Hate

Disclaimer: I don't own Loveless. Do I really have to write this?

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There was a lot of things Ritsuka hated. Too many things...

He hated the way Yuiko clung to him at school, and he hated the way Yayoi resented him for that.

He hated the fact that Seimei had gone and left him alone in this world, and he hated him for sending Soubi to him.

He hated the way Soubi fought to kill, and he hated the way he used him. Telling him that he loved him when it was a lie.

He hated the fact that it was a lie, because he so dearly wanted it to be true.

He hated the way that he missed the company of the older man, because in the end, there would be no one but the memories left behind in the photographs on his desk.

He hated that he would have to forget those memories, because, he truly had begun to feel happy. For once in his life since Seimei had died, he had begun to feel whole again, and he hated the thought that it would all end.

He hated the world for being so cruel to him. For giving him friends he could not keep, and for giving him love he could not return. After all, he was not really Ritsuka. Merely a temporary replacement while the old one regained his memories again.

Ritsuka hated a lot of things, but today, seeing Soubi waiting patiently outside the school, cigarette in hand and cheeks flushed against the cold, Ritsuka decided...maybe it was alright to love. Maybe- he wouldn't have to hate them after all.

For the meantime at least, Ritsuka decided he could take the chance.

There was a lot of things Ritsuka hated. Soubi wasn't one of them.

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A/N: I couldn't sleep. Sister kept bugging me to hear her dream out. This is what happens as a result of a sleep-deprived, annoyed 13 year old. -.-

Review please? Tell me seriously if it sucked.