Authors Note-Okay, so in the books it seems like Tonks was the only girl that Remus had ever been with. I like to think, however that there was someone before Tonks. A Muggle girl. The story will follow Remus into adulthood, and I have a few chapters written already. I decided to post two chapters, so in case you don't like the first so much, hopefully the second will be better.
Disclaimer-I do not own any of these characters, JKR does.
Remus Lupin writhed on the hard wooden floor the of the small cabin. He could feel his nose growing into a snout, the hair on his head spreading all over his body and becoming longer, more bristly…he could still think somewhat, he knew who he was, but that was just for the moment. He screamed in agony as his hands and fingernails turned into paws and claws, the pain shot up his arms and down through his spine, forcing him to lay flat on the floor and through his hind legs, where his feet were becoming paws as well. Where were James, Sirius, and Peter? He could feel that his thoughts were becoming less and less human…all he could smell now was flesh, human flesh, the smell, oh that wonderful smell…his snout sniffed the air hungrily, he needed nothing other than to break out of there, to bite, bite something, rip it's flesh apart. The need was consuming him as the transformation completed. His friends were still not there, they weren't coming he knew, he'd have to suffer this completely alone, spend the entire night in this torture chamber.
He threw himself from wall to wall, ripping up the floorboards, and gnawing on them, gaining no satisfaction. He sunk his claws into the already demolished bed, where were they where were they? The smell of human blood came closer, his stomach rumbled, and he stopped clawing the bed. It was coming from the passageway, yes, yes this is what he wanted. His nose went into the air in an instant, and he bounded to the door, jaws dripping saliva as he waited patiently. He walked up the passage, hoping to catch whoever it was before they could come into the room and have somewhere to run, he didn't want to chase, the bloodlust inside him didn't want the challenge. It wanted the feeding to be swift.
He saw a small, pale face, for an instant, and snapped his jaws hungrily as he ran towards the face. It disappeared quickly, and he ran after. As soon as he left the exit however, a large, hard branch threw him back in. Blood trickled from the gash in his chest as he howled in agony. He was alone, all alone…
Remus Lupin the human woke up, sweaty from his dream. His light brown hair was plastered to his head, and his red striped pajamas were soaked with sweat. He tried to stop his self from shaking, to stop his teeth from chattering, but he couldn't. Thank goodness it was the end of the year…he wanted to go home, go home to his parents. He looked forward to his seventh year, but he missed the comfort of home. Home he was safe, there was still the danger of his transformations, but his parents always made his summer holidays more than worth the two summer nights of torture.
He always missed his friends, but they corresponded using owl post, and they were together for the whole year. Two months of separation would be okay. Of course, Padfoot and Prongs were inseparable the entire year, but unlike Sirius, Remus liked his family, even though they didn't have much. Remus just sat up in bed for a moment, trying to clear his head by admiring the sunrise occurring outside. The sky was no longer the deep blue-black adorned by liberal sprinklings of stars that he knew so well; it was a deep purple color, with a semi-circle of red orange tinged with pink slowly rising. After his breathing was totally normal and he felt that he could close his eyes without seeing his dream play out again, he fell back asleep.
A mere hour later, Remus woke to find a pair of light brown eyes staring directly into his face. "Aahh!" he screamed and threw James off of him onto the floor. In the bed directly next to him, a slightly tan face poked out from behind the bed-curtains.
"What the hell are you two prats doing out here?" Sirius said grumpily.
"Last day of term excitement, Padfoot" James grinned at his best friend from the floor.
"Well can you please be excited when I'm not trying to get some rest? It takes a lot to wake up this sexy." With that his face disappeared behind the curtains again. James pulled himself up from the floor and ripped the curtains back open.
"Riight," he said. "Well you may be less than your best today cause you're getting up and we're going flying before we have to leave."
Sirius put a pillow over his head to block out the sun that was now streaming it's pale yellow rays onto his bed. "Breakfast?" said his voice muffled.
"Flying first, food after" James said from his trunk, where he was pulling on robes and taking out his broom.
"The things I do for friends" Sirius muttered as he swung his legs over the side of his bed and went over to his trunk. "Hey, Wormy's still sleeping. Wake him up, James. No way piggy gets to sleep and I have to get up." James stopped lacing up his sneakers to poke Peter repetitively with his broomstick.
"Why the hell are you hitting me with your broomstick so early in the morning?" Peter whined nasally.
"Stop your crying" Sirius said as he quickly pulled his long black hair into a ponytail. "Ready Prongs?" he asked, walking toward the stairs.
"Yep" said James and he put his broomstick on his shoulder after running his fingers through his dark hair a few times. "Say, what are you gonna do before we have to leave, Moony?"
