How could he love a boy he knew he hated

Summary: How could he love a boy he knew he hated. It had to be admiration or something else to make him feel this way.

"I love Matt… I love Matt!"

Uncertain Love

A/N: Since I wrote a MattxMello story I decided to do one with MelloxNear. I'm not all that fond of this pairing but I kinda find it rather cute and it could happen someday and it could have happened if they weren't always competing. Near likes Mello and Mello likes Near and slowly admits that he does. Although I love Matt with almost all of my being, he's going to have to be heartbroken-well-single. 'Heartbroken' is too mean a word. XD

Mello had never noticed until now. Right when he felt the quivering boy in his arms he knew that he did have feeling that he knew he had but never thought to admit them. They seemed too weird, too unnatural. It happened so suddenly that he couldn't help it happening, but he never thought more than once about pushing him away…

A few hours earlier…

The blond had a feeling that there would be a storm. The sky looked alright: it was still its usual, beautiful color of blue and small, weak clouds shrouded the area without them seeming to cause a threat. The only things that tipped him off was the sweet smell of perspiration in the air and huge formation of clouds over the mountains. Several wammy children took advantage of the weather that moment and squeezed some time into playing softball and cart wheeling down hills. But the only thing that concerned the boy right now was to see his best friend Matt. They had been friends almost right after Mello came to the orphanage. Mello was skeptical at first but he grew to like the boy in just a few weeks.

He eventually made it to his room and didn't even bother to knock; he just barged in unannounced. Matt was used to this though. He was unfazed and didn't avert his guys to the entering blond. It was also because the two shared a room now. Mello slept on the bottom bunk because he awoke before Matt did and was never good at keeping still for long and was forced to move around just because he felt the urge. Matt gave a simple 'hello' as Mello wondered to his chocolate stash which was hidden conveniently behind the bookshelf. He unwrapped the chocolate and savored the taste when it hit his lips.

"Do you think it's going to rain?" Mello asked knowing that the answer was pretty obvious. He saw how the thick clouds were closer to this area when he stared out their window.

Matt shrugged, "Maybe. I don't really care." The red head wasn't scared of thunderstorm and neither was Mello. He was used to loud noises due to his knack for playing video games day in and day out with the volume all the way up in his earplugs. Before Mello could finish his sigh Matt interrupted, "Did nothing exciting happen today?" He laughed lightly, his attention still on his DS, "You apparently have nothing interesting to talk about right now."

The older groaned, "You can read me like a book…"

"You're just too damn predictable." He smiled as he looked up. His eyes, hidden behind tented goggles, showed signs of satisfaction.

Mello pounced onto the gamer, "Oh Matt!" He whined, "If you'd spend more time with me then maybe I wouldn't be so bored!" The blond supported his body weight so he wasn't crushing his friend. "Will you walk with me?" He heard Matt laughing from under him but he knew he hated it when he jumped on him.

"Come on Mello, get off." The gamer supported his weight by leaning against his elbows, "I'll go if you get off."

Mello laughed and embraced the red head tightly, "You're the best!"

The boy darted out of the room while Matt followed after him. He knew taking his gameboy was a good idea considering he recognized the regular routine that was about to happen…

The hallways seemed to have gotten darker due to the absence of the sun. The clouds were just getting closer and closer by the minute and they just threaten to pour down rain. Mello seemed to have been more enthusiastic now that Matt was here and it was true that Matt looked his happiest with him also. While the blond jumped around, holding onto Matt's arm the red head just smiled and laughed awkwardly. That's when a certain white haired boy caught Matt's eye. He was new, only about 2 or 3 years younger than them. He seemed shy but he knew he wasn't. He just… was antisocial… He was also the kid that Mello couldn't stand.

