Warning(s): Character Death, Depression, Unrequited Love, Juvia Centric, Completely Written In Third Person Pov, Long Oneshot, Song
Third Person Pov:
Juvia looked herself over in the mirror. She looked gorgeous in blue, but deep purple looked just as good on her.
The fabric clung to her assets in a charming, yet unrevealing way, and ran down her legs to the floor where it gave the illusion of being floor length, when it was actually a centimeter above it.
And with her hair curled and pinned to one side her ice make necklace was revealed in all it's stunning glory. Her backup magic power roared within the necklace as though to confirm her raging emotions.
Juvia sighed and clutched it with a pale hand, and smiled softly as it beat with her heart. "Gray-sama…" She sighed longingly before shaking her head to clear her thoughts.
Today was his day. Today was his wedding day. She couldn't get sad and make it rain when it was such a beautiful afternoon! Or atleast…that's what she told herself.
The truth was; if she made it rain she'd never forgive herself for ruining Gray's big day. Her feelings aside, he was always more important. It was just too bad that she was nothing more than family to him.
Slipping on her black shoes, the rain woman left her house with a practiced smile. The same practiced smile that she showed up to the wedding with.
She greeted the guild members happily and smiled as she stood in the front row where she could see everything.
She smiled throw the ceremony and when it was time for Erza to give her vows, Juvia finally let a tear fall.
It rolled down her cheek, looking nothing less than a diamond as the sunlight hit it. But as it slowly went down its path Juvia didn't wipe it. She figured that she deserved to shed atleast one tear for her shattering heart. However, she didn't account for the other tears that followed the first. It was those she wiped away, and she only did so when she noticed how happy Gray looked.
'You were never mine….were you?' She mentally questioned. 'All those times you pushed me away, all those times you rejected me…It wasn't for fear was it? And yet I…. And yet I couldn't take the hint. I kept getting back up and pushing for your attention, trying everything for it. But all I ended up doing was causing trouble. But somehow, even then, you smiled at me. Perhaps that's why even now I'm struggling to let you go. I'm at your wedding at my heart is refusing with all it's might…. Gray…maybe if you'd left me in the rain that day, maybe if you'd never smiled at me…Maybe, just maybe, I wouldn't be so heart broken…'
Juvia wiped away another onslaught of tears and clutched at her necklace.
"I do." Erza finally said before she and Gray kissed.
'My heart may not allow it, but I'll force it. I'll force it to get over you because this pain is too much. It hurts so much to smile Gray. It hurts to cry myself to sleep and wonder why I was never good enough. It's so painful to want to give you away when my own beating heart is fighting me every step of the way. But this time….this time it has to be for good…even if I have to leave to make it stop.'
Juvia bit her lip as her claps mingled with the guild's cheering. And when no one was looking, she ripped the pendant from her neck, left it on her seat, and slipped away from the wedding.
She went to a cliff on the outskirts of town and sat on it. Her black pointed pumps shown in the sun, only staying in place because of the T-Strap.
She sighed and watched the waters below. It'd be so easy to jump, but she wouldn't allow herself to do that. If she did then she was no Fairy Tail mage.
Fairy Tail mages didn't give up. They fought till their last breath and then they got back up and did it again. She was one of those stubborn mages and she'd be damned if she did something undeserving of her guild name.
But still….for all that, feelings were feelings, and she was allowed some depression for her shattered heart, wasn't she?
I'm covering the sound of my sobs with a laugh.
Smiling, even though I'm crying inside.
Tell me, how can this be right?
I'm losing, myself slowly.
Tearing myself apart.
I keep, wondering why I was never good enough.
I keep slowly dying.
But can a girl with no tears left still cry?
How can she sob when no sounds will escape?
She'll drown in her own tears, just you wait.
And if they ask how, I'll say; "She's already cried an ocean."
I'm dying slowly right now.
I keep you from seeing how much it hurts.
It's none of your business if I suffer.
I feel like a doll right now.
I smile while I'm crying out for help.
But how can I scream out when my heart's a labyrinth fighting me down?
The world is getting to me.
Fate is really pushing me.
But my pain is becoming deafening and it's hard to let go…
How can a doll on a shelf still feel when she's blocked off her heart?
It's not fair when the world sees fit to kill you when you're trying to be happy.
Take a step forward, take eight steps back and then breathe in.
And ask…"Have you finished crying yet?"
I'm covering the sound of my sobs with a laugh.
Smiling, even though I'm crying inside.
Tell me, how can this be right?
I'm losing, myself slowly.
Tearing myself apart.
I keep, wondering why I was never good enough….
Perhaps we weren't meant to be.
But can a girl with no tears left still cry?
How can she sob when no sounds will escape?
She'll drown in her own tears, just you wait.
And if they ask how….
I'll say…
"She's already cried an ocean."
Yeah, she's already cried an ocean.
And if they ask me how I know. I'll say; "Because she's me."
As Juvia let the ending notes of the song reach the horizon, she felt herself relax. The pain wasn't completely gone, but it was dulled.
Suddenly there was clapping, and when Juvia turned she easily spotted Lucy.
"That was beautiful." The blonde smiled as she sat beside her friend.
"Thanks."
"Did you write it?"
Juvia simply nodded and Lucy hummed before they fell into silence.
"So…Gray and Erza." Lucy started after a few minutes. "Must've been hard to watch. I mean, you were in the front row."
Juvia chuckled dryly.
"Yes, but you were worse off. I mean you were the best woman of honor. I mean, I know I couldn't have been the maid of honor for the woman that stole the guy I was after, nor could I be his best woman when I know he's not mine."
Lucy laughed a little. "Maybe, maybe not. Love has a funny way of making you ignore all the obvious things. You find yourself in more pain than you ever thought possible, all because you can never utter a single; "No"."
"True." Juvia nodded with a smile. "Too true."
While Lucy and Juvia watched the sunset, the rest of Gray had found Juvia's necklace.
He felt her magic pulse and it raced through him as though trying to make his heartbeat match hers.
He clutched it, knowing she was alright, but his eyes went wide and he screamed a moment later.
The beat of her magic was slowing down, which meant her heart was slowing down.
And before he could leave his reception it stopped completely, and everything went silent as Gray ran to find Juvia, only to collapse when he arrived at her favorite spot.
The cliff had crumbled, and where Juvia and Lucy once sat was nothing. And when Gray peered over the edge, he saw blood in the water, but it quickly disappeared leaving Gray with the sick, yet accurate imaginings of the two girls sitting and talking before being taken by surprise at the sudden crumbling of the cliff.
Gray clutched the cold necklace, and he never noticed when Juvia's magic sparked back up, it's pulse now matching his heart perfectly.
Though she wasn't there she still loved him, and her magic was a living testament to that.
No matter what, she's always protect him, dead or alive.
SO
My first oneshot for , as well as my first (published) FT oneshot. How'd I do?
I know it's long but meh. Do you think I should do the Lucy version so you have more insight to what happened to Lucy and Natsu or no?
Also, there's a hint of my newest FT fanfiction hidden in there. Well a remixed version but it's still there.
If you're interested it's going to be called; Beneath The Raging Water, and it's out. I hope that you guys check my profile and read it.
I hope you enjoyed reading this, and thanks so much. Please remember to review, I love hearing your thoughts!
(And for those of you wondering, yes, I did write that song. Sorry if it was too long for you're liking.)
