wide and dilated at her partners omission. She loves me? Callie's thoughts were racing wildly. This can't be happening. I am not in love. I can't help her see leaves and have her fall for me. I don't even know if I am gay. I just thought we were figuring things out, not falling in love.
"Callie?" Erica's words paused the brunette's mind. "I-." Before Erica could finish, the Latina placed a deep kiss on the lips of Erica Hahn. She continued to deepen the embrace, doing anything she could to stall Erica's expectation of a response.
"Bedroom!" Callie semi-demanded between kisses. The two stumbled to the Latina's room, tossing clothes as the went.
The sex was amazing, as it always was, but afterwards Callie's mind was full of thoughts that refused her sleep on deep into the night. Erica was tucked snugly behind her, and with every breath Erica took the brunette felt more and more guilty about her lack of feelings towards the woman now holding her tightly. She quickly glanced up at the clock on her side table, 3:47 am. She didn't have to be at work until 7:30, but she knew she would not be getting any sleep here. So, she decided to head over to the hospital and get at least some sleep in the on call room. She couldn't lay in her own bed anymore, not next to Erica, not with everything that had happened the night before. And she damn sure could not face Erica in the morning. She definitely wasn't ready for that conversation.
