"The greatest weight.-

What, if some day or night a demon were to steal after you into your loneliest loneliness and say to you: 'This life as you now live it and have lived it, you will have to live once more and innumerable times more; and there will be nothing new in it, but every pain and every joy and every thought and sigh and everything unutterably small or great in your life will have to return to you, all in the same succession and sequence - even this spider and this moonlight between the trees, and even this moment and I myself. The eternal hourglass of existence is turned upside down again and again, and you with it, speck of dust!'

Would you not throw yourself down and gnash your teeth and curse the demon who spoke thus?... Or how well disposed would you have to become to yourself and to life to crave nothing more fervently than this ultimate eternal confirmation and seal?

To endure the idea of eternal recurrence on needs: freedom from morality;...the enjoyment of all kinds of uncertainty, experimentalism, as a counterweight to this extreme fatalism."

Friedrich Nietzsche, The Joyful Science


My lovely woman. My charming man.

You've been through so much pain, haven't you?

The world has been so cold to you. And all you've ever known, all you were ever taught to believe was cruelty and despair. There is so much you've lost, and even more you can never get back.

I can feel your sorrow because your pain is so deep that sometimes I worry how I'll ever be able to pull you out. I want to help you, but I know all your suffering and torment was because of me. You could've abandoned me. You should've let me go.

But you didn't.

Neither of you did.

You showed me love and gave everything you had to keep my life ablaze with warmth.

You fought for me, and submerged your life into darkness so I could see the light.

You are more special to me than God himself. And I promise everything you've given me, all the life you've promised to my future – I will give back.

So please, no matter what happens don't stop.

Keep moving forward.