A/N So I apologize for the spelling/grammar/whatever mistakes. I was supposed to be writing my thesis but this idea couldn't leave my mind and I gave in to it. I know it's oq week and that there are specific prompts everyday. This is not it, this is a random idea I had. I'm not sure about the future chapters really... I mean if you think it's good leave comments and I'll work through it or even ideas. As I said this was really sort of random writing, also my first fic. English is not my first language so if you see mistakes etc please help me out.

She leaves. Before being taken by the turmoil that is her feelings at the moment she wonders if the audience enjoyed the pained look on her face. She wonders if Mary Margaret saw it and she hopes not because that would mean that she would do what she does best talk through it.

She feels betrayed. But is it really? Emma didn't know what she was doing she was just inconsequent. There is not betrayal after all. She's angry and she knows too well how dangerous of a place this is because for a lifetime anger was all she had. She feels guilty for being so selfish thinking about the second lost chance when Roland got his mother back. Then she hears him saying, "Mama" with so much surprise and excitement. And she remembers how Robin told her that he would give anything to have Marian back. Then, she leaves.

She's so angry. It really is nobody's fault except for her own. "Villains don't get happy endings", Rumple's words echoes in her head. How could she fool herself into thinking that a day using light magic could erase decades of blood spreading? She fears how disappointed Henry will be, he believed vehemently on her redemption… So did she.

She hears people calling out her name and before anyone follows her, she's covered on purple smoke. She lands on her bedroom. This is too painful. She didn't remember what suffering felt like before she had her heart darkened. And it is truly painful, because she is not only considering her suffering. No. She is thinking of everything that happened, she's thinking about Mary Margaret encouraging words on how her heart would become even stronger. It really doesn't seem like it now. She is thinking of the conviction of true love that hit her the moment she kissed Henry's forehead. She is thinking of his smile when he recognized her. She's thinking of how once she tried to curse herself to an eternal middle because she didn't believe she would see Henry again. She's thinking of the moment she saw Robin keeping his promise getting her heart back. She realizes that different from the past she actually hopes now and that is what makes everything even more painful.

Regina is staggering to her bed as these thoughts rush through her mind. She gasps and sobs and she reaches her bed. That's when she realizes that she's also being taken over by a migraine. They've become more and more frequent lately. She figured it had to do with her last battles but she never really took the time to heal herself.

She brings her fingertips to her temple and massages it. She's better get a painkiller. She hopes none of the Charmings come after her. She hopes Henry doesn't do it either. She has to first figure out what she is feeling, for it's been years since this ocean of emotions has taken her. She stumbles towards the stairs. She needs to take something.

Her hands are covering her mouth and she sobs and gasps for air. Her vision starts to blur and she realizes she apart from the wetness of the tears she's sweating. She's grabbing a glass to get water with the pills on her hand when the pain hits her. Her shaky hand releases the pills and holds onto the counter. The last thing she thinks is of how happy she felt holding Roland's hand and looking at Robin's smile. She collapses on her kitchen floor as the glass of water shatters.

"Emma, what have you done?", Snow asks as she sees the family Reunion. "I… I didn't know. We have to go after her", Emma fears how Regina will handle this situation. Because for the first time she has a better idea of what a broken heart did to Regina, especially after the encounter with the Evil Queen in the Enchanted Forest.

Henry is rushing to where his mother and grandmother are, "Where's my mom? Where did she go?"

"Henry, she left. I made a mistake. I'm so sorry"

"What happened? Is she ok?"

"Henry, I'm sure you'll see her soon. She loves you. But why don't you take Neal with you and Emma…" before she finishes her requirement Emma says, "Mary Margaret let me come with you, I can fix this…"

"No Emma you can't." Emma saw this look on her mother's face only once when she tried to leave town with Henry and she harshly confronted her when she came back.

"Mary Margaret, please…"

"No, Emma. Let me deal with Regina. We came a long way and I finally got the woman who saved me back. I'll talk to her."

Robin finally looks up to meet Snow's eyes and all she can see is a man torn. He says, "I'll go talk to her" and Snow says with an understanding look that he's better not.

"It's time for you to think this through and let Roland enjoy his mother. But Robin make no mistake, I'm not saying you can postpone this forever… You'll… You'll have to come to an understanding of what's happening and figure out what you feel towards Regina." He only nods and she can see how much he cares for her.

"David I'm going after her"

"Mary Margaret…"

"I'll be fine, I promise." She takes his hands with a gentle squeeze and leaves.