"Try to find my things among all this mess" he said gesturing towards the floor which was littered with books, parchment, clothing, and quite a few broken quills. "I'll put your and Sirius' stuff on your beds."
"Thanks Moony" James said gratefully. "What would we do without you?"
"Miss the train, and probably do something incredibly stupid to try and catch up with it" he said wearily as he stood and picked up a book. He checked the name inside of it and saw Sirius' familiar scrawl. He tossed the Defense Against the Dark Arts book onto Sirius' already full bed. Magazines containing barely clothed Muggle girls, Quidditch plays, clothes, and various other articles were strewn all over the four poster.
James laughed and said "That would be great, but maybe not today. I'M COMING, COOL YOUR BLOODY HEELS!" Sirius had been screaming his name up the steps.
Remus laughed at his friends as James went downstairs spewing a stream of curses at Sirius. He could hear Sirius' casual laughter and the closing of the portrait hole as they left. With only Peter left in the room, cleaning would be quiet. However, loud, peace-shattering snores soon began to emit from Peter's bed, and Remus grew agitated. He cleaned swiftly to escape from Peter's growls of sleep, and hurried downstairs to breakfast as quickly as he could. James and Sirius were already at the table, and Sirius' charm was in full effect. There were several fifth and fourth year girls crowded around him. Remus quickly slid into a seat beside James, who was making short work of a stack of pancakes and sausage.
"How did cleaning go?" James asked through a mouthful of food, not even pausing to look at Remus as he shoveled food into his mouth.
"Fine" Remus said lightly as he helped himself to some eggs and hash browns. "You and Sirius really should pack, we're leaving after lunch."
"Oh, Sirius, will you write me over summer holiday?" asked one particularly smitten girl, Alice Green. She batted her black eyelashes and her violet eyes twinkled mischievously.
"Erm…I'll see Alice" he said uncomfortably. The one girl whom he really had eyes for and totally respected was looking at him with a look of supreme disgust at him. The girl was Anne Waters. She was one of Lily's friends, and a very pretty girl who was amazing in Charms. She was roughly the color of milk chocolate, with deep brown eyes and curly black hair that hit her shoulders. She often tortured Sirius in the common room by charming his things. She had embarrassed him a few days ago when he bewitched an origami heart to sing to her, and she charmed all his clothes to shrink as soon as he put them on. All day he walked around looking like he was wearing a toddlers clothes. Even Professor McGonagall had spared a laugh at him.
"Who's wrong side did you get on, today, Black?" she had said with a snicker, while Sirius' face turned beet red and Anne, Lily, and their friend Janie exploded into raucous laughter, as did Remus, James and Peter. Sirius had just shrunk into his seat as if Anne had placed the charm on him.
Remus could see why Sirius liked her, but not why she liked him. Everyone knew that they liked each other, but like Lily, Anne refused to go out with a marauder, claiming that they were immature chauvinists. Except for Remus of course, they always added while smiling gently at him. James laughed at Sirius' reaction to Alice and Sirius' hand slyly reached over to James' plate and slid it into his lap.
Remus stared out the window as the Hogwarts Express rattled on the metal tracks. He saw brown, black and white cows, and rolling green pastures. There was a commotion in the hall and Sirius, James and Peter slipped into the compartment with perfectly angelic looks on their faces. There was moaning from in the hallway and Remus turned to his friends sharply. "And just what where you three doing?" he asked, sounding very much like McGonagall.
"Ah, don't get your knickers in a bunch Moony" James said airily. "Just hexing a few Slytherins to celebrate the end of the year." Remus shook his head, and Anne Waters poked her head into the compartment.
"James, Lily wants to talk to you about something," she said, completely ignoring Sirius despite the fact that he was looking up at her with the look of a lovesick puppy. James grinned and ruffled his hair slightly. Anne rolled her brown eyes. "No need to get all pretty" she said huffily.
Sirius, who was sitting right by the door, sheepishly said "Can I talk to you, Anne?" The look in his eyes must have said a lot to her, because she sighed slightly, grabbed his hand and led him out of the compartment. James looked at his reflection in the mirror, ruffled his hair again, and walked out as well. Only Remus and Peter were left. They weren't the best of friends, and neither was very talkative, so Remus picked up the book that he had sat next to him and began to read. His thoughts began to wander though, to thoughts of his friends. He thought that Sirius and James were so lucky. They had girls almost literally throwing themselves at them, while he had yet to kiss a female that wasn't a female member. He wondered vaguely is he ever would…but who would want to be with a werewolf?