After a few moments when they past by him he was almost safe to assume that Mello didn't see him, but that was when he felt the boy pause. The moment seemed to have stood still when they did. The albino also felt the awkwardness and paused to look up to see what eyes were on him. Mello seemed to be the only one who was upset about the matter. His eyes were so full of fire, but after a few moments his eyebrows creased and the look of a failure enveloped his face. Matt stared helplessly at the boy, knowing how he felt. He hated this part of the day and wished they never had to come this part of the building, but Mello always said that he'd get better. He never did…

Matt could never read what was on Near's face. At first his stare was completely blank with confusion but it gradually saddened each time they saw each other. "Mello…" Before Mello had a chance to run away the loud, natural sound of thunder replaced the silence. The crackle was so loud that it even made Matt jump. The lights began to flicker until they eventually shut off. There was darkness and small screams from the other kids that were in the hall at the time. There was another sound of thunder and it was immediately replaced by the sound of rain. Lightening flashed before their vision as they all stared at the huge window in front of them. The sight seemed so beautiful even though it was dangerous. The sun was trying its best to shine its rays through the clouds so all it could manage was the turn them into a beautiful blue while the rain always seemed nice to the blond.

Before he could get too into the scenery Matt took his hand and nudged him towards his direction, "Mello. We have to go." At first he had no idea why until he saw all of the kids running down the halls as teachers and aides guided them. When Mello started to follow it seemed like more kids flooded the halls until there was no room left for his legs to let him run. The blond tripped, feeling feet and shoes collide with his body.

He heard another lightening strike…

…His vision turned black for the slightest second…

Then it was silent…

It felt colder now. Maybe it was because the electricity went out just a few minutes ago. Mello sat up and held onto his head which knocked so harshly. Damn that hurt! He looked around and finally noticed that he was alone. "Matt? Matt!" He stood up and before he was able to run two steps towards their last direction he stopped to see a person quivering on the floor. He looked even harder to see that it was the albino that he hated with all of his being. "Near…?"

He hated him. He hated how this little boy took his spot of number one at wammy house. But if…

But if he…

Hated him so much then… why did he feel the need to help him after he saw the poor boy's rosy cheeks while silver tears flowed down them? He never thought that he'd take Near's hand and guide him to a safer place. That he'd find a room and rock the boy gently to sleep while he thought of some more reasons why he'd even think he did that…

He didn't like him…

But he didn't completely hate him either…

Mello turned his gaze to the now sleeping albino who lied on his chest. He caught himself stroking the boy's hair and quickly stopped himself. He couldn't. What he was doing was wrong. How could he like and hate an enemy at the same time? No… he came up with a reason. Because the damn kid wouldn't shut up about it…

That would be his story. To tell to Matt… He sighed knowing that, that story would never work. I'll just have to tell this kid to keep his mouth shut about this. The blond looked down once more at the boy. But… for now… He rested his head on Near's and drifted off into sleep…

"So what did you guys do last night!? " Matt asked, curious but he also looked hurt

"N-nothing. I swear." Mello stammered.

Matt crossed his arms, "You like him… don't you?"

"No way! I like you!" The blond reached out his hand only for the gamer to slap it away. "Matt…"

I like you…

I like you…!

Mello woke up to the sound of babbling kids. The morning sun stung his eyes and already he knew that something was wrong-different-this morning. This wasn't his room. The feel of this certainly felt more like a couch than a bed and he felt something soft in between his fingers. The boy peered down to see the albino staring back at him. Mello's eyes widened as he shifted his position. "I see you're finally awake." Near replied, sitting up a little.

"Wha-what-what happened!?" As if I didn't know the answer already!

The younger scooted closer to the blond, "You helped me… Why?"

Mello grew pink, "I just couldn't… leave someone who was in need… I guess…"

"I thought you hated me." Before Mello could tell the boy he had the wrong idea, Near locked his lips with his…

Ah! Finished chapter one! This is also a continuous story but I don't think it'll be as long as the last one. (What a relief huh?) Hope you liked this one and-maybe-I'll see you in chapter 2! I'm hoping it'll be a little longer. Oh and sorry their cussing even though their only, like, seven or eight years old. I (usually) cuss a lot when I write. (I don't cuss when I talk all that often though) Sorry if you don't like that.

:D