She knocks on the door but nobody answered as she thought so. She opens the door "Regina? Regina, please it's me Snow. Don't push me away, please.", she enters the living room and she sees a glimpse of a hand behind the counter. She runs to her stepmother, "Regina? Regina wake up!" The woman's face is pale and she's covered in sweat. She's relieved when she sees her chest moving slowly but she's scared of how cold her skin is now. Mary Margaret looks at the shattered glass on the floor and the pills.

Regina's hand moves a little and Mary Margaret realizes she's coming to consciousness.

"Regina, can you hear me?"

Her voice is hoarse and her eyes are still closed "Snow? What…" that's when she feels her body flat against the floor and the pound on her head.

"Everything's ok. Do you remember what happened?"

"What are you doing here? I'm fine", she tried balances herself on her elbows and tries to sit down but the pain on her head is too strong and she winces. Snow holds her up on a sitting position.

"You know why I'm here."

"Well, we all learned a lesson today Snow. You rainbow talk does not work with me. I had hope, and you just saw the good it did to me. So, please leave me alone. I just…" she traces her temple with her fingers and adds, "I have a migraine, which is not a surprise considering the last few days. But I'll be fine."

"Regina are you sure this has nothing to do with Robin or…"

She is grabbing the top of the counter to stand up while Snow is still holding her forearm to give support. It still infuriates her how obnoxiously nice Snow can be. "Please leave me alone" her eyes grow darker and she looks at her stepdaughter "there is no space for hope or second chances in my life…" She's standing up finally when her knees buckle and if it weren't for Mary Margaret she'd fallen straight to the floor. Snow has a puzzled look "Regina? Look at me." The woman is starring down with a surprised look as if she also has no idea what's happening. As Snow is holding her up and placing her gently on a chair she succumbs.

Frustration overpowers her. She's disgusted by her weakness now. She's disgusted that she didn't make Snow leave, that she had not power to overcome this migraine, that she can't even stand up right now… and that's when she violently pushes everything on the counter on the floor and a loud sob leaves her mouth as everything falls on the floor. Snow grabs her and pulls her closer. She feels Regina's tears rolling down on her own skin. But she didn't forget how much paler the woman became, "Regina, we should go to the hospital."

"No, I'm fine."

"No you're not and you're getting worse. Can you stand up?" Regina doesn't even realize that she is leaning completely on Snow's body and Snow wonders how conscious is the woman right now. Regina blinks apparently noticing what she was doing and tries to push herself away and stand up. Snow sees as the woman does what she does best, fight. She is not going to surrender to Snow's help. So she stands up and the whole room swirls around her and she has no balance. Snow puts her arm around her waist before the woman falls.

"We're going to the hospital. Henry would kill me if he found out I left you like this"

The last thing Regina hears before losing consciousness again is her stepdaughter calling David to come.

She wakes up to bright lights and a hand holding hers. She blinks trying to take in where she is and has the wrong impulse to sit down. That was clearly a bad choice and she feels as if her head will blow up…

"Mom?"

She winces and tries to open her eyes slowly. "Where am I?"

"Hi Mom! You're in the hospital. Mary Margaret and David brought you in."

"Oh…" she recalls the previous night, how Snow had found her… How Robin found Marian.

"You shouldn't try to move… Whale said something about a concussion and that it caused you to loose balance a little. I'm sure someone will explain it to you… I was scared when I saw you here."

She then took her surroundings in and looked fully on her son's eyes. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to worry you. Thank you for being here but I'm ok. Don't worry."

"No you're not. But it's ok. I'll wait for you to be ready to tell me that." He squeezes her hand and she's speechless and puzzled by what answer should she give him when Snow comes in the room with David behind her.

"Welcome back. Are you feeling any better?"

"When can I leave Snow?"

"Well, I can't really say but Whale will come and talk to you. You… You scared me when I found you on your kitchen's floor."

"Well I'm fine now. Let me go home now." Her words are demanding but there's a thankful look on her eyes that are too clear to Snow. She comes by the bed and touches Regina's hand as she holds a suspicious look to her stepmother.

"He's been visiting you since I brought you in. Robin."

She flinches at the sound of the name and sadness take over her.

"He shouldn't. He has a family to take care of." She pauses and takes a deep breath, "Snow, why are you doing this? Why did you come after me?"

"Do you remember when I saved you from your guards and you asked me if I wanted the woman who saved me back in my life… I told you I did. And I know right after that I told you there was no forgiveness I could give you… But you came back and when I saw the woman that saved me again I remembered that I forgave her long ago. I can't loose her again."