Peter once again began snoring, and Remus noticed that the sky was growing dark. It wouldn't be long before they were back at King Cross station, Platform 9 and ¾. He pulled off his robes and stuffed them into the duffel bag he had in addition to his trunk. James and Sirius hadn't come back yet. Remus could only guess what was going on in Lily and her friends compartment. Just as he was thinking that, both Padfoot and Prongs came back into the compartment. Both had slightly red faces, and their eyes were dancing happily.
"What happened to you two?" he asked as they too pulled off their robes.
"Oh, nothing…Lily just wants to talk some more over the summer" James said with a huge grin. He sunk into his seat, a dreamy look in his face.
Sirius had an identical look on his face, and Remus noticed a hint of shiny gloss on his face that wasn't there before. "Anne has finally seen the light as well, mate" he said sleepily. "When are we getting there? I'm tired…and hungry. Hope your mom cooked, Prongs."
"I'm sure she did" James said, licking his lips at the thought of the feast his mother probably had laid out at home. He could hear the pots and pans banging already. "By the way Remy, what are you doing this summer?"
"I don't know, probably just gonna knock around the house a bit."
"Oh, you're welcome to come round my house at any time" James offered, ad he did every summer.
"Nah, my parents get worried when I'm away, I'll write you guys though" Remus said. He didn't want his parents to be worried, even if he went before or after the full moon.
"'Kay then" James said. He peered out the window past Peters head which was leaning on it. "I think we're almost there" he said, as a series of tiny lights came into view. Remus leaned across the compartment and screamed into Peter's ear.
"OI! WAKE UP PETER, WE'RE ALMOST HOME!" Peter jumped so far out of his seat his head nearly hit the ceiling.
"Sirius was that completely necessary?" Peter said rubbing his bright black eyes.
"Yep" Sirius said as the train began to slow. "Well, mates, this is the end of the line" Sirius said solemnly. They grabbed their trunks and exited the train. The boys gave each other pounds and quick hugs before parting. Sirius completely ignored his parents as they welcomed his brother Regulus. They did little more than exchange icy glares. Remus watched as Mr. and Mrs. Potter welcomed Sirius and James warmly and they disappeared through the barrier. Peter also disappeared with his parents, and Remus looked around for his mother and father. They were standing a bit away from everyone else, looking for their son's familiar sandy brown hair.
He ran as quickly as he could to them, considering the crowd. All three embraced tightly.
Remus' looks favored his father. His father had sandy brown hair, green eyes, and had a thin face. His mother had strawberry blond hair and Remus' brown eyes that were slightly flecked with amber. When they pulled away Remus saw a tear escape from his mother's eye and his father rumpled his hair playfully.
"Good to see you son" his father said. A small crooked smile appeared on his face. Remus returned the gesture. "Well-lets be going then" he said, and together the small family disappeared through the barrier.
Remus was thoroughly enjoying his vacation so far. His parents were showering him with attention. They had saved up while he was in school and bought a bookcase and put his entire book collection in it. He had been so surprised when he went into his room and seen all of his books that were usually in cardboard boxes under his bed lined up perfectly, just like a library. There was even a row of new books, and so far he had spent the first two weeks devouring them. There were both Muggle books and wizarding books. He read Pride and Prejudice, Hogwarts, A History, and various others. He was soon done though, because he had nothing much else to do but read. So he decided that he wanted to go into the town near his house and buy more books from the Muggle book shop.
His parents however, weren't so sure about this idea. "I don't know, Remus," his mother said warily. They were sitting down at the small table in their kitchen, and his mother was gripping a cup of tea. She looked weary. He knew that his parents were having trouble making ends meet. His fathers small janitorial job at the Ministry of Magic and his mothers job working in a Muggle shop weren't bringing much in.
"Mother, please" he said, taking her rough hand in his larger and slightly smoother one. "I hardly ever get to go out. It's not the full moon, and besides, it's broad daylight. I'm not just going to transform in the middle of the day."
His mother eyed him, as if unsure that we wouldn't transform spontaneously. However, she realized that she couldn't deny her son's logic. He made a lot of sense, and finally she gave in. "Fine. But you'll have to use your money, your father and I can't really spare any…"
"Thanks Mom!" he said and he hugged her tightly. She hugged him back and kissed his forehead. Remus jumped up from his seat and ran upstairs to his room. He opened his trunk quickly and pulled out the small money pouch he had. He counted how much Muggle money he had and stuffed it all into his pocket. Remus ran back downstairs, light-hearted because he was getting out of the house. Finally. After a quick kiss on his mothers cheek, he dashed out the door and into the sunshine.
Hope you liked this, it's just a start, please review! I'm posting chapter two immediately after this, so please review and let me know how I can improve. Read the next chapter as well, and let me know if it gets any better, what I can improve, what you'd like to see more of, etc. Thank you!
