So today, I received my O.W.L. scores today. It is definitely not what I expected to get. I am not really sure if that is a good or a bad thing. There are really two ways that I could look at it.

First off, I have finally become an adult and can legally use magic out of Hogwarts. Not that the legal aspect of it has ever stopped me before. Anyway, that opens up so many opportunities for me but once again, I'm not sure if that is such a good thing. More on that later though.

Anyway, I guess I should tell you my scores before I go on about why it is such a horrible thing and a great thing as well. I received Outstanding in all subjects. Yes, to most, that would be a wonderful because they could go on to have the job of their dreams. Although that is a great thing, there are some bad things for me. First, I have my future to think about. What I wish to do does not require me to have Outstanding (now referred to as O) grades. The only one that really matters is Arithmancy because that is the only thing I enjoy. Now this may seem trivial to the average reader but to me, it is a big deal. I can already tell you that receiving all Os is going to cause me a lot of grief with my choice of career.

I want to be an arithmatist and no one is going to like that. You see, an arithmatist is similar to mathematician in the muggle world. They have very little to do that actually comes in handy and they really get very little respect. They also get no pay. That's where a major part of the problem is coming in. I'm a Malfoy and I maintain a lot of status simply by the name. However, we are also known for career choices that usually involve status and power. In these careers, no one ever mentions arithmatist as a well-renowned career. This is all fine with me but I somehow don't think Lucius will approve of this choice.

I can just imagine telling him. I think it would go something like this.

Me: Hey Lucius, I've decided that I want to be an arithmatist.

Lucius: What?! You can't possibly be serious! NO SON OF MINE WILL EVER HAVE SUCH A POOR CAREER!

Me: But it is what I want to do and it is the only thing I am good at!

Lucius: NEVER! YOU WILL BECOME PART OF THE FAMILY BUSINESS JUST LIKE I DID AND YOU WILL NOT BE AN ARITHMATIST!

Me: IT IS WHAT I WANT TO DO AND THERE IS NO WAY THAT I WILL EVER BE A DEATH EATER! YOU CAN'T STOP ME OR TELL ME WHAT TO DO ANYMORE! I'M AN ADULT!

Lucius: I CAN AND WILL TELL YOU WHAT TO DO! cruciatus curse

That's just a simple part of it. I know I will be strongly "encouraged" into the family business of being a death eater. To most people, being a death eater is not a business but my family takes that very seriously. Lucius lives off of the fame and fortune of our ancestors and assumes that is what I want to do. Of course, it is not. The only reason that he has not forced me into this role yet is because I was still underage and could not perform magic in public.

Of course, I was allowed to practice magic at home because he could always get me acquitted of any charges they would think to bring up. They only tried to charge me once however. After that it didn't matter. He would only allow me to practice curses and spells that would be useful in harming people. That was his idea of fun.

Anyway, back to my original topic. I can't tell him without putting myself in severe danger but I can't do something against my will.

Do I go against my family and forget my ambition or do I forget my family and chase my dreams?

My ambition leads me to my dreams and ambition always wins because I'm a MALFOY!