My Truth
By TK Date I'm not a hero.
That's probably the stupidest thing I've ever said in my entire life, but then again it's the truest thing as well. Who am I kidding myself? I've never saved someone's life, set a good example, or done something right. What kind of hero is like that? Here's your answer, a hero who's not.
Heroes are bold people. They charge into any challenge without fearing death and they always, always, fight on the right side. Have you ever seen a hero kill anyone but the bad guys? It just doesn't happen. That's because they're heroes. Heroes don't kill people.
Now if I were to give just one reason I'm not a hero that's it right there. A hero doesn't kill people. I do. Do you even know how many people I've killed? Don't even start counting, because I don't even know. I've made orphans and widows, all the time thinking I was a hero by doing so.
You see, heroes don't make widows, or orphans, because the bad guys can't love anyone, therefore they can't have kids. It makes sense, right? I mean, they're evil. And what's the exact opposite of evil? Good, love, those kind of things. That's why the bad guys, at least the real bad guys, don't have kids, because they don't love…they're evil.
This is kind of a funny thing when you think about it. I'm an orphan. I grew up without any parents. I kept with the kids in my gang and that was the only way that I got food or any sort of care. Now when I thought I was doing something right, something that'd help those kids like me…all that I was doing was just making more of them, more orphans.
Don't get me wrong now, I didn't live my entire life on the streets. There was this one time when I got taken in by a church that had turned into an orphanage during the war. The people at the church were really nice too, they took in all the kids that were in my gang. Hell, they even let me keep my hair long. They were okay people.
I tried to get a home with some of the foster parents who were always coming in and adopting kids but none of them would take me for very long. Everyone said it was a problem with my attitude. I think I understand why I didn't get a home now. Who would want to share a house with Shinigami? No one, that's who.
So instead I stayed at the church. I was Shinigami for Maxwell Church. And with my wings of death I brought down the entire place, Father…Sister Helen…everyone. They're all dead because of me, you see. Shinigami brings death, not live. Shinigami isn't a hero, so neither am I.
Yeah, I am Shinigami. I'm afraid of dying so I become death myself. I don't want to die so I kill everyone who gets close to me. Oh and I don't just stop there. I kill everyone who gets in my way, everyone who I think is wrong dies. That's what Shinigami does, he brings death. I am the bringer of death.
That's my story…I guess. And that's why I'm not a hero. I'm just a liar, who pretended to be a hero but was really a killer on the inside. Of course I can't tell anyone this, no one wants to be friends with a killer…but I need them, I need friends. At least, friends who don't want to get to close. Because I'm Shinigami, remember? Anyone who gets to close to me is destined to die.
"I run."
I've never run from a fight…but I fear death. So I became it.
"I hide."
No one knows who I am. No one knows my hell. I just wish that…
"But I never lie."
I wish someone would just see through this act and realize the truth.
"Duo Maxwell."
I'm not a hero, I'm death.
By TK Date
