Diary Peeks...
A/N: Konnichiwa, Fruits Basket fans! I was really touched about the story and I'm getting too much carried away with it that's why I decided to write something about it. I thought that I could express my sentiments for the characters through this. I have this idea running across my mind for a couple of times since I started watching again this animé. I thought that it will be interesting if we'll have the opportunity to take a peek on Fruits Basket characters (actually, I first planned to make it as a poem but I think this one is better). I know you can relate some of the chapters in the episodes from the animé. Enjoy!
I do not own Fruits Basket. Disclaimed.
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When the cat learns to care for others...
02/11/03
Whaaah!! It was a very tiring day today! Though I really don't write something on my diary (if you can call it a diary), I just feel like writing on it today. Uhmm... For this day, I have challenged Yuki again as I'm supposed to do in order to win against him. I convinced him to battle me in an eating contest (since I know that I can't hardly beat him in martial arts and especially in academics and I know that Yuki is a good runner too). I always want to win against him. In that way I can develop my self-esteem and eventually, I can be accepted by my clan. I tried my best to challenge him in an eating contest but he refused. He is such a damn rat. I really can't wait until the time comes that I can finally crush him down.
I really hate him! He's always so annoying! I don't want to see his face and I hate to live with him. My day will not be complete unless we have a fight or have quarrel or just have a simple arguments over nonsense stuffs. But I must admit that I feel so incomplete without him. Hey! Don't misunderstand it. I mean that I could not sleep without seeing him beaten by me. Bwuahaha!
Honestly, I really hate myself. I hate being a cat and I hate that damn rat. I regret being cursed by this. I wonder if I could have a normal life or at least being accepted by the clan. I want to get their attention (not the negative ones). I want my clan to be proud of me and to be accepted by them. I want to beat that damn rat so badly so that somehow they could recognize me. I always got envy about him and I always dream of becoming like him. Even though I hate myself, I must accept the fact that I was born like this and I don't have the power to change it.
All I want is affection. Affection that I didn't feel ever since I was born. Everybody in the clan thinks that I'm an outcast and I am really, really upset about it. I want to hide from the reality but somehow, someone gives me the courage to accept it. She's always telling that she wants to be a cat. It's the myth that makes her think like that. Although I feel that she's just pity about what happened to the cat, I somehow feel that I was liked and loved for the very first time. Yeah, I really don't like girls that much because it will only cause Souma clan lots of trouble and I don't want her to be hurt. It was her who gives me the light to see the path that I'm going to. She accepted us for who we are and doesn't even feel disgusted about it. She even wants to befriend us in spite of that and I like her because she taught me how to care for others.
She always wears that enchanting smile. Somehow, I feel so pampered whenever I see that damn cute smile. Although she is a hopeless idiot, everybody loves her. I don't know why she has the power to change others even though she looks like an average girl. She always makes us smile and she seems to be so happy and contented with her life. Although I know that she just hides her sadness all by herself so that people around her would not feel sad. I know how she feels being alone and I can't help myself for being so sorry about it. She always kept her sadness alone and it makes me sick. Why can't she tell us? How can she bear that alone yet she always wears that beautiful smile? And what can I do to make her happy? What the heck! Why am I thinking about her? I know is none of my business... but I can't help but to think about her. Damn! This is so annoying. Am I inlove with her? What?! Why am I thinking that way? Oh crap! Maybe I'm just tired...
The day was over and I'm looking forward to tomorrow. Somehow, maybe I could see that wonderful smile again and maybe tomorrow will be the day that I can beat Yuki so that the clan will accept the existence of a cat in the family... And maybe somehow, tomorrow, I will learn to accept and to love myself more...
Kyo
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End Notes: Did you enjoy reading it? Whose Fruits Basket character's diary would you want to have a sneak peek again? Hope to hear something from you guys! Please review... Arigatou gozaimasu. Ja mata!
katryoma17
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